Heal me // A Jikook Trilogy //

《60》The Docks

We drove in silence.

I hated it.
Hated that we were splitting up.
Hated it even more to feel the tremble in Jimin's body as he no doubt tried to prepare meeting his sister after all those years and knowing the truth of who she was now.

Tae was pale as well, his eyes unfocused like he was with Lian in his mind.
Jin drove with a stern look on his face and Yoongi looked no less dark.
And yet, shimmering in his eyes was worry too.

It wasn't the right time, not by any means, but for some reason I couldn't hold in my curiosity anymore.

Perhaps it was the fact that none of us were sure we would walk out of the docks alive.
Never had we done something more risky or with less preparation.

"What's going on between you and Hoseok?"

Yoongi tensed the second the question slipped over my lips.
His eyes lowered and he swallowed thickly while he started fiddling with his fingers.

But while his body betrayed him, his voice sounded remarkably neutral, almost bored.

"Nothing. What should be going on?"

"Yoongi... do you honestly think we don't know something's been going on?"

The other's had lifted their heads, having come out of their trances and listening in on the conversation.
No.
I had definitely not been the only one wondering about their behaviour.

Yoongi was quiet for a while, then let out a long sigh.

"It's complicated."

"Maybe we can help make it... less complicated?" Jin offered, turning to look at him for a moment.

Yoongi's face changed into a strained expression, his lips pressed together and I noticed the tick in his jaw.
I saw the struggle too- and then he growled low and frustrated.

"We slept together, all right?!"

My head emptied out.
Say.
Fucking.
What??

"Like... in the same bed?" Tae asked carefully, but the shock in his eyes said he doubted it.

Yoongi let out another long breath, and then gravely whispered under his breath:
"No. Like...we had sex."

I let out a high-pitched sound of utter shock.

Hoseok and Yoongi?

And apparently, I wasn't the only one who felt like those news were a bomb going off right in front of us.

"When?" Jimin breathed, his eyes thrown wide in surprise.

Yoongi clearly felt uncomfortable, shifting in his seat but to all our surprise, he answered us.

"Like a week before Tae came to us? It... shit!" He growled, ruffling his hair in anger.

"I can't exactly say why it happened.
He had one of his episodes.
It wasn't as bad as last time, but it was fucking hard to deal with it myself.
He accidentally hit me in the face.
It didn't even hurt, seriously, but when he got clear in his head again, he was so upset...
He wouldn't shut up about how sorry he was, and that he was a horrible person, too fucked up and broken, and that I should just leave...
I don't know what came over me but I just...
I had to make him shut up.
So I kissed him.
And then- Well, I guessed he would be shocked out of his mind and stop with beating himself up about it.
But instead... he kissed me back.
And then- shit.
It just got out of hand."

We sat, jaws on the floor, eyes so wide you saw all of the iris.

"So... you slept together?" I breathed, still having a hard time wrapping my head around it.