fixed // luke hemmings

fifteen

"Turn it over!!" I groan, getting up to change the channel.

Owen hides the TV remote before I reach him.

"No, I like this," he protests.

"Dude, you're watching a stupid review about Xbox games,"

"Yeah, because I need to know which games to buy," he says, moving his head so he can get a better look, "Get out of the way!"

I smirk, "No I won't get out of the way. Can we just watch a film or something?"

He pauses the TV and looks at me, "Just go back to sleep, Alex,"

"Can I just remind you that you literally begged me to come downstairs?" I say, placing my hands on my hips.

"Whatever. It's almost 5am now so I don't need you,"

"Aww, were you scared of the dark?" I pout.

"Piss off," he says, sitting onto the other couch.

I laugh as I leave the room, "Love you!"

He doesn't reply but I can tell he's annoyed.

As I head up the stairs, I feel so tired I could sleep for days, but then  realise that we're travelling to France in a few days so that can't happen. I wonder how Luke will be while I'm away. Oh what am I saying, he has the other boys, it's not like I will be needed. I told him about France but I didn't say when we are leaving so I guess today will be a good day to tell him.

I flop down onto my bed and pull as many layers of blankets on top of me so I can feel as comfortable as possible. Seeing my phone on my bedside table, I reach my arm out and take it, only to see I have a new voice mail.

It's from Luke.

"Hey, um, it's me, obviously. I mean, er, okay. Sorry if I woke you up. I was just wondering if you want to, um, come over today. It's not like you have to but, um. Yeah. I'll be free all day,"

I smile as the message ends. He wants to see me which hopefully means we can sort all of this out.

It takes me almost an hour to fall back to sleep because all I am thinking about is what I'll say to Luke. I just want it to go back to the way it was before.

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Luke's POV

I hestitate before pressing the button the complete my voice mail. I want to see Alex so we can talk and put all of this behind us. It took me hours to fall asleep because the only thing that was on my mind was her. I know I love her. In a more than friend way, but I can't stop myself. She can't know that I feel this way because it will ruin everything. Make it all worse than it is now.

Looking at the time and seeing that it's 7:00am, I don't bother going back to sleep, like I would any other day. No, I need to prepare what I have to say to her.

"Dude! Why are you up?" Jack says, through the wall.

Our rooms are right next to each other so we can hear everything from the other room. I roll back into bed so I'm facing the wall.

"Were you listening?" I ask.

"It was kinda hard not to,"

He doesn't know it was Alex though. No one needs to know about that, except us.

"Was it for her?" he asks, after a while of silence.

Oh shit.

"She has a name," I reply.

"Do you wanna tell me what happened?"

"I'd rather not,"

I get myself out of bed and head over to my desk. Underneath all my crap, in the bottom draw, is my diary - I mean, journel. I haven't looked at it in a while, except from that time when Alex came over. But even then, I didn't read it properly.

Flicking through some pages, I can see my childhood coming together. When I first met Alex, when I started to like Becky. As I think about it, I never really liked Becky in the first place. I don't even know why I said I did. There was the part where I heard of Calum and Michael. They used to compete in the school's talent shows and I thought they seemed pretty cool. Then I wrote about how we slowly became a band.

But on one page I see something different. Different because it has no weird doodles on it. Different because I wrote it in blue instead of black.

Oh no. No, no, no, no, no.

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laughing at my myself rn bc this chapter was really short and it took me like a week to write lmao i'm so lazy

anyways i need to start updating more often and i swear i will try to bc it bugs me that i don't update as much as i did before bc i really want to

if that just made sense though idek

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