fixed // luke hemmings

twelve

hola mis amigos i am back woot woot!! i'm rly excited bc the drama is on it's way and i want to know how yall find it. 

also if you could pls picture 5sos as what they look like now and not fetus then that would be v v great thanks

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Luke's POV

"I'm sorry guys! I couldn't hold it in any longer!" Calum explains, sprinting up the stairs, holding his crotch.

Alex and I immediately pull apart when he comes into the hall but I think he's more focused on getting to the toilet in time. I cough awkwardly, remembering what just happened and I take a step back. So does Alex.

"I'm, um - I'm gonna go now," she stutters, opening the door.

I nod and move to hold it open for her as she steps outside.

"Right. Er, see you later, I guess," I say.

She goes down the driveway and turns around, smiling slightly, before awkwardly waving. I put my hand up in attempt to wave back but it doesn't move. When she goes out of sight, I shut the door and lean my back against it.

What the fuck just happened?

Just as I'm thinking it all over and blaming myself for being such a dick, Michael comes walking down the stairs.

"Has she gone?" he asks, looking around.

I nod, feeling too sick to say anything.

He lets out a long breath and heads into the kitchen. How can he have an argument with her and ignore her for the rest of his life? Although that's exactly how I feel right now. I wish I could go back and erase everything that happened in the last hour. Jesus christ.

"Ahh, that feels better,"

I take my head out of my hands and look up to see Calum coming down the stairs, a smile on his face.

"Hey, you okay?" he asks me.

I manage out a smile, "Yeah, you?"

He nods, but still looks at me, concerned. One thing I like about Calum is that when he knows something is up, he leaves you to it, unlike some people who bug the shit out of you. Kind of reminds me of me at that time when Michael kissed Alex. I pretended like I wasn't bothered, but of course I was. I like Alex in a more of a friend way and I think she's figured it out. I can't tell her though because what if she doesn't like me like that? Plus, our friendship is so important to both of us and if I ruin it then there's no going back. Hopefully this won't affect anything.

"Dude, are you coming in then?" Calum asks, popping his head round the living room door.

"Oh, yeah," I say, getting up.

When I get into the living room, Michael and Ashton are playing Mario Kart so I take a seat next to Calum on the smaller couch. I sit down and Ashton raises his eyebrows at me. All I do is wave him off before anyone else notices, telling him I don't want to talk about it.

"Hey! You can't do that!" Ashton exclaims at the end of the race, carefully throwing his Wii wheel onto the couch.

"Yeah I can. You don't make the rules," Michael says, smirking.

"Neither do you!"

Michael flips him off, laughing, before Calum snatches the wheel off him and quickly sits down before Michael can get it back. He just sighs and starts playing on his phone.

"You wanna play?" Calum asks, offering me the wheel.

"No thanks. I'll just watch," I reply.

Ashton gives Calum a look as if to say 'What's wrong with this guy?'. But he just shrugs in response and starts the next race.

As they're playing, I feel the vibration of my phone in my pocket. Thinking it's Alex, my first instinct is to let it ring a few times so she knows that I'm not waiting around for her but she knows I always have my phone on me anyway. So I rush out into the hall, ignoring weird looks from the boys, and answer my phone.

I don't check the caller's name when I answer so I'm surprised when I hear a voice that is not Alex's.

"Luke?"

It's her mum, Anne, why would she be calling me? And why does she have my number?

"It's Alex. Have you heard from her?" she asks, panic in her tone.

I start to worry. Why is she panicking?

"She just left Michaels house about 10 minutes ago," I say, quickly.

"It's just that I called to ask where she was multiple times and I've left her several texts to which she hasn't replied to,"

I head straight out the door, not bothering to tell the boys where I'm going. Because, to be honest, I don't know where I'm going myself.

"I'll find her," is all I say, before ending the call.

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I see her ahead of me, sitting in a bench with her earphones in. Her music is so loud that I can here it from where I'm standing. As I run over to her, I start to think if I should call Anne first, to let her know that I've found her. But I need to make sure she's okay.

I sit down on the bench, next to her and pull out her earphones from her ears.

"Hi," I start.

"What are you doing here?" she asks, confused.

"What do you think I'm doing here?"

She looks at me and I think she smiles slightly.

"Your mum is worried about you," I say, looking back at her.

"She shouldn't be. I'm fine," she says, her eyes moving off mine.

We need to talk about what happened back at Michael's house, but I don't want to be the one to bring it up first. What if she's upset because of something else? But this needs to be said. I need to tell her how sorry I am.

I sigh, "Alex, I'm sorry. You have no idea how stupid I feel right now. I just need to know that you're okay,"

She looks at me, biting her lip, not sure about what to say next.

"We didn't know what we were doing. You're not the only stupid one here," she laughs.

This is the part where I'm supposed to tell her how I really feel. How I've felt since I was 13. But I can't bring myself to say those words and if she doesn't feel the same way then my life is over. Although, if she didn't feel the same way then she would have stopped herself from leaning in. Wouldn't she?

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i wrote this chapter rly quickly bc i want to get on with the drama that is happening soon ok i can feel it in my bones.

IM SO FUCKING CLOSE TO 200 READS AND I SWEAR I ONLY REACHED 100 LIKE YESTERDAY??!!?

i dont have anything else to say so ok i'm leaving now im annoying sorry i'll shut up now bye