Unknown Desire

guide me to your light

It's been a few days since the bombshell dropped that Josh is a father and has been unfaithful for probably 20yrs. I've spent my time locked away from the world crying over a dead lying bastard. Tom has been great working from home to make sure I'm not alone. Attempting to cook and lounging watching netflix's with me.
Even down to sleeping in the spare room to give me space.  But today I've woke with a different view of things. Fuck Josh,fuck my so called friends I'm not going to shed one more tear for them. I'm going to live my best life and that had just begun with exploring my sexuality with Tom.
I've woke up feeling horny and I'm looking to be fucked and Tom is the man to do it. It's early so he may still be asleep I slip out of bed and undress. I walk across the hall to his room. He is snoring lightly I climb in beside him. His eyes open a little surprised look in them. Good morning sunshine I say. Good morning little girl he grunts. Are you OK. I run my fingers down his chest. I will be I whisper before I reach over for a kiss. He pulls back Leah are sure about this you haven't been in the right mind Recently and I don't want any rash behaviour to ruin our friendship. I look up at him and purr shut up and fuck me big boy. He laughs and bends down for a kiss. His familiar smell feels like home. It's so calming.
He moves down to my breasts and starts sucking and biting. I moan with desire, Tom I purr yes little girl I want you to spank me over your knee. He looks up at me I'm not sure thats a good idea. It's a great idea I purr back. Leah I don't want you rushing this. Tom I trust you completely and I'm ready to move forward. I want you to train me as your sub, I'll even sign your contract. Tom looks at me, leah your not a sub .
Not yet I protest. Not ever I reply. Well what am I then. Your Leah a girl trying to figure herself out. And I'm here to guide you but your not a sub Leah. You would spend your days tied up being punished all day. That mouth will get you in far too much trouble.
I hope it does I say licking my lips. Tom doesn't restrain himself as he crashes down on my lips. I can feel the beast is ready to go so I climb on top of Tom. His eyes never leave me. I grind my wet pussy over his boxers. I can see the war in Tom's eyes as to stop or go for it. I bend over his face my tits up against his mouth and whisper im ready to learn, fuck me Tom. Teach me Tom.
He loses his control and flips me on my back and holds my hands above my head. Leah I make the rules I decide how far this goes OK . Yes sir I say batting my eye lids. Thats all it takes he is under my spell. He raises my legs and slides his tongue all the way down it to my opening. Beautiful he groans as he dives right in. He works expertly on my pussy my moans are loud and I don't care as I need this. He slides his fingers inside me and pumps them while flicking my bean. This man is so good at this. Fuck me I'm cuming I scream not yet baby girl and he stops. I moan in frustration as he moves his tongue back up my body to my mouth. I return his kiss and wrap my legs around his waist. He looks at me so beautiful now get on your hands and knees he says. Yes sir I say seductively. He runs his hand across my bare ass it sends shivers up my spine. Then slaps it. It was a firm slap and I squealed with delight again I moan more please. He spanks my ass again my back arches with the impact, then he lines up behind me and enters me. Rough and fast but I like it. Every now and then he slaps my arse my moaning increases with each slap. Im cuming I yell. Tom speeds up and we both cum together I collapse on the bed Tom falls beside me our breathing chaotic. I feel tingley and good. Tom looks at me are you OK. Fine I say as i snuggle closer to him. He kisses my head and we fall back asleep. When i wake he is not there. I get up and listen for him he is on the phone. I walk to where he is and smile. He really is attractive. He hasn't noticed me yet standing naked at the door. I decide to wait for him to finish his call before I interrupt. He is taking his time so I lean seductively against the door while I wait. He finally turns and smiles at me. I start to caress my breasts. He wags his finger at me to stop. I slowly move my fingers down to my pussy and begin stroking. I moan for effect, Tom doesn't take his eyes off me. His lips are turned up into a smile as he tries to concentrate on his call. I slide down the door and sit against the door. I spread my legs to give him full view of me masterbating. I can see the beast is trying to escape from the bulge in his trousers pants. I throw my head back and moan seductively. I can see Tom is enjoying my little floor show. But not enough to finish his conversation. So I get brave and start to crawl over to him on my hands and knees. He stands still and watches my every move. I run my hand up his trouser leg until I reach his crotch. I creep my fingers up to the zip and pull it down. I slip my hand in and start stroking the beast. He is so hard i'm wet just thinking about him. I unbuckle his belt and unbutton his trousers. I take out his dick and stroke it up and down. He is trying to stay focus on his call. But I'm not about to give in.
