(Die)ry.

4/24/2015

I am literally about to kick somebody's ass tonight.

First, my brothers gf is flirting all over other guys only twenty feet away!

Then, that stupid, self-centered, bitch tried cutting in on the only time I have to spend with my best bud & it's working!

I just wanna hit somebody. I just seriously want to hurt somebody as much as I want to cry. And that's a lot.

I really feel like crying. All I wanted to do today was not be alone & so far that's all I've felt. I have this strong feeling building up in my throat. A strong urge to cry.

I know it's only a matter of time before I am crying. Before I'm curled up under a blanket, headphones in, hugging a stuffed animal, weeping like a newborn baby. I don't wanna cry, but I also feel like if I don't then the pain will build up until I freak out completely.

Tomorrow is going to be hell.

Everybody, all of the seniors, are going to prom tomorrow night. Except for me. I'm not going, because I'm too mentally dis functional to stay in school & deal with the pressures of being a teenager. I am missing out on one of the most important nights, as a teenager, because I have Anxiety.

Best Senior Year Ever.