Heal me // A Jikook Trilogy //

《15》Jimin is Pain

Okay guys, this is a tough one. Hope you'll be all right lovelies and I totally get it if you kinda hate me after this...
Definitely a chapter for Content warning concerning violence.
And emotional scarring...

I didn't know where I was.

One second, I was back in that cellar in the Orphanage, darkness surrounding me, the sound of children laughing behind the door with distorted, crazy sounds.
I banged against the door, screaming, begging.
No one answered.
Only more laughter.
But it sounded more familiar now.
No longer that of children, but grown ups.
Male.
They called me Bunny.

In the next moment, I was under water, drowning, struggling to suck in air that wouldn't come- only freezing, dirty water.

Then I stood on a rooftop, the sun high in the sky.
But no... it wasn't the sun.
The light came form something else.
Something bright and glowing, descending from the cloudless sky.
It blinded me, yet I couldn't look away.

The brightness receded and the light formed a body, small of frame but familiar.
White hair crowning his head, lips as soft as the clouds that he must have stolen from the sky.

"Why didn't you ask me, Jungkook?" Jimin asked, still glowing with that fading light but standing so impossibly far away- right at the roof's edge.
His gaze was so sad- too sad for something so lovely.
An angel.
Yes.. an angel like the one's the nuns had preached about.
So they were real after all.
But why was this one so sad?

"Why did you let me walk away?"

I didn't know what to answer so I just stood there as he flayed his arms wide- like wings.
His eyes closed, the tears freezing on his face before they splintered into a dozen pieces at the floor.

"Why, Jungkook? Why did you do this to me?" he asked and let himself fall backwards.

I screamed in utter, all consuming panic as I lounged forward but knew I wouldn't be fast enough.
Wouldn't get to him in time.
And as I reached the edge and looked down, I saw him at the bottom, his body broken and limbs twisted the wrong way.
Only his white hair was falling around him in a perfect circle.
Like a halo.
I screamed again and jumped after him, but I never reached the bottom.

I was gone again.

Somewhere else.

In a cemetery, gravestones all around me, the grass pale green and sickly looking.
It was raining, the world coloured to a misty grey.
I stumbled forward, not sure where I was going until I noticed the figure in the distance.

He stood alone, his back to me, his face obscured by shadows, dressed in a black, simple suit and a black umbrella shielding him from the heaven's tears.
I neared him even as everything inside me told me to run and hide, my clothes soaked after only a few seconds.
I stood beside him, shivering with the cold.

His voice, when he spoke, was nothing but a rumble, like thunder in the distance.

"I offered you protection, Jungkook. I told Jimin I'd get you out. Why would you do this to him?"

I blinked in confusion, before the figure in black pointed at the gravestone he stood before.
And in big letters, Jimin's name stared back at me.

I glanced to another stone to my right and there it was again.
Jimin's name.
I looked around.
His name was on all of them.
Some old, some new, some drawn in cursive letters others small, some barely visible, some in big, capital letters, staring accusingly at me.

"Why, Jungkook? He wanted to help you. Why did you betray him like this?"

Namjoon- it had to be Namjoon. I knew it despite the darkness hiding his features.