Will I Know You? (The Lost Souls on Tour: The First Tour)

Stage 32

Stage 32

I tried to hide the rapidness of my breathing as anger started to burst into my veins. I could feel my face burning and my hands shaking in so much anger. My blood is starting to boil with hotness as I let out a heavy sigh to calm myself.

I tried to act casually like I didn't see anything even though there is this urge feeling that I want to stand up and walk away.

Ano, Asterine? Nagseselos ka?! Naka-move on ka na, 'di ba? Ikaw ang nang-iwan 'di ba? Bakit ka nagagalit? Bakit ka nagseselos? May karapatan ka ba?!

I closed my eyes as I stretched my neck.

"Stop it, Dhanna," may bahid ng inis na sabi ni Gave.

Dhanna chuckled annoyingly. "Sorry, I got carried away. I just missed you that much."

I almost scoffed, thankfully I stopped myself.

Gave sighed problematically. "Kumain ka na ba?" Seryosong tanong nito na siyang nagpainis sa akin lalo.

How sweet. I felt my fist clenching making the paper in my hands crumpled a bit.

I sighed mentally. That's it, Aster. Keep your distance. You're acting rashly with your emotions once again. You're being weak again. And it's so irritating to think that all of my feelings were just buried and are suddenly resurfacing in my system. I just hope it stayed concealed so I won't be as confused again.

But I can't help but be baffled by the unexpected emergence of the lost emotion that I believed I'd never experience again. Bakit ganito ang nararamdaman ko? Hindi ba ako nag-move on? Pinaniwala ko lang ba ang sarili ko na kaya ko nang harapin ang lahat dahil hanggang ngayon ito pa rin ako, duwag?

Everyone moved on, and I am the only one who stayed behind. It's so difficult to move forward. Even though we may learn to live with our loss with time and distance, we can't still help but miss someone or something that was once a part of our lives. When we miss someone, we really miss a part of ourselves that was with that person. We miss the blissful sensation, the shared memories you enjoyed with that person, and the feeling of being in love... And it's difficult to ignore it when the person you're referring to is now in front of you, holding another woman in his arms.

Tahimik ako buong maghapon habang pinipilit na hindi pansinin si Gave at Dhanna na nakapuwesto sa harap ko. Tahimik si Gave habang si Dhanna ay panay ang kuwento sa kung ano.

"When are you going to visit my place?"

"Dhanna, please..."

"What?" She chuckled. "Come on, I'm just missing you so bad. Hindi mo na ako nabibisita ulit, e," she whispered.

I swallowed the lump in my throat. I guess I had enough. Rather than walking out without saying anything, I stood up to bid my goodbye earlier than the past days I often leave. "Can I go first?" I muttered coldly while my eyes are gazing directly at the producers. "Masama kasi pakiramdam ko. I think I need to rest for a while."

Naramdaman ko ang pagtayo ni Isota sa may gilid ko. Bob nodded his head. "No problem, Milana."

Abala si Fred kaya hindi na ako nakapagpaalam dito.

My lips are in a grim line as I moved my gaze towards Gave's way. His dark blue eyes are already directed at me. Marahan akong tumango rito. "I'll go now," I said formally. I saw how his jaw tightened. Hindi ako nito sinagot at nanatili lang ang naninimbang ngunit madidilim na titig sa akin. Umisod ang tingin ko kay Dhanna na nasa akin din ang tingin. "Dhanna..." I greeted coldly.

She effortlessly nodded her head. After bidding my goodbyes, I left with an awful feeling inside me.

I was silent at the whole time of our trip back to hotel. Naligo ako at natulog pagkabalik, umaasang gagaan ang pakiramdam. Nang magising ako, sinubukan kong matulog ulit. Because if I won't do it, I'll end up thinking again.