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4/12/2015

Do you ever get the strong to urge to cause somebody actual, physical harm? Not because you are crazy or a bad person, but because they deserve to hurt just as painfully as those who've been hurt by them. Maybe they deserve it, but is it your place to inflict it? What if you wait too long & they keep hurting people? People they were supposed to love, but aren't doing a very great job at showing it.

I'm not saying I want to go out & kill anybody & I'm NOT saying YOU should. But, to me, it's like when you see a fight at school or somewhere. Usually, it's because someone has said or done something to piss off the other person & then they fight it out. Maybe sometimes the fight is broken up before more damage is done, maybe the fight doesn't end until somebody has given up or is unconscious...Or maybe it ends when the two people have decided that the beating that both of them have taken is enough of a lesson for both fighters.

Anxiety is kind of like fighting another person. One problem is that the other person is Anxiety itself. The other problem is how the fight ends.

Do you keep hurting yourself or do you finally lash out at another person who has done absolutely nothing but cause more problems? Some people struggle through Anxiety alone, with others who cause more stress & depression on yourself. One day you are going to flip out. One day it will be too much to handle & somebody will pay the price.

I've seen on the news where people take it out on large groups of innocents, such as schools, movie theaters, marathons, parties, even their own families. You all know what I'm talking about. You've seen the news. You, some of you anyways, have probably even seen it up close & in person. The question that always remains though; Why?

Are we really as weak as we think or can we actually over come this before we turn into the monsters who made us. Some of us, many of us really, don't even have a bully or such to blame for their depression. Sometimes it just happens to us. Sometimes we really do blame ourselves because we know that nobody has done anything to us to cause us to feel the way we do.

I'm being honest when I say this though, some of us do have someone to blame. When people don't contribute to the problem, but they don't try to help us find a way out either, that causes them to take part in the blame. Whether they know it or not. So, I suggest we tell them.

I know it's hard & maybe it even seems impossible, but when you know you need help or you know that the person(s) causing more problems needs to be stopped; SPEAK UP! Stand up for yourself. Stand up for others if that's the problem. Because if you just sit by & do nothing, for yourself or another, then YOU ARE ONE TO TAKE PART IN THE BLAME TOO.

Get up & make your Anxiety heard. If it's not just your Anxiety, but other problems, then do something about it before yourself or somebody else is hurt or punished for something that they have business being punished for.

Also, if any of you need to talk or need to vent or have questions, then feel free to comment or inbox me. I am always here to help or even just listen to the venting.

Much love, L. 💋