A Deep Dive Into My Teenage Mind (From The Vault)

I Believe

You looked so dumb in that moment

When you asked me if I wanted to continue

Even though I was crying over everything you put me through

But now I believe in myself

You were faking the way that you said "I love you"

But now you just say "good night"

I just want to leave before it becomes too late

But I guess it is over now

And now it's too late for me to enter my opinion

You put a little show together full of blinking lights

Distracting people from the lies hidden within the show

The parent was targeting one kid making them hurt

But I'm faithful that I will survive the two years left

You really had me going for a while

But now the curtain is finally closing

I used to believe in every word that you told me

But I now don't believe a single word you said

Because you've lied too many times

You've tricked me into a painful folding

Too many times

I cried as I would say

I believe

That I won't give up on myself

I believe

That nothing will go underwater

I believe

That I belong on this Earth

I believe

That I'm crazy and this is all in my head

I believe

In myself

You tried to bring me down too many times before

You tried to hoist the blame onto me

You treated me like trash and now I'm showing you how I feel

I did everything that you wanted me to do

I told you guys that I will always love you

But right now it's hard to

Because you guys are selfish when I'm selfless

Never knowing what to do because I'm asleep all day

Hurting more and more every time I think about the things you called me

When you thought that I wasn't able to hear you when I was in the bathroom

I'm tired of every argument that we have every single day

So I'll continue to say

I believe

That I won't give up on myself

I believe

That nothing will go underwater

I believe

That you wouldn't keep me from flying

I believe

That I'm crazy and this is all in my head

I believe

In myself

I only wanted to have fun

But it's always wrong

It'll always be wrong

I only wanted to be right

But it always leads to a fight

Makes me want to hide

I believe

That I won't give up on myself

I believe

That nothing will go underwater

I believe

In myself to move on from you

I believe

That nothing will go underwater

I believe

That you wouldn't keep me from flying

I believe

That I'm crazy and this is all in my head

I finally believe

In myself

As I write this right now

I make sure that I'll tick you off

Your head was up in space

So I believe

That you'll miss the control and power you used to have on me

As I say goodbye to you guys

I say that

I believe in myself