Unknown Desire

The Sentence: No More Lies

It's been an eventful week,we have been relocating back to Tom's. Trying to set up for Erin. Tom has lost the run of himself buying baby stuff. I think we need a bigger place to fit all this stuff. Don't worry I'm working on it. Tom stop we don't need a bigger place,you just need to stop buying baby stuff  I laugh. No in all seriousness Leah we need a house with a garden. True but there is no rush Tom. I know I just want the best for my little girl. Oh god she has you wrapped at 11wks old. God love you when she hits the teen years. He laughs, I can't help it she is adorable like her mammy. Me adorable I say perplexed. OK your Daddy's sexy little minx. You got that right I say little madamn, she is already Changing her face is getting plumper. I love her little chubby rolls. I can't believe how much my life has changed in under a year. Tom has been the best thing to ever happen to me. And I truly can't believe he asked me to marry him. I told him yes but not to announce it. I just want it to be our little secret for awhile. We have to head to court in the morning for Eric to be sentenced. Fingers crossed he won't see the light of day for a very long time. Tom runs a bath and comes to take Erin, go have a bath I'll look after the little lady. I smile, thank you Tom. Go on I'll join you once she is settled. I head to the bathroom and strip the hot water soothes my weary bones. Erin is a great baby but the interrupted sleep is hard. Tom is in a little bubble of love at the minute but it won't last the lack of sleep will get to him eventually. He appears at the door she is down, and starts to undress. He really is a handsome man. His toned body is movie worthy. How I have no idea as I never see him workout. Must be good genes. He climbs in behind me and i rest my head on his chest. This is nice I say. He kisses the top of my head and rubs my shoulders. I moan, that feels good daddy. I turn to face him and slide on to his lap. I kiss him softly, I love you Tom. I know you do and I love you. We need to go get you a ring for that finger he says. I smile there is no rush.
Em Leah, it's a ring or a collar with my name on it. Your mine and I want everyone to know it. She flashes me a devious smile what kind of collar. The permanent kind I say. Daddy maybe I'd like that. Maybe I'd like you to mark me. Maybe I will be a naughty little girl. I'm ready to play again daddy. Really I thought you were tired. I'm never to tired to play. He grabs my ass and squeezes it to lift me up. My breast slide across his mouth waiting to be bitten. He flicks his tongue over one nipple kneading the other breast. I slide on to his cock and begin to move. I kiss his neck and slowly nip at his earlobe. Tom is moving in sync with me, his hands guiding my hips daddy make me cum I purr. Patience little girl. He stares into my eyes as my movements speed up. Water is spilling over the sides as I bounce up and down nearing my release. I watch his face as he is ready to cum. This pushes me over the edge and I cum with him. We sit wrapped around each other panting. I look at the floor I think we may have flooded the bathroom. He laughs we need a bigger bath. We need some mammy and daddy time in the club I say. Tom looks at me, Leah there is no rush to get back to that we can take it slow. Tom I don't want to take it slow. Leah you have just had a baby you need to be careful. You need to rest and look after yourself.
I look at him, Tom things haven't changed just because I've had a baby. Let's not fight Leah. I climb out of the bath and grab a towel. Not really happy with Tom. He calls me back but I ignore him and get changed. He follows me to the bedroom,Leah I was talking to you. I just climb into bed and switch off my light. I'm pissed off that he is making all the decisions. When we do things,when I'm ready for new things. If we should buy a house. Probably already has it picked.  Leah your acting like a child. I say nothing afraid if I open my mouth I will lose it and wake the baby. I just say goodnight and close my eyes in the hope he will get the message.  He does and gets up and leaves the room.
I try to go asleep but I'm too angry. So I lie staring at the ceiling getting even more annoyed. Eventually I can't take it I get up. I head to find him. He isn't in the sitting room or kitchen. I head towards Erin's room and see the light on. I peep in and Tom is asleep with Erin on his chest. My anger fades for the moment as I watch them. He really does love her. I walk over and remove her from his chest and place her back in her cot. Tom opens his eyes and smiles. Sorry I must have dozed off. Come to bed I say as I turn on her night light and off the main light. Tom follows me out, Leah I'm sorry I upset you earlier. I smile let's get some sleep not wanting to talk about it.
We head to bed and drift off until we are awoken by our new alarm clock. Little miss Erin @6am sharp. I get up to get her but Tom tells me to stay in bed he will grab her bottle and bring her in to our room. I love how he wants to do it all. She will be his number one little lady for sure. He carries her in and she is happy to be in her daddy's arms again. Tom starts feeding her so are we going to talk about Last night Leah. Ugh I don't really want to but I know if we don't it will vester and I'll explode. OK I say. What is wrong he asks. Tom you are making all these decisions about our future but forgetting to check it's what I want. He looks at me perplexed,Leah I'm just making sure our daughter has everything she needs. Tom she is a baby all she needs right now is to be loved, fed and changed. He looks at me, I'm sorry I've got carried away but I never thought I wanted to be a father let alone have children. I suppose I just want to make sure she has all the love that I never felt growing up. Tom I understand we both have totally different childhoods but you need to take a minute. It's not going to be prefect and that's OK. We are going to disagree at times what's best for her. Remember I never thought I'd be able to have a child of my own. So I understand your need to do it all right. But sometimes what we think is right can be wrong. We are learning together and I just think we need to enjoy her as she won't be this little forever. So all I want is to be asked about the decisions your making. Im sorry Leah I promise I'll will talk to you. And with that I think this little lady needs her butt changed. How can someone so pretty smell so bad he says. I laugh she sure can smell. I reach over and kiss Tom. Let's just enjoy her,we have been truly blessed.
That we have now let's get her changed and get ready for the day.
We get ready and have breakfast. We head to the shower while Erin snoozes. I love when Tom washes me, he is so gentle compared to when we are in the bedroom. He turns me around to face him, I look up at his beautiful face and kiss him. He really is beautiful inside and out. I know I'll never have to worry about Erin as long as he is around. He turns the shower off we better get moving if we are to drop Erin off before court.
We get ready and dress the princess packing her bag for the day. Tom laughs she needs half the house. We drive over to my house and meet the guys. Clare looks worried. Are you ok Clare I asked yeah just worried he will get a short sentence and he will come for us . Clare he has been found guilty of a double murder never mind all the other charges he is going to prison for a long Time. I know but Eric is crafty and has a habit of getting off lightly. Don't worry Clare he can't get away with this.
We head off Joe and Tom discuss the club. While clare asks about Erin. We chat all the way there. Once inside we meet Ivor and Natasha and head to the courtroom. Everyone is quite lost in there own thoughts. Joshs parents are behind us. His mum looks tired this must be hard for her. Even though I'll never get over their deceit,they didn't deserve to lose their son like that. I didn't deserve that. The judge arrives followed by Eric and his team. He doesn't seem as confident today. The judge addresses the court.

