Unknown Desire

chaos

I return to the apartment, there are guards everywhere I run to the door looking for Leah. Where the fuck is she, what is going on. I hear Joe's voice. But don't see him. I start calling his name and looking for him. Tom over here. I turn and see Joe being attended to by a paramedic. Joe what is going on, where is Leah. Tom, Eric escaped somehow he came here for Leah.
Where is she?
Tom he stabbed her she has lost alot of blood she is enroute to the hospital.
Where is he? I shout
Tom calm down, the guards shot him. He is also enroute to hospital.
I can't see straight, what hospital I shout. I don't know Tom.
Tom you need to calm down and get to the hospital. Leah needs you.
I walk towards the guards, where have you sent him. Don't worry he won't be a danger to Leah. We have made sure of it.
I explode like how you made sure he was locked up and yet he came here and attack Leah and Joe. Where is he, I shout.
If you don't calm down we will be forced to arrest you.
Arrest me that's a joke. This is all your fault. If she dies you better shoot me because I'm coming for him and then you.
We understand your upset but this isn't helping anyone.
Joe pulls me away.
Tom, Ivor is here to take us to the hospital.
I can't believe this. He better fucking die on that table because I'm done with this fucker. He is going to pray he never messed with me.
Tom you need to calm down, think of Leah and Erin.
Erin who has her, don't worry Ivor and Natasha have moved everyone to his house.
Tom, Ivor calls I have security set at the house, nobody is getting in or out.
I've also sent some to the hospital.
Joe what happened?
I don't know I arrived and she was running at me she said Eric came for her and the baby. He had stabbed her in the back. But she managed to get away. I told her to run to the shop for help. I didn't see her after that. I went after Eric. He managed to cut me but not before I knocked seven bells out of him. He tried to run but the guards had arrived and they shot him in the leg. And surrounded him.
This is all my fault I should never have left her. I punch the dash board.
Hey hey Ivor shouts,this isn't going to help anyone.
Tom you need to calm down. They won't let you in to the hospital like this.
I can't calm down, well OK he pulls in.
Why did you stop?
Because we aren't going any further until you do.
I try open the door to get out but it's lock.
Ivor, open the door before I smash this car up.
And what will that solve Tom.
Do you think Leah will be happy seeing you like this. If anything the first chance she gets she will take Erin and run.
You will lose everything.
I breakdown what if I already have.Tom she will be fine but is gonna need you more than ever now. Plus your daughter is going to need you.
This will be along road mentally never mind physically for Leah. She doesn't need you getting arrested or causing her any distress.
I know but this is my fault. She will never forgive me.
Tom stop breath.
It's Eric's fault and trust me he will not be getting away with this. I've been on to my friends. They will fix this, Eric is gonna wish he was dead by the time they finish with him.
Ivor we can't be sure. He has escaped once already. Trust me Eric won't be bothering anyone again.
Now let's all calm down, Leah needs our strength and support right now.
I sit in silence and try calm myself down.
OK let's go I say.
Ivor pulls out into traffic and heads to the hospital. When we arrive there are guards everywhere. I go in alone as Joe and Ivor talk to Ivor's men. I'm told Leah is in surgery and they will  know more once she is out. But she has lost alot of blood. I sit and wait. My brain is working over time. I feel my chest tighten, I can't breath. The walls are closing in on me.
I hear Joe call me,Tom are you okay.
Tom breath it's okay. It's just another panic attack. Nurse can I get some help here, Joe shouts but I black out.
When I come round,I'm in a bed in a room. I see Joe sitting beside my bed. What happened. You had panic attack and blacked out. Where is Leah?
She is in recovery she will be brought down soon. How is she?
Good she should make a full recovery.
But their was a problem. What sort of problem. She had damaged to her right side so they had to remove her right ovary. She might not be able to have anymore children.
Does she know, not yet.
OKay well I will be the one to tell her.
Joe she will never forgive me for this. She will take Erin and leave.
And to be honest I don't blame her.
Tom stop this now. Leah needs you more than ever. So stop the self pity and get your shit together.
Joe how are we going to get through this.
With support Tom, we are all here to help. Ivor has already got a friend to look at Leahs file to make sure she will have no further issues. We are all moving to his house until further notice. I've closed the club for the rest of the week. We don't need any complications there. So safest option is to close for a few days.
