Bright lights
And fake feelings
The golden cloud went dark
As you fell from up above
The sun no longer shines
As you are left with rain clouds
And thunderstorms
As you wish that you chose another path
But you loved the bright lights instead of the dark
Now you're left to defend until six a.m.
But you would rather feel at home
With comfort and warmth
But you're left in the clouds
The dark cold clouds
That leave you falling for free
You hold onto your life
Hoping and wishing it won't end right when it just starts
The clouds are bringing you away from feeling true
All of it a golden sunrise facade when you are left in the dark
They want power
Like they have full control of everyone's lives
Never going to let them feel their own feelings
While they continue pulling their strings to talk
I'm still wondering why you chose to have me in your family
So before I close my eyes for the night
I still think about all the apologies that I have given
But never got in return
I still think about all the disrespect given
And thrown back and forth
As the golden sunrise facade continues
I wish I never said that I loved you
I wish I never called you mom
As the clouds give up and let me fall to Hell
Where I belong
Because all the good girls don't deserve to be loved
You take a deep breath in and the toxic air fills your lungs
The toxic air moves through your chest into your throat
And from your throat all the way up to your brain
As it starts to remove all functions that you would control yourself
And they call you a baby and they will call you annoying
Denies it
But they still will call you a baby and call you annoying
I can feel the way they said I love you
Then they no longer do
The golden clouds grow dark
The bright lights are just a facade
They wanted power
But they don't want me
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A Deep Dive Into My Teenage Mind (From The Vault)
PoetryI decided to write a whole poetry collection that concurs everything that has been happening in my years on this planet. I've been going through things good and bad. I'm so happy to put this out on short occasion but I'm ready to get this out.