I have thought long and hard about the sentencing today. You have not only been found guilty of double murder,but abusive behaviour physical and mental assault. This behaviour is not of a normal person. It is the behaviour of a monster. His crimes are something from a horror movie. His victims and there families will never get over what he has done.
So there for i have to impose the maximum sentence I can. So for all counts I hear by sentence you to 25yrs in prison. I will appeal this Eric shouts, I'll make you all pay. We sit in stunned silence. 25yrs isn't nearly enough in my opinion. He should rot in prison. But its better than nothing. We stand to leave when Josh's  parents approach me. Leah please can we talk alone. Tom looks at me,I nod to tell him its ok.  We walk to a side room.Josh's mum speaks first, Leah we are so sorry for everything josh put you through. We had no idea of any of this until after he died. And to be honest we are ashamed of what he did to you. But he is our son and we will never see him again. So finding out he has a daughter was like getting a piece of him back. We should have told you when we found out. We just didn't know how too.
You should have just told me. You all knew and let me cry myself to sleep thinking I'd lost the only man that ever loved me. But he didn't love me how could he. The lies the cheating. For 20yrs he made a fool of me. And I'm sorry I can't forgive that. All i ever wanted from Josh was a family of our own and to grow old together. And he couldn't even give me that. Well Leah you can't blame Josh for your fertility issue's. I don't have fertility issue's John. But you tried and couldn't get pregnant. Josh has a child and you don't. Not that it's any of your business John but I also have a daughter. They looked stunned at me we have another grandchild John says. No I have a child with Tom. So I don't know what the issue was with me and josh but to be honest it was probably for the best we never had children as he probably would have ruined that also. That's not true his father barks at me, Josh would have been a great father and he loved you.
Again John, if he loved me how did he father a child with someone else. He made a mistake Leah, we are only human. John have you ever cheated on your wife and fathered another child?
No,it's not the same Leah.
See John that's the problem you could never see the wrongs your blue eyed boy did. You are to blame for your sons behaviour. Always fixing his wrong doings and covering them up. No wonder he cheated all those times because no matter what you would tell him it was OK. John how many affairs did you know about. Be honest because it feels to me you knew exactly what your son was up to while I sat at home wondering where he was. His mother looks at her husband, John is this true did you know Josh had been cheating over the years on Leah.
He looks at his feet, I was aware of one or two girls over the years. But I told him to end it and sort out his marriage. They were just random girls on nights out, nothing serious.
They are all serious John, how could you keep his dirty secrets. Josh's poor mother looks devastated. She is realising her son was not the Saint she thought she had raised and her husband of 40 years has lied to her. Another victim of Josh's betrayal.
Leah I'm truly sorry our son didn't deserve you. Congratulations on your daughter. We will not bother you again. John we need to leave now. Leah we are just trying to protect you we love you like a daughter and this Tom is no good for you. He will get you killed just like Josh.
John, you still can't see Josh's actions got him killed not Tom. And if you loved me like a daughter you would never have protected your son by hiding his lies. John I have nothing more to say to you. Mary I'm truly sorry for the revelations you have found out today. No Leah, I'm sorry it appears the men in my family have alot of secrets that they feel there wives don't need to know making a fool out of you and I. John it's time to go, we have disrupted enough of Leah's time and life with our sons lies.
Mary turns and leaves. John looks at me and says I'm sorry but that man will destroy you. Well John I'm no longer your concern, so I think you should just leave and sort out your own lies to your wife. Well don't say I didn't warn you. He turns and leaves. And there it goes the final nail in the 20 year coffin that was my life. I guess the apple didn't fall far from the tree with Josh and his father. I feel sorry for his mother the most. She was also deceived by the men in her life. I take a minute to catch my breath before heading back. John has only showed me the damage secrets and lies cause. So it's time to talk to Tom about how I truly feel.