I'm still awake
It's three o'clock in the morning
Tossing and turning
What more can I do
I've given them my all
But today is that day
That I choose to give up on everything
I grab my phone before opening my eyes
Just because it's too treacherous not to answer everyone
I ask myself if that is a light
Why can't I reach it
This slow beat is sounding like a symphony
Please give me a sign
That this is not my last night
Let me keep my life
I know I fell in love with the devil
If you make that a double
I'll be in trouble
I can't even shower without my shirt on
I don't want to walk out of my house
Afraid that I'll still be judged for what I wear
So I lock myself in my bathroom
And flush away the pain and guilt I feel
So I run back up the stairs
Run out of the door
Because I'm so much more
This slow beat is my symphony
Why is it never about me
I'm left here with my thoughts
Please send me a sign
That this is not my last night
Where I have to give up my life
Walking into the light
So send me an angel
And give me a halo
I made friends with the devil
If I make that a double
I'll still be in trouble
He hit me
And now I'm weak
He hit me
And I can't breathe
He yelled at me
And now I cry
He broke me
And now I want to die
He hit me
And I can't speak
He hit me
Now I can't breathe
He yelled at me
And made me cry
He broke me
But I don't want to die
This slow beat shouldn't be my symphony
It was all for me
So send me an angel
And give me a halo
I'm left here naked
Now I'm walking and breaking
I made friends with the devil
And we made that a double
So I'm in trouble
So send me an angel
And give me a halo
I'm not going underneath
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A Deep Dive Into My Teenage Mind (From The Vault)
PoetryI decided to write a whole poetry collection that concurs everything that has been happening in my years on this planet. I've been going through things good and bad. I'm so happy to put this out on short occasion but I'm ready to get this out.
