Love in Limbo

Chapter Twenty Three

The birds hadn't long started chirping when I woke the next morning, and the skies were still a little dark as the sun rose in the sky. My first thought as my eyes opened was Sarah. My second thought was whose arm is flung around my waist. I turned in the bed, spotting the blonde locks of Blair on the pillow beside me. Her arm was tightly holding my waist, and it twitched as I moved. I smiled at the sight of her lips smudged together on the pillow, and rolled back to my position, staring at the ceiling.

I pulled my bottom lip into my mouth and grazed my teeth repeatedly over the plump flesh as I anxiously thought back to Sarah. I had just met her recently, she was completely new to me and yet I had some kind of pull towards her. It was the most unusual physical sensation that took hold of me every time that she was near. I hadn't ever considered her in a more romantic way, as in a thought I conjured. She was beautiful, and I could appreciate that, as anyone could who had met her, but my body seemed to react to her in a completely different way. When Sarah was close, and when she touched me... it seemed to cause a domino effect, and my walls all fell down, bearing themselves to her like she was a part of me returning home. Those moments were what had my thoughts turn to a more romantic sense. I wasn't creating the thoughts consciously, but they were more like a memory of her that was imprinted on me, a memory I couldn't view but could feel, and it had started to make me see her differently with every meeting. It was like the more I saw her the more I felt something stir inside. I knew that soon there would be an overwhelming need to act on it. It was a thought that worried me, because I had no right to act on my impulses. Sarah was a new friend, and she had never shown me anything but kindness and friendship. So, what was it that I was feeling?! And where did it even come from. How did she remember a conversation with me that I didn't even remember having?!

An image of Sarah popped back into my mind, and I think I must have sighed, because Blair flinched at the sound and woke up, her hands shot up above her as she dramatically stretched and yawned.

"Morning" she greeted, whilst yawning again.

"Morning" I returned, glancing at her as she looked out over the room, before she dramatically fell back into my sheets.

"Last night was insane" she revealed, talking into my shoulder.

I turned at that "What happened" I asked.

"Maddison Hudson and I, we actually shared a car ride back here" she revealed, laughing at herself.

"What?! why" I asked confused.

"Where do I even start" Blair says, looking at her cell phone and typing away before returning her focus to me. "So firstly you tell me about Maddie and this whole situation at homecoming, and then after the party Dad drops me off at the facility to see Sarah. She is visiting her Grams, so I wanted to give her the trophy, as her and Maddie skipped out before the end of the party"

She takes a breath and looks back at her phone to reply to a message. "Blair" I prompt.

"Sorry" she says, placing the phone back down "Well anyway, I walk in on Maddie and Sarah in the cafeteria having a moment together"

I feel a knot form in my stomach at this information, and almost see the cafeteria as if I'm there myself. "It looked intense" Blair offers, watching me for a reaction. "I think if I hadn't walked in they would have kissed" she adds, not taking her eyes from mine.

I sit up on my forearms and fling my head back, taking a deep breath "I need to get up" I say, turning away from Blair and forcing my legs into the correct position.

Blair sits up and crawls across the bed to sit beside me on her knees "Cass it bothers you doesn't it" she asks.

I shake my head as I place my hands under my knees, and move my legs to hang from the bed so that I can stand in a moment. "It doesn't" I return stubbornly.