MY PAIN CANNOT BE HEALED

(CH-26)CONFRONTATION - III

MANORAMA WAS ABOUT TO LEAVE WHEN BONDITA AGAIN CALLS HER.

BON (looking at her)- ruk jao Manorama. Barrister babu mere sath na insaafi karte rahe aur tum chupchap mere sath na insafi hone deti rahi?? Mein roti rahi aur tumne unhe mujhe rulane deti rahi? Kya yehi hain tumhara azad bharat prati kah pehla padav? Ki ek bachi ko mentally torture hota dekh k chupchap rehna? Kya yehi hain tumhari kranti ki misal?

MANO (shaking her head in no)- nahi bondita

BON (holds her by shoulder and cries) - tum aaihi kyu meri jiwan mey sab barbaad kar k rakhdiya tumne meri jindagi aur meri khushiya. 13 sal ki thi sirf 13 sal jab sati hone wali thi pata bhi nahi tha ki sati kah aarth kya hota hain. Tab aandhere mey roshni ban k aaye Barrister babu aur ek sal baad kehte hain ki mera sindoor sankhapola sab dong hain ek dong kyu kyuki unhe tum bhagai unki manpasand, gunwan, hum ummer patni Shri Manorama Anirudh Roy Chaudhary.

MANO (holding her hand) - Bondita ismey Anirudh ki galti nahi hain ismey sirf meri galti hain ki meine yeh jante huye ki woh vivahit hain meine usse vivaah kah prastav diya..

BONDITA WAS SHOCKED. FURY WAS RAGING INSIDE HER

MANO - Bon..

BON (giving her the tightest slap) - chup ekdam chup ek bacchi se uska sansar chinte waqt jara sa bhi tumhara maan nahi hich kichaya Mujhse meri khushiya chin k kya paliya tumne. Aab mein samjhi ki aag sirf barrister babu ki taraf se nahi tumhari taraf se bhi lagi thi Manorama. Waa doh tota maine k bich mujhe aur meri bachpan ko barbaad karke rakhdiya waaa

MANO - nahi bondita

BON (looking at her with disgust) - Janti ho yesi ladki ko hamare samajh mey kya kaha jata hain

MANO - Bondita (in loud voice)

BON (with double louder voice)- aawaz niche Manorama bhulo maat mere ghar mey khadi ho tum. Aray kehdete ekbar ki Bondita chalijao mein chalijati na mera aapman aur mujhe mansik rup se pratarid karne ki kya jarurat thi tum dono ko. Mein ek bacchi thi Manorama ek bacchi jisse patni se pyaar kah aarth tak nahi pata tha usse uss baat ki aarth ko samjhane k bare mey sochna xod k dusri patni la ke usse sahi marg pe leke aana chahte thye. Aur tumne unka sath bhi diya. Agar meri jagha tum hoti aur tumhari jaghs mein hoti tab tum kya karti manorama

MANORAMA WAS NUMB

BON (looking at her) - behen choti behen kaha tha na tumne mujhe aray bhad mey jao tum. Agar tum jyasi behen hona toh logo ko dushman ki bhi jarurat na pare. Khud ko aaurat keh lane k layak samajhti ho kya tum khud ko.

MANORAMA GOT SILENT

BON (tear rolling down her eyes) - tumhara aur unka rishta bhalehi jhuta tha lekin mere aasu, mera dard, meri tadap, meri bhawnaye sacchi thi sacchi. Tum dono ne dong kiya tha lekin uss dong ne mujhe durval banadiya tha mujhe iss samajh k samne ek aadhuri aaurat banadiya tha. Aapdono ne yeh vivaah aapne swarth k liye kiya tha lekin iss sab mey mein jis dard se guzri huna woh sirf mujhe pata hain.

Ekbar khudse pucho Manorama kya mein yeh sab deserve karti thi? Kya mein itna dard deserve karti thi? Kya mein inn gauwalo kah tana sunna deserve karti thi? Kya ek bacchi ko barbar mansik rup se pratarid karna sahi tha? Kya mujhe sahi rasta pe lane ki bahane tum dono kah aapna swarth pura karna sahi tha? Kya ek vivahit purush ko vivaah kah prastav dena sahi tha Manorama jawaf doh Manorama aaj mere har ek sawal kah jawaf doh mujhe. Kyu kiya yeh sab kis liye kiya jawaf doh