A Deep Dive Into My Teenage Mind (From The Vault)

Innocent

You hit me many times 

 I took every single one 

Making me wish I wasn't alive 

But here I am on both feet 

Breathing out a sigh of relief 

Told me I won't amount to anything 

Look how strong I have become 

You act all innocent 

But you don't remember the battles 

You act all innocent 

But you left me to die 

I'm proud of who I am 

No more drama to stop me 

I brought the thunder and I brought the rain 

But you brought the hail and you brought the sleet 

You act all innocent 

But why don't you remember what you did 

You act like I'm the enemy 

And that you're the victim 

I don't need you to keep going 

I've found out who I need to be 

I've yelled for help too many times 

But now I live for the moment 

And not for the people 

I cut and I cut and I cut 

I wrapped a belt around my neck too many times 

I drowned myself in a bathtub and you laughed 

You wished for me to die but you just wanted the money 

Can I just...

Can I ask 

Why

In life you'll get what you get 

But just keep praying and you'll be granted forgiveness 

And after everything that you have done 

I missed the feeling of being able to breathe 

But now I can always breathe 

And I hope someday you can see that 

You act all innocent 

But you were wrong 

You acted all innocent 

Put me through Hell that was too long 

Treated me like the enemy 

While you were the one who was innocent 

In this life you'll get what you get 

When God is the only one can forgive 

You had me on that couch 

Screaming that I wanted to die right then and there 

But now I don't want to 

You acted all innocent 

But I was right all along 

No more crying in my bedroom

No more

Wishing I was dead because of you

I'm free