fixed // luke hemmings

sixteen

"Fucking hell!"

The page is about Alex. It's about how I feel - or used to feel - about her. What if she saw it that day she came over? That's why things have been so awkward lately, well aside from the fact that we almost kissed.

I'm not even sure how I feel about her and it's fucking me up. If I like her (which I know I do) our friendship is ruined. But maybe she likes me too?

Luckily, she's coming over today so we might be able to talk about all of this. Properly, I mean.

"Luke! I'm going out to Rachel's! Jack is still in bed and God knows where Ben is. There's some pizza in the oven if  you're hungry," Mum explains.

"Okay," I reply.

She appears in the doorway of my room, "I'll be gone for a while,"

"Okay, mum. I can look after myself," I groan.

Smiling, she waves goodbye and heads downstairs, "I know,"

Eventually, the front door shuts and I pick up my phone, searching for anything from Alex.

Nothing yet.

It's not even 8am yet. Why am I being so paranoid? If she wants to come, she'll come. Let her decide in her own time.

Two hours later and I get a call. From Alex thank God.

"Hey," I answer, nervously.

"You still want me to come over?" she asks, and I can't tell if she is nervous or not.

I smile, "Yeah, yeah. Of course,"

"Is now okay?"

"Now is great," I say, getting up to tell Jack to stay in his room.

I imagine her smiling at the other end of the line and it makes me happy.

"Great, I'll be there soon,"

"Okay, bye," I reply before hanging up and shooting my hands in the air.

Making my way to Jack's room, I notice that his light is on, so I knock loudly.

"Dude! What do you want?" is his response.

"Alex is coming over," I start.

"Ah, okay?"

"And you have to stay in your room,"

Before I can explain, he opens the door and reveals himself dressed up.

"No way. I'm going out," he says, sliding past me.

"Even better,"

"Good luck though," he says as he slips on his shoes and heads out the door.

Thank God everyone is out. This means that Alex and I can talk alone about our recent situation without anyone interupting or starting shit.

She said she's on her way now but it feels like she is taking hours. I just want her to be here...

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hi hi yes i'm alive sorry for not updating in 4 years and sorry this chapter is rly bad i honestly have no excuse i'm just a lazy shit okay apart from that i have been watch teen wolf every single day and idk what to do my obssession is getting bad guys i think i'm in love with all the characters i hate myself