Love in Limbo

Chapter Twenty Eight

"They are all gone" Maddie whispers, shutting my bedroom door and making her way to my bed in the dark. I feel the weight of her lay beside me. I lift my head from my pillow, feeling the wet of my tears that have pooled beneath me, causing my dark hair to cling to my cheek.

Maddie reaches up and pushes the hair from my cheek. We look at each other in the dark, she looks at me with a sadness, and I feel my lip wobble with emotion. She opens her arms, and I collapse into them sobbing, clinging to her for comfort.

"I got you" she whispers, kissing my forehead.

"Stay with me" I beg. 

And she does, she stays for the entire summer.

Maddie would become the cork that prevents the champagne from popping, and she would help me to suffocate the pain before it could even take life.

Maddison would become my steady hand, my confidant, and my best friend. In two short months we would be glued to each other, most definitely in a way that we both abused slightly. I needed her friendship and she needed me close, and without another soul to depend upon, we used one another to feel better.

Maddie had begun stealing the odd kiss in moments my guard would drop, and in the times we would drink, but on my part it was never romantic, only a fun distraction we had both discussed and agreed upon. Maddie had told me many times when I worried about her that it was fine, she didn't want a relationship with me either. I had assumed we had both just craved the same thing, to be close with another person as much as possible, a safe person, a person we trusted, but without the feelings. I hadn't truly realised the extent of Maddies feelings. I was hurting her unknowingly just as Cassidy had done with me. I didn't know.

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I can taste the alcohol on Maddies tongue as she softly runs it across my lips, pushing her mouth onto mine and taking my lips into hers. The kiss begins gentle and soft and starts to build to a heavy rhythm of desperate kisses, desperate hands, fondling hurriedly along my skin to remove my bed clothes. They fly from my shoulders, and she replaces where the material has left, with her hands, running hungrily and purposefully over my breasts and down to my hips where they squeeze me gently.

Her auburn hair trails down my naked flesh as she kisses my stomach, and I place both hands on her head lightly, trying to catch my breath at the pace in which she is trying to discover me.

"Maddie" I say breathlessly "I can't" I whimper slightly, as she sucks my nipple into her mouth.

She sits up and removes her top, revealing her beautiful silhouette in the moonlight which is coming through the bedroom window through a crack in the curtains. Her breasts, full and erect taunt me. I fight the urge to pull her into my mouth, one breasts at a time, covering her skin in wet kisses. Like she hears my thoughts she takes my hands in hers, pulling one of my index fingers into her mouth slowly and sucking it. A moan escapes me as she places the other on her left breast before releasing my finger from her mouth and placing her lips back on mine. It's a sensual kiss that draws more than a moan from the plump flesh it devours.

"I can't" I beg again, breaking away from the kiss entirely and sitting up.

She sits back and looks at me breathlessly "why" she pleads. " I can tell you want to why don't you ever just let it go..."

"Let what go" I ask, reaching for my discarded clothing.

"Whatever or whomever is stopping you"

I pull my white t shirt over my head, and place my hand on Maddies on the sheet in front of me. "I don't know how" I whisper.

"I don't know who she is, but Sarah she's gone. She is gone and you deserve a full life, a full and happy life whether she's in it or not"

"I feel like I'm betraying her" I confess.