Heart of stone

Sing

⚠️ Waterboarding

Nat and Wanda were now laying down together. Nat wasn't in little space but she still wanted to cuddle with Wanda, who wouldn't?
Wanda was content with Nat laying on top of her, she was playing with her babies hair and rubbing her back lightly. But her mind didn't stop from wandering, she kept imagining the look on Nat's face when she first asked. The fear... it wasn't just about the self harm, it was something more.

"Nat..?" Wanda started softly and Nat hummed a reply and looked up at Wanda. "Can we talk... again?" Nat looked at wanda seriously before propping herself up on her elbows and nodding. "Can I ask you something?"
Nat nodded again, worried what Wanda would need to ask her.

"Why were you so scared when I first asked you? You know you wouldn't be in trouble..." Wanda asked worried and Nat whined and buried her face in Wanda's neck. After a few seconds she responded.

"In the red room... when I started hurting myself I made sure nobody knew. But one day... I was handcuffed to my bed and the guard..." she paused for a second, taking a deep breath. "The guard came in and..." she stopped, not wanting to explain further. After a few seconds she carried on.

"He saw my cuts. They weren't big or even deep, just a few scrapes across my wrist I had made by scratching myself with a bit of plastic I found on the floor one day and kept. He told everyone and it got around until Draykov heard about it. They lay me down and put a cloth over my head before dumping freezing cold water over my small body. I was only about fifteen? Maybe even younger... it was a few years after staying in Ohio..."

Nat smiled at the memories of Ohio before remembering everything else. "I couldn't breathe, it felt like I was drowning but I never passed out, I stayed conscious. It only took a few minutes but I never got over it, it's the worst thing I've ever experienced..." she finished and wiped the stray tears from her eyes.

"I'm so sorry Nat... I never meant-"
"I know. You don't have to be sorry. Can you just hold me and nap?" She asked, desperately wanting to be comforted. Wanda smiled and nodded.

She held Nat tightly and Nat slipped into headspace, she was content and loved being comforted, especially by her mama.

She gently tapped Wanda's lips and whined quietly. "What's wrong babygirl?" Wanda asked gently rocking Nat side to side. "Mama 'ing." She asked quietly. "You want mama to sing?" Wanda asked, making sure that was what she wanted. "'es mama 'ing." She repeated and Wanda nodded.

She grabbed Nat's paci and slipped it between her baby's lips before rocking her again.

When you try your best, but you don't succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you...

Nat looked back at Nat and saw her sleeping peacefully. She kept rocking her for a while before gently laying down with her, knowing Nat needed a nap.

After about an hour wanda slipped out from under Nat and sat at the desk in her room. She worked, knowing once Nat wakes up she won't want to do any. Her baby was too cute to work while she was awake.

After a few hours though wanda heard small whimpers coming from behind her. She recognised this immediately and turned to see Nat shaking and sweating with her face scrunched up. "Nat, honey. Babygirl your having a nightmare." Wanda said rushing over to her, trying to wake her up.

"Baby it's just-" she was cut off by Nat jumping up, screaming bloody murder. "NO! NO GO AWAY! STOP!" She got out of bed and ran, slamming into the wall. "NOOO! STOOOOP!"

"Babygirl, baby it's me, it's okay, your safe." She went to nat and picked her up, as soon and Wanda hugged Nat the sobbing started. She sobbed and sobbed until she couldn't breathe anymore. Wanda kept Nat in her arms the whole time, hugging her, bouncing her, whispering sweet nothings into her ear, but nothing was working.

Nat had started to gag on her own coughs when Wanda realised she was going to throw up. She quickly rushed Nat to the bathroom, sat her on her knee and held her hair out the way just in time for Nat to release the contents of her stomach into the toilet.

Wanda rubbed her back as Nat screamed and cried. "Mama..." she said through her gut wrenching cries. "Yes babygirl mama is right here..." Wanda said hugging Nat to her chest trying to calm her down. "Mam...ma..." she said chocking on her cries.

"It's okay baby girl your safe with mama. I won't hurt you, they can't hurt you. It's okay baby, it's okay..."

A tear trickled down Wanda's cheek. She hated seeing her baby so upset, she couldn't even comfort the poor girl! She picked Nat up and rocked back and forth.

Although Nat's cries didn't lessen, or get quieter, she did find comfort in Wanda doing this, she liked it and it made her feel a lot better.

Nat cried until the early hours of the morning. Her throat was raw, her head was throbbing and her eyes hurt. She cried until she couldn't anymore.

Wanda finally managed to calm her by laying her down gently across her lap and lifting up her shirt. Nat latched on quickly, desperately trying to comfort herself. She nursed for a few seconds before pulling at both her and Wandas shirts. Wanda understood instantly and discarded her shirt before taking Nat's off too.

With the skin to skin contact and the nursing it calmed Nat down a lot, her cried stopped all together when Wanda started singing again.

Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you
And everything you do

Yeah, they were all yellow

I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do

And it was called Yellow

So then I took my turn
Oh, what a thing to have done

And it was all yellow

your skin, oh yeah, your skin and bones
(Ooh) turn into something beautiful

(Aah) you know, you know I love you so
You know I love you so

I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh, what a thing to do

'Cause you were all yellow

I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh, what a thing to do

And it was all yellow

your skin, oh yeah, your skin and bones
(Ooh) turn into something beautiful

(Aah) and you know
For you, I'd bleed myself dry

For you, I'd bleed myself dry
It's true

Look how they shine for you

Look how they shine for you

Look how they shine for-
Look how they shine for you

Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine

Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you
And all the things that you do...

  A/N
I cried while making this...
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