Will I Know You? (The Lost Souls on Tour: The First Tour)

Stage 21

TW: Rape

Stage 21

Ate was rushed inside the house after her statement. Nagkakagulo na ang paligid habang ako ay nakatulala lang at nakaluhod, pilit na pinoproseso ang lahat. Everything was too fast, I didn't even catch the pace. Parang ang bilis ng pag-ikot ng aking mundo na sa sobrang bilis, pakiramdam ko magugunawa na ito. 

Pinuno ng ingay ang aming bahay nang makarating ang mga pulis. Daddy looks so devastated while Mom is zoning out like me. Ate was asked a lot of questions. Halata sa kaniyang hirap ito sa pagsagot ngunit pinilit pa rin ang sarili na punoin sila ng mga impormasyon. 

But I know that it's too much to bear for her, so Daddy pleads with the police to stop asking for now and let my sister rest. 

Ang hirap intindihin ang lahat. Even the thing that my sister was raped, and Gave's father is the oppressor.

Gave...

Alam kong ito na ang simula. Lahat ng mayroon kami, dito na magbabago. I already expected this, kaya hindi na dapat ako nasasaktan nang ganito. Pero wala, e. Masakit pa rin.

I tried to not entertain the pain that I am feeling for days just to help and support my sister. Sila Mommy at Daddy ang umaasikaso sa kaso, and unfortunately, Garret Argyros is nowhere to be found.

Gabi-gabi, ako ang katabi ni ate na matulog. Ilang araw na akong hindi makatulog nang diretso sa pagbabantay sa kaniya dahil gabi-gabi rin itong nananaginip.

I suggested bringing her to a psychiatrist to help her ease the trauma she is experiencing. Daddy agreed but ate is refusing to go out so my father contacted someone to visit her for a check-up, just like when a doctor visited my sister to examine her for the Medical Jurisprudence that she needs for the case.

Ilang araw din kaming hindi pumapasok. Hindi ko alam kung alam ba ng teacher ni ate ang nangyari. I was overthinking for her, since she was stressing herself last week because of their defense that supposed to happen this week. Ayaw ko naman na dumagdag pa ito sa problema niya, since her problem right now is too much to bear for her.

"Ate, I brought you a porridge."

Nakatulala lang si ate habang nakatingin sa pader. I can't help but bit my lip to stop myself from tearing up while staring at her.

"A-Ate, please eat something. Ilang araw ka nang 'di kumakain nang maayos..."

Her silent response made my heart feel more of the constructing pain that I'd been hiding for days. But I have to stay strong for my sister.

I scooped a spoon before I tried to put it into ate's mouth. "Open your mouth, I'll feed you."

Tumingin sa akin si ate bago umiling. "D-Di ako gutom..."

Napansin ko ang pasa sa kaniyang pulso. Kinuha ko ang aking cellphone at pasimple itong kinunan ng picture. We can use this as an evidence. 

I haven't seen Gave for days. Hindi ko pa rin siya nakakausap kahit sa text lang. Hindi ko alam kung dapat ba akong matuwa dahil hindi ko na kailangan pa na umiwas at ang tadhana na ang gumagawa ng paraan upang hindi kami magka-usap.

Gumawa na ng paraan si Daddy upang mas mapaaga ang pagbisita ng Psychiatrist kay ate. I can't handle her anymore when she is having nightmares at night. Mas lumalala nang lumalala ang kaniyang mga bangungot araw-araw, kaya hindi ko na alam kung paano ko pa siya pakakalmahin. 

"Kumusta po ang kaso?"

Daddy sighed. We are currently waiting outside at ate's room while her Psychiatrist is currently checking her up.