The Suju Games

Chapter 36: Nightmares and Mothers

(Kibum)

That night, Kibum had a nightmare.

Yesung flipped them over so that he was on top of Sungmin. Kibum watched from the corner of the room, unable to move or speak.

"Yesungie don't tease!" Sungmin moaned.

"Okay, my love," Yesung whispered as he pushed his cock into Sungmin's hole and began thrusting in and and out of him.

"Yesung!" Sungmin moaned. The more Kibum heard and saw the more hurt he felt, he tried to close his eyes and cover his ears only to find that he was completely frozen, unable to move any part of his body, not even his eyelids.

"Are you still thinking about Kibum?" Yesung hissed into Sungmin's ear.

"Kibum? I never liked him, I love only you hyung-"

Kibum wanted to scream, but his mouth did not open, tears formed in corners of his glazed eyes. Then quite suddenly, his father appeared in front of him, his real father, Kim Jaejoong, it was the face that Kibum had seen on screen more than 10 years ago as a tribute, and even now as an old Victor.

"You will never," Jaejoong laughed in Kibum's dream, "Be better than my little brother." he looked at Yesung fondly before turning back to Kibum, "Such a wimp, I can't believe I have such a wimp for a son."

Kibum felt his heart breaking in his chest, and then the dream changed, he was standing, once again, in the corner of a room, but this time, it was a cottage, and in front of him was a beautiful lady that looked familiar, she was crooning over a baby, "Now Kibum, don't cry, okay honey? I'll just be outside for a minute or two." she kissed the baby, her eyes were full of love.

My mother, Kibum thought. He wanted to run to her and throw his arms around her neck, but once again he could not move. Then Taeyeon walked out the front door and a man slipped in through the back, the man from the hospital in 12. His grandfather, he took the baby and ran out, hiding behind the door.

"Kibummie baby I'm back!" Taeyeon called gaily as she skipped through the front door with a basket of flowers, "Kibummie?" she looked confused to see that her son was not in his cradle, "Kibummie!" and then from outside, the man set the house on fire. Taeyeon tried to run out the other door, but the flames caught up with her as the man walked away from the house with the baby and a triumphant smile on his face.

"Jaejoong! Jaejoong help!" Taeyeon screamed as she fell to her knees, "Jaejoong save me!"

And suddenly Kibum felt his body relax, it was like being freed, he could move again, "Mother!" he called, battling the flames, "Mother I'm coming!"

"Kibummie?" she asked, even in this moment, her voice was as sweet as syrup.

"Mother!" Kibum tried to carry her, but she resisted, "Listen Kibum, my Kibummie." she said, smiling at him fondly, "I am not meant to live, but you are, and I can tell that you will be a great, great man someday."

"Mother don't go!" Kibum sobbed.

"I love you Kibummie, someday, I promise that someday, you will be with your father, I - I love you Kibum." and she drew her last breath in his arms.

"I love you too mother." Kibum sobbed, and then the flames were extinguished and he was back in his room at the Rebel's quarters.

"Kibum!" Donghae and Eunhyuk were standing over him, "Did you have a nightmare?"

"N-n-no." Kibum stammered.

"Kibummie?" Donghae sat down on his bed, "Do you need anything?"

"I want- I want my mother." Kibum sobbed dryly.

Donghae and Eunhyuk both knew that he meant his biological mother, Kim Taeyeon, not the people who had raised him. "And I want to punch that ugly, dirty man!" Kibum added angrily.

"I think you should go talk to your dad." Eunhyuk said.

"You think?"

"Yeah, I do." Eunhyuk said firmly, "I asked around for you where his room is, it's room 205 on the third floor."

"Okay," Kibum got up and got dressed, he put on blue top and jeans (Dancing Out MV Outfit), as usual, he looked hot.

"Off you go." Eunhyuk said, giving him a gentle nudge.

"Right." he said, he was already half way out the door when Donghae called for him, "Kibum?"

"Yeah?" Kibum turned back.

Donghae gave him a thumbs up, "Fighting!"

Kibum couldn't help but smile as he left the room, his smiled suprised himself, that just went to show how much true friends could help through hard times.

***

Kibum stood outside his father's door, feeling nervous to knock, This is it. He thought, puffing up his chest a bit so as to feel more comfortable, My father is in there. He mustered his courage and knocked on the door one, two, three times.

At first, there was no reply, and Kibum wondered, Isn't he in there? Or maybe he doesn't want to see me? But then Kibum realized that Jaejoong did not even know it was him. Maybe he doesn't want to see anyone at all. He thought gloomily.

But then a voice came from inside the room, "Who is it?" It was a voice that could not be described, manly, yet sweet, and sassy all at the same time.

Kibum did not know how to reply, what was he supposed to say? Your son that you haven't seen for like 15 years? Maybe just his name? Kim Kibum?

"Look if you're not gonna reply then I'm not gonna open the door, I'm too lazy to get off this chair unless it's too torture Junsu or something anyways." Kibum felt a little shocked at his fathers words.

"It's me..." he said nervously.

"Look, answer properly," Jaejoong chided from inside the room, "Me who?"

"Me...Kim Kibum." And the door swung open immediately.

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(A/N)

And here comes Jaejoong, who could possibly be my favorite character ever.