Unknown Desire

The day after the night before

I woke to an empty bed and silence. Fear over took me as the memories from the night before came back.Oh God,Tom is probably figuring out how to get rid of me. I embarrassed us both last night. I'll never look Natasha in the eye again. But then again I probably won't have to after last night. Right get packed and try get outta here before Tom gets back. I jump out of bed and throw everything in my case as quickly as possible. I'm just getting dressed delighted I brought runners and legging with me. I turn and scream Tom is standing in the door way going somewhere. Fuck you scared me. Caught rapid I think to myself I was actually gonna go for a run to clear my head after last night. So why is your case packed and at the door. Busted I wasn't sure if we where staying I lie. Tom laughs, Leah you gotta get better at lying. Run really, if you had of said walk maybe but Run. Leah have you every run for anything in your life. He seems quite amused by this. Actually I have twice. The morning after we met and after the time I caught you spanking Nikki. His face falls at that memory. Sorry that was two far. He looks at me and says three when you ran away from me in the taxi. I just stare at him. Leah you can't run every time something gets uncomfortable. I'm not running I whisper. Are you sure because where I'm standing it looks like you are.  A tear rolls down my face. I'm sorry Tom but how can I show my face outside today after last night. Oh baby girl you need to stop over thinking things . Natasha isn't up set with you. She is upset at herself for pushing you too far. Which was my fault I should have stopped it. I think we where all in the moment and forgot this is all new too you. Tom I feel so foolish. Why Leah if anything  I'm proud of you. You stopped it going any further.  Some people keep going out of fear. Which is wrong that leads to bigger issues. You trusted your emotions and stopped it. He comes over and pulls me into a big bear hug. Leah you can't run every time things get uncomfortable , if so then maybe this isn't for you. I pull back and look at him. And what if it's not will I be discarded like everyone else. Tom looks at me he isn't impressed Leah last night I told you I loved you. I wouldn't just throw what we have away because this is not your thing. How shallow do you think I am. Maybe you need to think about what you want. But I don't,I want you Leah  I have from the moment I picked you up off that floor. Leah you have to start trusting Me. I'm not Josh I wouldn't treat you like that. I was raised by that .I'm sorry Tom it's been alot with everything that's happened. Maybe we need to take a step back.If that's what you need Leah. We can leave right now. I'm not saying that Tom. Well then what are you saying Leah. His voice is raised I shudder. You said you would never speak to me with that tone Tom. I'm going for a walk to clear my head. Don't follow me I need space. I leave the room as he pleads for me to stay and talk. I'm so upset about everything I just keep going. The house is quite no one is up after the party, I get out before I meet anyone. As walk down the garden, Joe is outside I keep walking not stopping. Leah are you OK. Fine Joe just need some space. OK you know where I am if you wanna chat. Thanks but I'm fine. I head through a gate that leads to the beach it's empty probably a private beach owned by ivor. I keep walking until I'm out of sight. I find a spot and cry my eyes out. Why can't I just be normal I tell myself. Why do I have ruin everything I touch. This is why Josh cheated on me. My constant questioning of everything. And now I've just done the same to Tom. Why can't I just give in to my feelings for Tom. Why can't I admit I've never felt like this before, not for Josh not for anyone other than Tom. Why am I such a mess. I wipe the tears from my eyes. I decide to go back and talk to Tom. I've hurt him and that's what is killing me the most. As I'm walking back I see Natasha. I can't avoid her she is right in front of me. Leah can we talk. I suppose we better get it over with I say and sit down. Natasha looks tired she clearly hasn't slept. Leah I'm so very sorry about last night. I should never have taken advantage of you like that. Natasha you didn't. I just got over come by the whole night. This is all new to me. Exactly that's why I should have stopped with the kiss. Natasha I'm sorry you did nothing wrong I wanted it. Honestly I did i would never have kissed you back if I didn't. I just got in my head. I'm sorry for how I reacted.  Natasha laughs so we are still friends . Of course I'm just embrassed over my behaviour. Don't be Leah I promise to keep my hands and lips to myself. I look at her she is so sincere in her feelings I know she is being true to her word. Natasha I'm not sure I want that either. Just give me time to get my head around all this. OK well when your ready to play let me know. I just don't want to ruin our friendship over it. I reach over and hug her we won't. That's good. Is everything  OK with Tom. No I was pretty hurtful to him this morning. Leah he will be fine, just talk to him be honest with him. And trust him Leah that's all he wants from you.
Thanks Natasha and sorry again about last night. Forget it now go sort your man and come meet us for breakfast. We stand to head back when I see Tom. Looks like someone had the same idea Natasha squeezes my arm. See you inside.
