(Die)ry.

7/14/2015

I will forever know this day as the day that so much has changed. I'm losing both of my best friends at once. I can't even think straight. I can't eat anymore. I feel dizzy, and sick, and my mind is clouded. I don't know what I'm going to do.

Some people have to do certain things to better themselves. I just didn't think I'd be left behind to watch them disappear. I love them so much. They are everything to me and I have to let them go.

One of them I'll see again, with time.

The other, I won't see again for what seems like forever, because our next meeting is unknown.

I don't know what to do or how to act anymore. I used to be able to tell them so much. So much of myself I would invest in them and now they have to go invest in themselves. It's okay to be a little selfish when you need to be. Its okay to want to better yourself. I completely support them no matter the circumstances.

I know that with time we'll all be better off. We will see each other again and that time it won't be so sad for any of us. We'll be a happier, better us.

Hopefully.

So, just know this;

I love you. I love you both very much. I will always continue to support you and love you. I will miss you both greatly, but I will be okay.

~LB.x.