Ma Fille Chérie | Billie Eilish

quarante-huit

a/n:

i go back to school tmr. 

ick

my uniform makes me look like a door.

GUYS WANNA SEE MY DOG??

i'll post a photo of her next update if u wanna >

billie eilish, december 9th

los angeles | CA

interscope records.

the room my family and i were sat in was massive, with a white round table in the centre. finneas had been telling me all the stuff that was going to happen today, but nothing prepared me for the anxiety churning in my stomach once a group of producers came in. 

this is so surreal, am i really about to sign my life away to the music industry?

my leg bounced up and down rapidly as they sat down, handing me a booklet of documents stapled together, "hello everyone, i'm brandon and this is bryan, and next to him is ross. were you briefed in the phone call last week?" 

my older brother nodded and took the lead, "yeah, they told me a bunch of stuff, and i've just told that all to billie. we know what we're in for."

"you are some very talented kids, and we're looking forward to working with you," bryan added, before brandon went on explaining some other things. 

my whole life i've dreamt of being a musical artist, but now that it's right in front of me i want to back out, and i don't know why. i feel like i'm suddenly pushed into the deep end, everyone so much better than me.

"billie? bryan asked you a question," finneas said putting a hand on my shoulder. "oh- sorry, can you say it again?" i asked sheepsihly, my cheeks heating up. "would you be willing to go on tour?" he asked. "tour? i'm never going to go on tour," i chuckled awkwardly, fiddling with the paper in front of me. the older guys laughed gently, "trust us, billie. you're gonna make it into the big leagues"

"i am?" i asked, surprised. "oh yeah, for sure. the potential you have is incredible. you have such a developed voice and tone at such a young age, and it will continue to get better" ross said, leaning back in the chair. 

i turned to finneas who was nodding along to them, "i'm gonna make you the biggest pop star in the world" he whispered to me. 

♡

i walked out of the meeting room, feeling a weight lifted off my shoulders. but also the sinking feeling of my near future was starting to settle over me. 

i pushed open the heavy doors into the carpark, scanning the large garage for our family car. my breath hitched in my throat as i saw the all to familiar face of lilou leaning against it.

 i saw her start laughing at me. 

"lilou?!"

"billie?!" she copied, still laughing at me. i looked back to finneas, who was smiling at me. "you did this didn't you?" i said. "yup," he nodded.

i jogged over to where the car was and gave lilou a hug, although i did want to kiss her i couldn't bring myself to with my parents behind me. "what are you doing here?" i murmured into her knitted sweater, breathing deeply and inhaling the smell of incense she used in her bedroom.

"well, i called you and wanted to ask if you would like to come with me to see my art in a local gallery, but you didn't answer so i texted asshole and he said you were here so i came to surprise you and also congratulate you," the parisienne explained.

"so here i am asking do you wanna come with me? and congratulations!"

i giggled, "thank you, and are you dumb? because of course i wanna go"

lilou smiled, before looking over me to my family and greeting them as they approached. "i'm just going to take billie downtown, is that okay?" the older girl asked my parents. "of course," my mom nodded unlocking the car. "i'll drop her off later," she said before turning back to me. 

"wait, can i sleepover?" i asked hopefully. "not tonight honey, dad's home, another day though. promise" lilou said quietly, kissing my knuckles. i pouted, but understood. i said goodbye to my mom and dad before both lilou and i headed over to where her car was. 

"do you wanna grab some food first? are you hungry?" the girl asked as we drove out of the parking lot. "kinda," i shrugged. "wanna get a burrito?" she asked, a slight smirk across her lips. i nodded, a smile tugging at my lips.

we went through the drive through at taco bell and got ourselves the burritos and a  baja blast to share. "you're so boring, it's literally just beans a rice. how is that even enjoyable?" lilou asked as we waited. "because, it just is." i stated simply. "yours has way too many different flavors and lettuce is gross, so are bell peppers"

"do you like any vegetables?" lilou asked with a laugh. "yeah, duh, carrots." 

the girl laughed again, shaking her head. 

we collected our food from the window and lilou found a spot to park so we could eat it. i unbuckled so i could sit sideways on the leather seat, to face my girlfriend. "here's your boring ass burrito," she said handing it to me, making me roll my eyes playfully. "don't knock it until you try it," i said, taking a bite.

the french girl took a sip out of the drink before placing it in the cup holder between us and grabbing out her food, throwing the empty bag in the back seat. she turned sideways too, bringing her leg up and resting it against the steering wheel. 

"your outfits cute, although i can see your underwear now," lilou said, nodding to where my light pink skirt had rode up my thigh. i blushed and quickly pulled it down. i choked down the food embarrassedly and squeaked a small thank you. 

lilou was wearing flared jeans, with air forces like mine. as well as a bandana secured around her head. she always looked amazing, making me always feel like a garbage can next to her. i want to have better style, but i always just seem to wear hoodies and sweatpants.

"what are you thinking about?" lilou asked after a few minutes of silence. i shrugged, "you"

"me? what about me?" she asked curiously, shifting in her seat. "how you're so far out of my league, but you somehow like ... this" gesturing to myself. "hey," lilou frowned. "don't talk about yourself like that, it makes me sad"

"but it's true!"

"no, it's not." lilou shook her head, finishing off the last bit of her burrito before wiping her hands off on her jeans. "yeah, it is." i replied, finishing my burrito too. "billie," lilou sighed looking at me, "you are perfect to me, and all that i ever want"

"you're so pretty, and cute, and funny and sweet and-" lilou started to ramble, so i leant forward, shutting up her with a kiss. i pulled back, taking my bottom lip between my teeth, watching her reaction. there was a light blush on lilou's cheeks, making my stomach swirl with butterflies. 

she went to speak, but again i cut her off. "just shut up," i breathed out into her lips. lilou picked up our baja blast, and moved it to the floor. she grabbed my hips and pulled me closer to her. i quickly wrapped my arms around her neck and climbed over the centre console.

i dont know how eating burritos turned so quickly into this, but i am definitely not complaining.