(Die)ry.

6/10/2015

I'm completely confused right now. I know what I could do, not should, but could do, but I can't make myself do it. He says that he likes me, but we've only ever hung out that one time before he had already confessed this. She thinks I should experiment with him.

Get to know myself & what I like more, as you could say. Practice. Gain confidence & experience for the future. I don't feel for him. Do I?

I don't think so. I don't know what to do. Would it be playing with his emotions or hurt him? Because that's not what I want. I just want a little friendly play. I want serious at the same time though. I want practice with him while I don't have anyone serious right now.

But I so desperately want serious. I want all of my firsts to be with love and not with just lust. Am I crazy? Am I stupid?

I don't know. I want too many things at once, I suppose.

So, tell me, what should I do?