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I grab my coat and search for my bag and keys. Where are they,when it dawned on my there still at the club I ran out yesterday with nothing no phone, no bag ,no clothes.Fuck i'll try ring and see if Tom is there yet to let him know i'm coming no answer. I leave a message. I reach for the spare car keys and head out i'd usually walk but seen as my ankle is still not right I think its safer to drive especially if I'm going to go the shops.
So off I go to the club feeling better than I've felt in a long time. I pull up out front and see Tom's car. Great he is here the front doors are locked so I head around the back to see if I can see Joe. There is no one round the back but the door is open. So I let myself in and call out to Tom or Joe. No answer I hear something up stairs I head up thinking he can't hear me. I walk up the stairs and follow the sound of what sounds like a woman crying. I stop in my tracks as I hear Tom's voice. Nikki when I say a contract is cancelled its cancelled you do not make a scene in my club. Sorry master she replies through whimpers. What the fuck is going on. What is Tom doing to this woman that she is crying. I push the door open slightly but I can't really see whats happening. So I push open the door and just stare at the scene in front of me. I'm frozen to the spot as I watch Tom whip this lady over what appears to be some sort of Cross. I can't breath but I can't move. My eyes are fixed on Tom assaulting this woman. My legs turn to jelly as I try to back out of the room. I hit something and it falls to the ground making aloud noise. Tom turns and zones in on me. Fuck he shouts I turn to run but my legs aren't co-operating. I scramble out of the room and try to get out of this place as quick as I can, I can hear Tom shouting for me to stop. Before I can reach the door Joe appears and I can hear him say oh fuck as he tries to grab me. I can't get by him. I start to shout get out of my way Joe. I can't do that Leah, I scream at the top of my lunges get the fuck out of my way.
Then I feel Tom behind me. I freeze Leah let me explain. Nope I just want to go home I cry. LEAH,he shouts and I freeze to the spot afraid of what he will do me. If that is what he does to Nikki after cancelling a contract. Look at me he says in a stern voice. I shake my head afraid to move Leah look at me.
I can't I whisper I can't look at you. I just want to go home a forget everything that's happened. I see Joe nod to Tom and move toward me. He picks me up over his shoulder and carries me towards Tom's office. I kick and scream begging Joe to let me go once in side I run to the bathroom and lock the door. Joe starts to speak and I shout for him to stop that I don't want to know his excuses for allowing another man to do that to a woman. Leah you don't understand. I don't need to I seen it with my own eyes. Please Joe let me go I won't tell anyone I promise. I'll forget this place ever existed. I'm pleading with him to let me go. Im crying my eyes out. I hear Joe say Leah I promise you its not what you think. Then what the fuck is it. Tom will explain it all once he gets here. Where is he now getting rid of his victim. Getting rid of the evidence I cry.
Trust me you have it all wrong.Tom will be hear in five minutes. Fuck Tom I shriek.
I believe you already have I hear Tom reply
My blood runs cold at the sound of his voice.
I start to panic looking for an escape route. Fuck there isn't anyway out I'm trapped. I start searching drawers for a weapon. I'm not going down without a fight I think. I find a scissors ok that will do. Tom demands i open the door, I shout no fucking way. Leah ill knock this door down if I have too. I don't care i shout. LEAH YOU HAVE TILL THE COUNT OF FIVE TO OPEN UP. I hear his tone is serious but I'm not giving in. I won't go down with out a fight I hear Tom slam in to the door I back into the shower just in time to avoid Tom slamming half a door open on my face. I'm cowering in the corner crying. Tom please just let me go I beg. No not until you let me explain. Then if you choose to go I won't stop you.
I don't move I just back in to the corner.
I see the hurt on Tom's face at my actions.
But after what I just witnessed I don't care.
I let this man fuck me I think and begin to cry at my stupidity. How could I be so foolish I don’t know this man and for a moment I wish for josh to appear.
Leah are you ready to listen Tom says his tone much softer. I just sob into my hands.
Leah this place is a bar and a private members club. By private members club I mean BDSM.
I was about to tell you this morning but Joe called.
I told you I was dangerous this is what I mean't. Im a dominant.
Explains the kinky shit in your closet I reply. He laughs I knew you had looked.
I glare at him this isn't the time to crack jokes Tom.
His face falls a little, Leah I really like you but this is who I am.
You take pleasure in hurting women I retort.
No he snaps, Nikki is a submissive she gets off on being whipped and controlled.
So you where to meet her last night but you thought you'd fuck me instead see how far I'd let you go. Your next victim.
No he shouts, Leah it wasn't like that. Wasn't it I heard you on the phone telling her the contract was cancelled. I stupidly thought it was a supplier that fucked up. How naive of me.
Leah I was to meet Nikki true but you changed that Friday night when you entered my bar.
So if that was the case what did I just witness. Nikki wasn't happy that I cancelled the contract and wouldn't leave until I got there. We were alittle pre occupied last night so I didn't hear my phone ringing.
I came here to sort her out. This was the only way. By whipping her till she can't walk I say with venom.
Leah you don't understand this lifestyle. You don't get to judge. You were married young, I get things didn't work out and he hurt you. But that doesn't give you the right to condemn this lifestyle.
It appears you don't understand Tom
I wasn't ripped off I'm not a scorned woman I'm a fucking widow. My husband was killed i ball as the pain of losing Josh hits me all over again.
Tom's face fall's Leah I'm sorry you never said.
You never asked I retort. Well leah we are both guilty of that now. How do you reckon that I say. Well you never asked about me. We know each other 48hrs and you did everything to get me to sleep with you. Excuse me I say stung by his words. I try to get up I've heard enough I'm done with this.
I want to go Tom please let me leave.
Leah please don't leave like this. Let's talk it out. He pleads.
Tom i need to leave. Okay he says defeated and let's me out. Leah I'm sorry he says for what I said, not being honest or make me feel like a cheap slapper.
For all of it.
I brush past him and head to the door, he calls me one last time Leah please don't make your mind up on me yet. Think about the last few days . That's also me.
I just nod and leave, Joe is at the door,Leah its not what you think, I've never seen him behave with anyone the way he has with you. Please think about it. I just nod and open the door. I find my car and drive home in a trance.
What the fuck just happened...