Marvel Imagines/Smuts

Drowning~Bucky

Y/N has been in the compound for a year now. She was recruited along side her sister. The two came from Hydra, one day when the team went to take down one of the bases they found the two girls cowering in the corner. When they brought them back to compound they saw potential in the two, Y/N was protective and strong while her sister was fast and strategic. The girls tried running away multiple times because they didn't trust them yet but after being found again and again they stayed and eventually became part of the team. Unfortunately a few months ago Y/N lost her sister to an accident on an away mission, she was woken up by the jet landing outside the compound and she ran to go greet her sister but when she didn't see her come off the jet she was confused. Steve, Nat and Y/N's sister, Fay went to a mission in Dubai. It was a small mission, not very risky but when they went to take down this group Fay was caught in the cross fire and was shot multiple times. Y/N's heart dropped while Steve was explaining everything, they sat at the kitchen table and Natasha was rubbing her arm. Y/N stood up abruptly and left the room.

Now, a few months later Y/N is in the worst state she's ever been in. She hardly leaves her room, laying in bed all day. She has put off doing her work and reading over mission reports. She has slipped into a depressive state that no one can snap her out of, not even her boyfriend Bucky. Y/N laid in bed facing the nightstand as a tear fell down her face. She listened to Bucky's soft snores, his arm was wrapped around her waist and their hands were intertwined. She let out a huff and carefully got out of bed, pushing a pillow to where her body was. Tiptoeing out of the room she made her way to the gym. This is what she did when she couldn't sleep, train for hours until she got tired. Stretching her arms she stood in front of the boxing bag, she eyed the leather and picked up her wraps. Getting into her stance she began to hit the bag, 1, 2. 1, 2. The speed increased and the impact became harder. The pain from the hits shot back into her wrists but it only fueled her emotions. As her punches got harder tears threatened to fall, she saw her sister in her head, laughing and smiling. She saw the pile of work she has to get done. She felt the sadness and anger in her bones. With a deep breath she screamed. Her soft and controlled hit turned rough and angry. She continued to sob and scream as she let her emotions out on the bag. Hearing the screams everyone jumped out of bed and ran to her location, rushing into the gym they stopped and saw her attacking the punching bag. Bucky walked from behind the crowd and up to his upset girl.

"Y/N..." He reached out and softly touched her shoulder. She continued to punch, ignoring his calls.
"Baby...hey."
She turned around and pushed his hand off.
"Leave me alone!" Her voice cracked as she shouted. Her state made his heart shatter, seeing his girl so broken made him feel awful. She has been holding this in for so long and now that she let it all out it's hard for him to watch. He went to touch her arm but it was swatted away, she pushed his chest hard and he stumbled a bit. She pounded on his chest as she screamed and sobbed, his arms wrapped around her trying to contain her hits.
"I can't take it anymore! I'm drowning and I can't get up! She's gone..." Her hits slow as her body curls and falls to the floor, Bucky follows her down and holds her close into his chest while she cries. Her chest heaving and his hands running up and down her back.
"I know Doll, I know. Let it out." He cooed and kisses her temple.
"I'm so sorry..."
He nodded to the others so they could leave them alone and they did. Y/N pulled back once she calmed down and looked at Bucky.
"I miss her so much Bucky. It's all too much, I can't do this without her." She whispers and sniffs away more tears.
His hands come up to her cheeks and cups them, placing a soft kiss on her forehead he rests his in hers and sighs.
"You are so strong Y/N. I know how hard this has been on you and I am so sorry Fay's gone...but, you can do this! You have survived these past couple months and I'm so proud of you. It will be hard, extremely hard but with time it will get easier."
He leaned back and smiled.
"I am here for you. I will be by your side and help in any way I can. So will the others, I promise Babydoll."
She smiles and rubs her face closer to his palm.
"I love you."
"I love you too Sweetheart." He pulls her back into a hug and they stay in each other's embrace before heading back to bed.

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