Tom greets Natasha and continues on to me. Can we talk. Sure I say as he sits. I'm sorry Leah, no I'm sorry Tom.
I let my thoughts run away with me. And I took it out on you I'm sorry for what I said. Leah it's OK. It's not Tom I hurt you this morning and I'm sorry for that. I see you had a chat with Natasha. Yeah I apologised for my behaviour. And we are OK. That's good. I look at him he is so crest fallen . I've ruin this weekend I say to him. No you haven't Leah. I just want you to trust me. I do Tom that's the worst part I do trust you. I don't trust myself I say a tear rolling down my cheek. I don't trust myself after 20yrs  of deceit from Josh and my friends. I'm afraid to let myself believe I deserve this. Leah you need to stop punishing yourself for their mistakes. I know buts it hard Tom. Why could I not see Josh for what he was.why could I not see everyone was lying to me. Your the only one who was honest from the start and yet I treat you terribly. Tom pulls me on too his lap. Leah you are the only woman that has the ability to surprise me. If this is not for you that is OK. We will be fine. I only want you Leah no one else. I love you. I look up at him big blood shot eyes I love you too. We kiss and make up. Lets go for a swim he says. We have no towels. Who cares he says. Ivor owns the beach I say. Yup he laughs. Let's go I stand and strip off and run to the water with Tom following, he swims behind me. I was wrong you can run. I laugh and splash water at him. Hey enough of that he says laughing.why what are you going to do about it. This and he grabs me and pulls me to him and kisses me. He pulls away Leah your all I need never doubt that. I smile and kiss him back. We float around for abit and decide to head back. Neither of us bother dressing. We walk back up the garden and see Joe talking with clare she is smiling at him. Joe looks up are we good. We are Tom says. We are going to shower and meet Natasha for breakfast come join us. We will follow you up Joe says. We walk on and I look at Tom don't get involved. But Tom you can't tell me you don't see their chemistry. Leah Joe will fall out with you. Leave it be.
I pout and he slaps my ass. I yelp what was that for.
You know
Excuse me I don't.
Let's go get washed and ready for breakfast. Ivor has a day set up with activities. What kind of activities I ask . BBQ team games like volley ball on the beach. Normal games don't worry. I laugh I'm not worried. Well you should be things can get competitive. You aren't allow on the same team as your partner. I smile I like the sound of that. Leah you won't win. We will see. Fighting talk Leah I feel a wager coming on. No not at all Tom. Why are you chicken, not at all. Let me think over breakfast. Get in the shower before I spank that ass for cheekiness. I laugh at his attempt to slap my ass. But I'm too fast.He follows me into the shower. And kisses my nose. This is my favourite time of the day he says. I smile yeah just you and me. He bends down and kisses me, Leah never walk out on me my heart can't take it. OK I promise to stay and fight instead. He laughs that's my girl. Great fights lead to great make up sessions you know. That they do but we need to get down to breakfast before Natasha kicks this door in.
Did you two sort out everything. I smile we did. And how do you feel about last night now. I'm good Tom I just let my mine get the better of me. Did you enjoy last night until the moment with Natasha. I look at Tom as he washes me down.Tom I enjoyed all of it even Natasha. I just got over whelmed in the moment. Maybe because it was so public. I don't know what happened.i just panicked. But I told Natasha I'm not closed off to the idea of her. Just might need to go slower. I'm glad you cleared the air. Plus it was pretty hot watching you and Natasha. I slap him the chest and reach for the loofah. He drops it on the floor. I bend to pick it up. And decide to say sorry again. Before he can pull me up I place his cock in my mouth. Leah he groans we don't have time there is always time I say. And begin to move my mouth around his cock. He leans over me sheltering me from the water. I massage his balls and nip at his shaft. I love the taste of him. I use my teeth and gently drag them down his shaft. All I hear is Fuck baby as he fists my hair. I pick up speed taken as much of him in as can without gagging. His moans tell me he is near. I work harder look to taste him. When he explodes I suck every last drop before standing. Leah that mouth of yours is going to get you in and out of trouble. I smile your welcome. Let's get out I'm hungry I say. Are you not full after that he laughs that was just a snack I wink he laughs at me. Leah never change. We get dressed and head down for breakfast people are arriving and sitting down Natasha waves at us to come sit. We head over i sit next to Natasha. She smiles up at me glad to have last night resolved ivor comes and sits with Tom and eventually Joe and Clare. We order breakfast and casually chat. Clare seems to have picked up. She is laughing at Joe. And he seems quite taken with clare. Myself and Natasha watch on in amusement. Tom leans in stop it now. Stop what, I can see you two plotting. Whatever do you mean Natasha says acting hurt. Ladies please do not get involved. Spoil sport she retorts. Natasha, ivor warns. She stops knowing well she had her final warning. We continued eating and chatting. Joe brings up last night so you guys enjoy last night. Of course Natasha says who wouldn't enjoy themselves here. Joe laughs that is very true. Leah how was your first night. I blush it was interesting, a real eye opener for sure. In a good way I hope he asks of course I reply.  