Heal me // A Jikook Trilogy //

《64》The Life in Your Eyes

Jungkook POV again :)

It was quiet up here.
So, so quiet and peaceful.

The air was warm, yet refreshing, the sky a baby blue with the sun lighting up the world and from up here, I had a fantastic view.
Could see all of Seoul and then some more.
Could see the tilt of the earth, the way it flattened and disappeared in the distance.

There, right beneath me, was the buzzling, hectic life of the city, dozens of people as small as mice going on about their day, radiating life in small, little flames, some burning brighter than others.

But there, in the distance surrounding Seoul, the woods and rivers, fields and mountains had a sense of utter calm about them.
So comforting.
So still and calm and peaceful.
Such beautiful, stunning colours.

I closed my eyes and took a deep, long breath.

It was so nice up here.
I never wanted to leave.
Would be fine watching all these little lights beneath me, and then find some peace in the nature around.

Up here, I was untouchable.
I was safe.
Nothing could hurt me.
Nothing...

But there was something missing.

I couldn't put my finger on it, but every once in a while, I caught myself staring down at all those people with narrowed eyes.
Like I was trying to find something.
Or someone?

It was an odd sense.

To feel so at peace and calm, and yet something poked at me.
A truth perhaps?
A memory?
But I couldn't remember anything.

Not my name.
Not why I was here or where I had come from.
I just was.
And yet...

I had no idea how long I sat up here, but it grew.
That strange feeling in my chest, expanding.
Especially when one of those lights down below glowed bright and white.

I would look- and then feel disappointment.
And I had no idea why.
Only that it wasn't the person I was looking for.
Not the person who would make that strange sense of loss go away.
Of feeling... incomplete.

So I kept searching.
Kept zooming in on those little people who burned brightest, some almost blinding.
But when I saw their faces- no... not the face I was looking for.

"Jungkook."

I closed my eyes and sighed.
Ah.
There it was.
Not a face then... I was looking for a voice?

Such a lovely voice too.
And it had spoken a name.
Was it perhaps... my own?

"Please. Just come back to me."

I frowned.
Come back?
Back where?
Why would I want to leave this place?

I couldn't tell how I knew, only that I suddenly did.
The world down there was cruel.
It was filled with monsters.

I had focused on those lights, but that was only part of the truth.
For there, creeping and sneaking through those lights, were the creatures of darkness.
Those, that seemed to suck the light right in, creating little voids of nothingness but when I looked hard enough, I could make out their ugly faces.

Distorted, gruesome.
Glowing red eyes, wicked teeth, limps missing, faces distorted or just put together wrong.
They wanted to hurt, lived off the pain.
Some flickered with the hints of light, other lights flickered with that darkness.

Good, bad, evil, half-good, half-bad.
It was all there.

But I was up here.
Safe.
At peace.