Love in Limbo

Chapter Eighteen

"I can't believe you just did that" I say, looking down at Grams white hair on her temple as I push her back to her room from the torturous visit to Cassidy's.

I look out of the windows down the corridor and watch the pink sunset light the skies.

"I'm sorry honey" Grams apologised "but if I hadn't have forced you to come to that room I'm not sure if you would have ever felt the courage to face her again. I'm not sure you would have faced that pain"

"And is it not, my right, to make that decision for myself Grams" I reply with frustration.

"Honey, I haven't got time to be cautious or tip toe around the one thing that I know will help you.I know I shouldn't have, but I had too,
Sarah"

I push the wheelchair into the elevator and we take it back down to level two. I stand in silence, knowing she is right, like she always is, and that anything she has ever done has been to benefit me: Damn it though, I wanted to be angry. I knew the anger was misplaced, and I wasn't angry at Grams, I was angry at just about everything else. My life had become one cruel twist after another, and I wasn't sure how much more twist that my knot, nor my soul, would take... before it snapped.

Grams turned slightly in the chair as the bell rang and the doors slid open. She met my tired eyes, and her eyebrows raised slowly "I'm sorry honey" she whispered.

I leant down and wrapped my arms around her small body from behind, burying my face in the fabric of her dressing gown. "It's okay" I whispered. "It's not you...I'm just...a little lost... and to be honest I could have gone my whole life with never meeting Chase"

"Im sorry... I shouldn't push you...I already feel like I pushed you towards Cassidy in the first place, and the guilt would be eating me up but Sarah I truly believe that you and Cassidy are something...something special. I can't allow you to let that go because you are afraid. Chase lost her heart ages ago and Cassidy will remember that...sooner than later in my opinion"

"I'm not afraid Grams. I'm terrified. Chase, well I hope you're right about that. Cassidy deserves the truth" I say, releasing my arms from her shoulders and pushing her chair back down her corridor.

"Honey, I don't know if you've noticed but you have so many people who love and appreciate you in this town...some that you have refused to even let back into your life"

"Are you talking about Maddie" I ask, cutting her off. I stop the chair inside her doorway. I put the brake on and round the chair to face her.

"Maddie was your friend first, and I'm sure she would be a good friend again" she takes a breath "if you could just let her in or take her calls"

She takes another quick breath as I help her from the chair "But even without her you have your work friends...you have Blair, me, and you even have Cassidy"

"Cassie doesn't remember me" I remind her, taking her arm and walking her back to the bed.

"Pfft" Grams grunts "She may not...but her body seemed to react to you. I watched her the entire time you were there. Some part of that girl recognises you alright, and it's only a matter of time before all of the dots connect"

She was right, there was something different about Cassidy today, but before I can pull apart every moment of our interaction and obsess about every movement or glance a little more... I had just realised what Grams said.

"Can we just rewind this conversation...back to Maddison Hudson...I thought you hated her?! Why on earth would you be planting the seed that we should reconnect... and also Silvia" I emphasise the Silvia to grind her gears "How do you know I've been screening her calls and avoiding her"