So who is up for a day of fun ivor asks. Me I say quite eagerly. Tom laughs Leah thinks she is going to beat me at volley ball. I stare at him Tom I don't think I know so. So have you decided on a wager.Natasha pipes up wager I'm in. So competitive dear, I hope you feel the same later ivor says. Oh darling you know me I'll take what your giving with a smile. I laugh she is dramatic. Well Leah what's the wager. I'm not sure. Tom looks at me don't leave it too long because if you don't think of one I'll come up with one. Joe laughs Leah get your thinking cap on this man is cruel when it comes to wagers. Don't worry I'll think of something before we start. You better he warns. We head back up stairs after breakfast as the games don't start till after lunch. I'm racking my brains to think of something. So what do you want to do with our free time go for a walk into town or stay here. Stay here I'm saving my energy for this game. I plop on the bed. OK Tom plops beside me. Immediately he is unzipping my top. Excuse me I said rest. Oh worried I'll wear you out. Not at all just don't want you pulling a muscle old man. His face drops old man, I'll show you who is old. With that he pulls me on top of him. You look so good baby. I kiss him softly , I'm sorry for earlier Tom. I promise I will stop running  when things get uncomfortable. He kisses my nose I know you will baby. I bend down and kiss him. I really have fallen for him. He starts to pull my top off as I straddle him. I run my fingers threw his hair and kiss him softly. He latches on to my nipple and sucks softly I throw my head back and moan as he moves to the other. I'm grinding on his dick. I can feel it growing. He rolls me over and removes my trousers. He runs his tongue up my inner tigh. I moan his name as he buries his face between my legs. His hands are raising my ass up to give him deeper access to me. He comes up for air. Eyes watching me like a lion waiting to pounce. I pull his hair for him to come back up to me. He follows my lead and kisses my lips. I pull at his sweat pants and he stands to remove them again eyes never leaving me. He lies back on the bed and kisses me. I sit up and straddle him. I love watching him. I bend down a kiss him slowly as I start moving up and down. He holds me hips and guides me back and forth. He slides up to a sitting position so we are face to face. I wrap my legs around him and start to move faster. He buries his head in my breasts. Bite me I whisper. He does as I ask and bites down on my left breast. I moan with the pleasure I feel. He moves to the right breast and pulls my nipple between his teeth I hiss with pain but want more. I place my hands on the frame and move faster building my rhythm. Tom moans my name I can hear he is close. I take his hand and raise it the my throat. He looks surprised but goes with it. He squeezes lightly. More I whisper so he adds more pressure. Its feels intoxicating I love it. His eyes are glued to mine as we both cum together. He pulls my lips to his and we kiss while we ride the waves of our orgasams. I love you Tom. He roles me over on to my back still in me I love you too. He nozzles into my neck as we lie together drifting off to sleep. We are awoken by a loud knock. Are you too finished making up,the games are about to begin. We will be there in 5mins. I stretch my body that was nice. It was baby Let's go get ready. I hop up and change in to shorts and a top. Tie my hair up and grab some water. You ready to go, I am.we head down to the beach and the teams are being organised. I'm with Natasha,Clare and Lisa and another girl Gillian that I just met so we are facing Joe Tom Ivor Paul and Jack. The other girls partners have opted to organise the bbq . So Leah are you still confident. Fairly I smile, well what's the forfeit he asks. Well I think that you like to be the punisher so if I win I get to punish you infront of everyone tonight.Natasha's mouth drops to the floor, when she gains her composure. Damn girl that is good. Tom says nothing . You can back out if your too scared Tom. Tom laughs  baby your going down and considering that mouth of yours is so smart. My forfeit for you is if I win I get a blow job when I want as many times as I want for a month. Hardly a punishment Tom I laugh. Sucking your dick is my favourite thing I might just lose on purpose. You won't enjoy it by the time I'm finished with you honey. Big words daddy. Game on. Natasha can't contain her excitement. Girl you are getting me wet will you stop we need to focus. I walk to the girls and look back at Tom let the games begin honey and blow him a kiss..