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A Deep Dive Into My Teenage Mind (From The Vault)

Poetry

I decided to write a whole poetry collection that concurs everything that has been happening in my years on this planet. I've been going through things good and bad. I'm so happy to put this out on short occasion but I'm ready to get this out.

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I Wish That You Were Here

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by poetatmidnight20

by poetatmidnight20

She's no longer around

Neither is the spirit in this old town

Everything went old and dusty

As we were put in the back of the shelf

And we no longer had a feeling she was there

And it seemed that no one really had a care

I didn't get to say goodbye to the one

The one who made me who I am today

I was left there crying with nothing left to say

As she died on that very morning of that day

And from that day on it seemed dark and grey

I started to fall on my knees talk to God and pray

I cried and cried

I tried and tried

But nothing seemed like it was enough

I begged God just to let me die

Because I didn't want to be alive with my guilt

I was so tired of feeling like I needed to cry

I begged and pleaded but he came to my need

God

Please tell me that she's near

Near

I wish that she was here

I grabbed a razor and tried to cut my way out of it

But I couldn't get past my elbow when I would bleed

They begged for me to come out of my room

But there was only that one person that I wouldn't feed

Which was myself

I begged God to give me strength

I felt him smile and lift me up

As I finally have the courage to cry for the last time

God

Thank you for being here

Here

I wish that you were here

Grandma

Please tell me that you're near

Near

I wish that you were here

Grandma

Please don't let me shed a tear

Tear

I wish that you were here

Thank you for holding my hand through dark times

Thank you for giving me life when it was in ruins

Thank you for giving me the best moments of my life

I had the best kind of memories with you

But

God

Please tell me that she's near

Near

I wish that she was here

Grandma

Please tell me that you hear

Hear

I wish that you were here

God

Thank you for being here

Here

Thank you for being here

Grandma

Give me a sign that you're near

Near

I wish that you were here