I
Wish that this is not how I'm always going to feel
Because wanting to be sad is so exhausting
Fake smiling also drains my mind and soul
I already convinced myself that I hate myself
Because I can't stand the fake smiles and laughs
I already convinced myself that I'm okay when I'm not
I'd like to say that I'm happier than ever but I can't
I don't want to lie to my family and friends
Whoever really wants to be my family and friends
I used to scream save me or let me go
But I think that people would prefer to let me go
The stand there and talk with a happy person for 5 maybe 6 more seconds
I thought about my future and I don't want to be alive to find out
You can't keep creeping up on me like I'm a perfect pink princess
I used to scream save me or let me go
But I think I took it too far where they chose to not want to deal with me
It got dark but I also tried to continue seeing the light but maybe I couldn't
It was a bunch of tragedy but I guess I made it by heart
And It was a dark glass container that kept me from getting out into the light
And I never got to see the light and the dark is where we saw the light, for the first time
I couldn't smile until i got to myself from my brain to my heart
And when I finally smiled I got to know who I'm supposed to be
I'm supposed to be the person with a heart and marries someone with a mood ring
It is supposed to be me one and only last thing that can bring
Me to the light for the first time
Come meet me here in the light
I'm happier than ever
And now I smile bright
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A Deep Dive Into My Teenage Mind (From The Vault)
PoetryI decided to write a whole poetry collection that concurs everything that has been happening in my years on this planet. I've been going through things good and bad. I'm so happy to put this out on short occasion but I'm ready to get this out.
