I woke up and ran to the bathroom. I been waking up in the middle of the night throwing up for the past week. Ever since Manny came back around. He saying I might be pregnant but I'm hoping not, cause it's a chance it ain't his depending on how far along I am.
The night Red sent me the videos, me and him had sex. I went home and started drinking and smoking like a bitch and he hit me up. One thing led to another. I haven't told Manny cause he wasn't worried about it. Now that a baby might be involved, I have to tell Manny.
I brushed my teeth after I threw up. After I brushed my teeth I lifted up my shirt and looked at myself in the mirror. I look so bloated. I can't believe this shit.
After looking at myself for a few minutes I decided to take a test I bought and hid. Manny is at work, the kids are sleep, so I don't see why not.
I grabbed it and peed on the stick. I sat it on the counter before wiping myself and flushing the toilet. As I turned on the water to wash my hands I seen the test quickly turn positive. My mouth dropped as I grabbed my chest. I grabbed the test and dropped to the floor as I covered my mouth.
I knew it, but I didn't want it. Don't get me wrong, I wanted to get pregnant again. By Manny though, definitely not by Red. The fact that it's possibly his got me questioning this whole pregnancy. I can't get an abortion though. I gotta tell Manny the truth.
...
"You hungry?", my momma asked as I sat down at the kitchen table.
"No.", I shook my head as I unzipped my jacket.
"What's wrong?" As I shook my head I felt nauseous. I ran to the bathroom and threw up. I'm throwing up water at this point. I couldn't eat since I took that test in the middle of the night. Manny home sleep, after the kids got up we came here right away since my momma was off.
After I finished I rinsed my mouth out and went back to the kitchen. My momma sat a water down in front of me as I sat back in my seat. "You pregnant?", she asked sitting next to me.
"Yeah.", I said lowly shaking my head.
"Is this a bad thing?"
"It can be."
"What you mean? Why?", she asked confused as I drank some water. I deeply exhaled.
"It might not be Manny baby.", I said honestly. She raised her eyebrows. "The night he had the girl dancing on him and we got into it I went home and got faded. The dude that sent me the video hit me up checking on me and we ended up linking.", I said as I played with the water bottle. She gasped.
"Me and Manny been you know unprotected. Like a month after I mess with dude I just end up pregnant. It could be Manny's but it could be Red's.", I admitted.
"Khalid friend Red?!" I nodded. "He already got like 3 kids he don't care for. If it's his be prepared to do it on your own."
"I already do it on my own."
"Don't sit there and lie. Manny do for Papa too.", she corrected me. She right. "Depending on how this all play out, it might be you on your own. You know I'm always here but as far as a man, a father figure, you gone be on your own."
"I know. I got an appointment Thursday. I know they gone tell me to stop working and take it easy. I gotta tell Manny sooner than later.", I said shaking my head.
"Yeah you do. Don't forget you always got a place here. This always your home." I smiled at her.
...
I held the kids hands as we walked to the door. As we made it the door was opened. They ran to Manny. He got down and picked them both up. He kissed my head as I made it in. I closed and locked the door before following them to the living room.
I watched them play as I thought about how things are about to change. Many looked at me and smiled making me smile. "Y'all was at mom's house?", he asked as the kids jumped from the couch to the floor. "Hey, don't do that.", Manny said to them shaking his head.
"Yeah.", I nodded. He nodded. He just looked at me. "What?", I asked.
"You got something to tell me?" I looked at him confused with the smile.
"Something like what?"
"You tell me.", he shrugged.
"Uhh no.", I chuckled. He went into his pocket and pulled something out. It's the test wrapper.
"This look like a pregnancy test wrapper." I just looked at it.
"It do don't it?" I just looked at it as I itched my head.
"Where the test?", he asked.
"I don't know, Leah took that last night while you was at work.", I said looking up at him. He sucked his teeth. "I'm serious. I'll call her." I called Leah and put her on speaker.
Leah:Hello?
Me:Leah?
Leah:Huh?
Me:Girl did you take a pregnancy test last night?
She ain't say nothing.
Leah:You with yo' momma girl?
Me:Naw Manny.
Leah:Awe cause you know I love yo' momma but she can talk her ass off but yeah. Did I leave it there? Not me getting you in trouble.
Me:Bitch I'm getting the third degree.
She laughed.
Leah:My bad girl. Imma come get it.
Me:Okay text me.
Leah:Okay.
We hung up. He just looked at me. "I coulda sworn she liked girls but okay.", he shrugged.
"Leah like what she like.", I shrugged with a smile.
"Well when you gone go see what's going on with you? You been throwing up since I been back. You allergic to me?"
"I think so." He sucked his teeth then threw a pillow at me. I threw it back and we started wrestling.
Papa started screaming and crying so we stopped. "It's ok baby we just playing.", I said picking him up. I softly bounced him as I took him to the kitchen. I sat him on the island and tried calming him down.
"N-no fighting momma.", he cried.
"No baby no fighting. We playing. It's ok." I wrapped his arms around me as Manny came into the kitchen. I scooped him up and started leaving. Manny stopped me. Papa moved his hands off me. I glanced at him as I left. I went to my room and laid with Papa until we both drifted off.
