fixed // luke hemmings

twenty eight

So it was Michael. Michael wrote me a letter. Michael wants to meet me. I have no idea what's happening. Just in one day I find out my boyfriend is cheating on me and the next thing I know, Michael Clifford writes me a letter asking to meet up.

For some reason, a smile appears on my lips. If I do go and meet him, there's a possibility it will change everything, but I understood what Michael meant in that letter. Maybe if I see him again, I won't feel so miserable.

But what about Ruby? Am I supposed to tell her about this? What if she wants to come alone?

I quickly stand up and take the letter upstairs to my room. After placing it between the pages of my Biology book, I sit on the edge of my bed and think it all through.

It doesn't take me long to realise that I need to go. I need to see him again. Luke has been on my mind recently and I think if I see him and talk to him about everything then it all might change for the best.

That's what I should do, right?

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"Alexis please calm down and explain this again," my mum says.

We're sitting round the kitchen table - mum, Richard, Owen and I - and I've just told them how I'm planning to meet Michael and Luke on Sunday.

"I'm going to see them," I say, smiling.

Confusion spreads across Richard's face, mainly because he knows nothing about the situation. Also, I think he's going to be pressured into whatever mum says.

"Whatever. Why does this involve me?" Owen asks, fake yawning.

I glare at him, "It doesn't,"

"Great," he says sarcastically as he pushes his chair back and strolls out of the kitchen.

After rolling my eyes at his childish behaviour, I look at mum. She is showing no facial expressions whatsoever.

"So?" I ask, tapping my nails on the table.

"Alex, darling," she begins, - and from the way she starts, it doesn't sound good - "You hardly know the boy now. Luke may have changed since last time. I mean, he is famous,"

I furrow my eyebrows, "What are trying to say?"

My mum doesn't respond. Richard looks down and avoids eye contact, obviously not wanting to be brought into this.

"Luke hasn't forgotton me, if that's what you think. Michael wrote me a whole letter saying how miserable he's been!"

"Alex, he's in a band now. He has millions of screaming fans. How could he be miserable?"

I laugh, "You don't understand, do you?"

"I understand that his life doesn't revolve around you anymore and you need to accept that,"

How could she be saying this to me? She knows how happy I was with Luke, so why is she trying to ruin it?

"Thanks, but no thanks. I'm going to see him and you can't stop me," I exclaim as I rush out of there as quick as possible.

As I'm running up the stairs, I hear Richard trying to convince my mum. He can be a nice guy when he wants to.

I slam my bedroom door shut and lie back on my bed, earphones glued to my ears. It just happens to be ironic that a 5SOS song comes on shuffle.

I'll take that as a sign.

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oh my fuck sounds good feels good i can't even explain it i don't think i've ever listened to an album so many times before

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