fixed // luke hemmings

thirty seven

The concert was amazing. Aside from seeing the boys again, the music was just incredible, not to mention One Direction. 

Ruby had the biggest smile on her face as we were leaving, despite the fact that it was over, because she knows that it's not the end. 

Now we're outside trying to find Oscar's car. They've texted us their location, so we just have to get there. I don't know what's going to happen between me and Finn from now on, and it has nothing to do with Luke because I don't even like him that way anymore, especially after what it did to our friendship. But, since I tried to reason with Finn, tried to be his friend, he still doesn't understand. I don't want him anymore. I don't think I ever wanted him in the first place. 

"Alex," Ruby says, breaking me from my thoughts, as we walk down the busy street.

I turn to look at her and can't help myself from smiling, "Yes, Ruby,"

"That was without a doubt the best night in my entire 17 years of living. I still can't believe that it happened," she says, taking a deep breath. 

"I know," I say, happily, "But it's not over, okay? Not this time,"

"I know it's not over. And that's what makes me the happiest. That you and Luke will keep in touch, that we didn't come here and leave with nothing, I'm both relieved for me and for you,"

"Why for you?"

"Well, if it didn't turn out like this, then who would be the one to take care of you? Who would be the one listening to you talk about these boys and having nothing to say in response? I'm not trying to be horrible, Alex, but that wouldn't have been very nice for me," she says, seriously.

It's true. All this time when I've been upset, nervous, scared of what might have happened tonight, Ruby has been there for me. She's listened to me talk even though it made no sense to her at first. I owe her so much, I won't ever be able to make it up to her.

I stop walking and so does she.

"What? What's wrong?" she asks, searching my face.

"Thank you," I breath, as I wrap my arms around her.

Ruby is slightly taken aback by my gesture, as at first she fails to hug me back.

"Without you, I wouldn't have come here. I wouldn't have had such a brilliant night with the people who mean so much to me. You deal with all my bullshit and I haven't properly realised that until now, but I'm so thankful for you and every single thing that you do," I say, still in mid-hug.

She hugs me back.

"Alex-" she starts.

"No, don't say anything. You're just going to say that I deserve to be happy, or that that's what friends do. But this has happened all because of you so let's just leave it at that, yeah?"

As we end the hug, she hesitates to agree with me, but soon gives in.

"Yeah, okay," she says, gently.

"Right, then, where the hell have these boys parked the car?" 

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We eventually find Finn and Oscar; it seems that Oscar texted Ruby the wrong street, so we ended up walking around for an hour. 

"Why are you so happy?" Finn asks, stubbornly, as I climb into the back after Ruby.

"Am I not allowed to be?" I respond, glaring at him.

He raises his eyebrows and turns back around, before Oscar and Ruby shoot each other a look that says 'awkward'.

The car starts up again and we head off to the hotel. Ruby and I haven't seen it yet so I hope it's as good as we think. It only takes us an hour or so to get there and I'm so glad when we pull up outside it, knowing that this awkward and silent car journey is now over. Finn hasn't spoken to me since I got in the car and the only communication I've made is to Ruby through facial expressions.