I'm eating cereal
Crying
Over what the Hell you did to me
Singing
To every breakup song
There is to sing
No one is here to stand with me
What is going on here
I'm so messed up in the head
The pressure comes onto me
Now that I don't have it turned in
They are all disappointed in me
No moral support for me
I'm a pathetic excuse of a daughter
So I have these flashbacks
About a boy who had life in his hand
And this is what I can say about it
I miss your little laugh
Your crazy hair
How everything was WWE
Everything was about Kesha
They were your favorite things
Now you left me here
Because you needed to find yourself
You lost your sister because of it
You're such a terrible person she softly hinted
She hates me you screamed out loud
Wailing from the abandonment
Here you are missing your mom
But it's all your fault that she lost her shit
It's all your fault that she hated the world
You are such a disappointment to everyone
You don't deserve any moral support
You're such a coward
Always hiding behind your grandma's skirt
You were someone I looked up to for fifteen years
But where are you now
Hiding somewhere no one can see you
Even if they really wanted to
I don't feel secure in my own body
Making myself throw up
It's called bulimia
It's such a terrible feeling that I can't be naked in the shower
Without calling myself names that don't belong
You're such an idiot I tell myself
I'm so sick of myself
I feel like they stare at me for reasons
They want me to be smaller
They want me to give my body away
Someone who is overly vulnerable
They want me to be straight
They want me vaping again
Someone who is willing to destroy my lungs
But I already can't breathe
Why can't I be happy with who I am
I'm fucked up in the head
They just stare and laugh
All the power over me and they have it
Why can't I be happy with myself
I'm fucked up in the head
They push me down and use me
All the power over me and they have it
Where's my moral support
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A Deep Dive Into My Teenage Mind (From The Vault)
PoetryI decided to write a whole poetry collection that concurs everything that has been happening in my years on this planet. I've been going through things good and bad. I'm so happy to put this out on short occasion but I'm ready to get this out.