What is the word on Eric. None yet but Ivor isn't letting up on the guards. He is demanding information. As we are all at risk because of there stupidity.
The door opens and in walks the doctor. How are we feeling? I'm okay I need to know how Leah is. She will brought down soon. She was very lucky it could have been worse.
Now these panic attacks how often are they happening. I've had a few recently. But prior to that it's been a couple of years. OKay well we can prescribe something for anxiety. But you need to see a therapist. Don't worry doc, I already am. There has been alot going on recently. I will get them under control again. Well you need to calm down or you will give yourself a heart attack. Okay I hear you doc. When can I see Leah, give me five minutes I'll see where she is.
Tom you need to listen to what he is saying. I will I just need to see Leah.
The doctor comes back Okay follow me. She is in a private room with a guard on the door.But I see Ivor he is walking towards us and has his security with him. Tom ,Joe the guys will be standing guard. As we can't trust anyone. The guard looks amused , is there something funny I ask.
No but this is a bit much. It's not the president in there.
Tom grabs him by the throat. It's because of you useless shits we are here and you better believe she is more important than the president. If you can't do your fucking job get the fuck out of here before I make you.
Put him down Tom,I turn and the local Sargent is walking towards us. I drop him like a sack of spuds.
O reilly you are relieved. He scrambles to his feet and leaves. Tom how is Leah?Lucky to be alive no thanks to you lot.
Tom we are looking into what happened and you have my word we will find out who is involved.
Where is he now, he is in theatre. Sorry in this hospital.
Yeah they couldn't take him anywhere else.
Okay we need Leah transfered out of here right now.
Tom we have it under control.
No unless that man is dead you don't have anything under control.
He has already escaped and done this.
No we need to move now.
Tom once he is out of surgery he is being transferred back to Mountjoy.
I don't care, once he is here he is cable of anything.
Tom calm down, you are going to have a heart attack.
Tom, Ivor says we have it under control. Go in and see Leah. She will be wondering what all the commotion is.
I open the door not sure what to expect. Leah looks so fragile lying in the bed she is pale. I walk over and sit beside her not sure what to do.
I'm not dead,so cheer up.
Leah your awake a bit hard to sleep with that racket outside. Sorry Leah I just found out Eric is here also. Is he dead, no he is in surgery.
I've asked for you to be transferred. Tom it's okay, calm down.
Leah we can't trust the guards to keep you safe. No that is true but Eric won't get far. And I see Ivor has the place like fourth knox.
Tom where is Erin, they are all safe in Ivor's they will stay there for the foreseeable.
Tom, Eric knows about Erin he has been watching us.
Leah you need to rest, Erin is fine and I'm going stay with you.
Tom , Eric needs to be stopped he will keep trying to get us.
I know Leah, Ivor has a plan for him.
The less we know the better.
Listen you need to rest, we can talk later. I'm going to stay here with you so rest and let me take care of you. I love you Leah.
She drifts back off to sleep. I just look at her how could I be so foolish. I'm constantly fucking this up. Maybe she deserves better.
I need to tell her about her injuries.
That will kill her.
I swear to god I just wanna kill Eric.
There is a knock on the door. I go to it and it's Joe.
How is she?
Worried about Erin, and that Eric will keep coming for us.
Have you told her yet!
No,I want her to get some rest.
Have you checked in on everyone? Yeah they are all okay just worried about Leah. Erin is fine, Natasha has gone out and got what she needs for a few days. I'm gonna head back to Ivors to check on them. I will come back later,Tom please just look after yourself stay away from Eric. Last thing Leah needs is you getting arrested. I know Joe, but I'm close to the edge Eric has crossed so many lines. I can't let this go. Tom I feel the same and he will get what's coming to him trust me. But you need to remember you have a daughter and Leah to think about.
I know, I know I'm going to just stay in this room and stay out of everyone's way. But if he tries anything I'm going to kill him.
Okay I'll be back in a bit I'll get a few things for Leah as she will be here afew days. Joe leaves and I sit back down,so what haven't you told me she whispers.
Leah are you ok. Yes now tell me what I don't know.
We can talk after you get some rest.
Tom no more secrets I can't take anymore.
I sigh, knowing this is going to cause her a world of pain.
Leah the doctors said where you were stabbed was quite deep and damage your right side ovary they had to remove it. So your chances of having more children are slim. I'm so sorry Leah this is all my fault. She is silently staring at the ceiling. I can see a tear slip from her eye. Leah are you ok.
Tom I need to process this, you need to leave. I'm not leaving you Leah it's alot to process your right and I'm here to help.
Help you have done enough, now leave please.
Leah please don't be like that.
Tom leave Now! She shouts.
I'm not leaving but I will sit out side to give you time.
I stand and look at her she turns away from me. I'm so sorry Leah.
I step outside, I'm going to be sick I rush to the toilet and vomit.
What the fuck have I done.
I'm going to kill him, I leave the Toilet and head to Ivor.
Where is he?
I don't know Tom, Ivor don't lie to me.
He has destroyed Leah, she will never forgive me for this. He needs to die a painful death.
Woah Tom, you can't kill him. I can and I will.
Tom you can't do it here you will be locked up for the rest of your life.
I don't care,its no more than I deserve after what has happened.
OK enough Tom. Come with me now.
I look at him, Ivor I will tear this place apart if you don't tell me where he is. Tom I can't do that.
I storm off, I'll find him myself.
Ivor gets on the phone probably trying to get Joe back here. Joe won't stop me no one will. I head up stairs following signs to theatre. I look in and see if I can see him. I don't he must be in recovery. I head back the way I came. I get stopped by security.
I lie and say I got lost. He points the way out. I walk towards the door when I notice two of Ivor's men heading towards me. I side step into a room hoping they didn't see me. I look around and step in to the toilet and lock the door.
I sit and wait. I give it five minutes before I come out. No sign of them in the room. I walk out fuck they are waiting outside. Tom we need to return you back to Leah.
Not until I find him, I'm not going anywhere till I kill that fucker. I shout for them to get out of my way.
We can't do that Tom. Just come back with us.
I look between them and I make a run for it. They chase after me. I have no idea where I'm going. I run down the back stairs and on to the next floor I search the wards for him. When I see a room heavily guarded. Gotcha
I walk by grabbing a clip broad off one of the beds.
I fix myself and walk towards them. Sorry no one is aloud in they say. I'm just here to check his vitals. I'll be 2 minutes.
Okay be quick.
I head in Eric is cuffed to the bed. I stand over him. He opens his eyes and stares up at me.
Tom nice to see you,are you here to finish me off.
I say nothing I just stare at him.
Do it he says to me.
I step closer to him.
Do it Tom kill me,I rather be dead than be locked up for the rest of my life.
That's what stopped me in my tracks.
Eric i came here to kill you, but you Don't deserve death, death is too good for you. You deserve to be locked in a room by yourself for the rest of your life.
I always knew you were weak Tom.
If I was you I'd kill me because if you don't I'll come back for her and this time I'll finish the job.
Eric you won't get the chance, Ivor says from behind me. I turn to see Ivor. Eric where your going you be lucky to see daylight again.
Ivor always with the dramatic's. Just fucking kill me you know you want to Tom. I can see it in your face. Your whore was lucky, Joe turned up when he did. Next time she won't be lucky.
Tom let's go,he isn't worth it. We turn to leave as we reach the door. Eric calls my name,
Tom say Hi to your daughter for me, I'll be visiting her soon.
I snap and run at him. I start punching his face in. It takes Ivor and 3 of his guards to pull me off him. I'll fucking kill you I shout. The doctors rush in. Get him out of here now. I get dragged out into a room. Ivor locks me in and I completely trash the place.
I can't control the rage inside me. I've completely lost it. The years of burying all my rage from my childhood it was all coming out. I have to get out of here. I try pull the door open but it's locked.
Ivor let me out I shout, no Tom you need to calm down.
Ivor I'll break down this door. Let me out now.
Tom I can't you know I can't.  Leah can't see you like this. Think of her and your daughter. Don't mention my daughter Ivor.
Tom she needs you, she needs her daddy. You are not this guy Tom.
What if I am
What if this is really me. And trying to Bury it isn't working.
Tom, this is not who you are.
I'm going to leave you here until you calm down. I'm going to sort this out so you don't get arrested. Don't try to escape Tom. My guys will shoot you.
I just give up I can't keep fighting anymore. I slump to my knees and breakdown. How can we ever come back from this.