So I lick my lips and use my tongue to lick from his base to his tip. He stiffles a groan pulling the phone away from his mouth hoping he wasn't heard. I smile wickedly at him. As I place the tip of his dick against my lips and kiss softly before opening my mouth to take him fully. He clears his throat and tries to focus. But with every move I make he loses his resolve. His hand is knotted in the back of my hair as he tries to control my movements. But i push my mouth forward taking him fully in my mouth. I move back and forth rolling my tongue over his tip. I see his jaw is clenched and I know I'm winning. He clears his throat and tells who ever is on the phone he has to go as something has come up. He throws his phone on the couch. And moans my name. I continue the task at hand as I begin to move faster. Tom tries to take control but I dont let him. I feel he is ready to explode and go for it my mouth is starting to ache but I don't falter as I massage his balls. Tom's groans are like music to my ears. As he explodes in my mouth he moans fuck Leah your to good at given head. I continue to suck him until the last drop leaves his dick. I pop his dick out and lick my lips I moan yum and stand up and walk towards the bedroom.Tom stands watching me. Little girl it's a dangerous game your playing. I know daddy what are you going to do about it as I dissappear. I hear Tom call my name but I don't answer. I climb on the bed and lie waiting for him. He comes to the door and looks at me. I smile at him seductively. Leah you need to get dressed we are heading to the club. I look at him and pout I want to play. Well I have a meeting today so playtime will have to be later. I frown not one bit happy. I'll make some breakfast he says I've just eaten I reply. Leah I would love to spend the day here but this meeting is important, I can't be late so you can come with me or stay here. I moan but get up and walk to the shower. I'm just in the shower when I hear the door open and Tom steps in. He nozzles my neck and says I suppose 5 minutes late won't matter. I turn and face him. He smashes his lips against mine and I moan as the water cascades over us. He lifts me up and presses me against the wall. He moves slowly to my nipples biting and pulling them i hiss in pain but it only pushes me to the edge. He lowers me on to his cock and begins to move inside me. I hold tight begging him to fuck me harder. He does as I ask and before I can catch my breath I'm cuming and screaming his name he continues to pump inside me until he cums. He kisses me as he places my feet on the ground and turns me round and starts to wash me. I love that he does this it makes me feel cared for. Its these intimate details that draw me closer to him. He turns off the shower and steps out grabbing me a towel and wrapping me up before placing a kiss on my head.  I hurry to the bed room to get ready as I know I've made him late. I don't have any work clothes with me so I throw on a black sundress. While he is in his meeting I'll pop out to the shops for a few bits.  We head to the bar where we meet Joe. Hi Leah how are you holding up. You know I smile just getting on with it. He smiles back and says hi to Tom. Is he here Tom says not yet I've set your meeting up in the backroom so Leah can hang in the office. I'm not going to wait in the office I'm going to head out and get a few bits I need. Are you sure Leah i can bring you later Tom I'll be fine. At least this way I won't be distracting you at work. OK ring me if you need me. Will do I say with a smile. I leave and head to town. I need some underwear as I forgot to bring any. I'm sure Tom won't mind if I don't wear any, I smile to myself. I head to the high street I pass a shop i never noticed before. I head in and wander round. There are many different items toys, clothes underwear. I walk to a rack that is selling bustiers with matching tongs. I pick up one or two sets that I'm sure Tom will like. I head to another rack that has skirts of all different fabrics and lengths. There is a beautiful leather pencil style skirt i pick it up and head to try it on. It fits like a glove. I step out of the changing room to get a better view. A girl goes by and stops . Girl you look good i have just the shoes for that skirt what size she says. 6 please she tots off as I stand admiring my ass in it. She comes back with a patent peetoe and a pair of stockings. I slide them on and agree they match perfectly giving me just enough height to pull off the skirt. Thanks I say ill take them do you have anything else that could pass for sexy work attire. She smiles of course follow me. She leads me up stairs and there is a selection of outfits. Some quite revealing skirts with the ass missing. Corests . Tops that are basically straps to cover your boobs. I look around picking out a few bits. I see a few chokers and remember how Tom liked the last one there is also collars. I head back down with my items and the girl appears with a dress i think this would be prefect on you. Its a beautiful wine crushed velvet dress with a slit up to the hip. With a plunging neckline. Its beautiful I say. Try it on she encourages. So I do and I have to admit I feel very sexy in it. The girl simple says hot to me I laugh. She grabs a leather collar with a wine velvet trim to match. And I have to say I'm speechless as I don't recognise myself. I'll take it i say. Great I'll start wrapping these up if you want to get changed or not you look so hot in that. I laugh and say I better take it off if I'm to get home in one piece. She smiles maybe your better off. I pay and thank the girl telling her no doubt I'll be back soon. I head into another few shops picking up some nice everyday underwear and a couple of work style dresses also. Its nearly lunchtime so I pick up some sandwiches and head back to the club on my way in I pass Eric. I keep my head down and head straight to the office i feel his eyes on me I shiver at the thought of him looking at me. I see you have learned some manners since we last met. I just keep walking. You should answer me when I speak to you pet. My blood begins to boil. But I just keep my mouth shut. I hear footsteps behind me and a hand grab me. I turn and it's Eric. Take your hand off me please I say. He laughs I give the orders not you. I can't control my temper and longer when he places his hand on my throat and says fiesty I like that. Before I know it I've raised my knee to his balls and buckled the fucker. I said dont touch me you creep. Before I know it Joe has me over his shoulder and is carrying me away. Tom looks furious. I hear raised voices but can't make out what is being said. Joe puts me down stay here Leah, I go to move but Joe gives me a warning look. So I stop, joe it wasn't my fault he followed me I begin to cry. Leah just stay here. I just nod my head. There gone what seems like forever I'm pacing up and down I know Tom is going to be furious with me. I'm mad at myself I could have ruined Tom's business with my actions. That fucking prick just couldn't leave me alone.
Finally I hear voices it's Tom and Joe. The door opens and Tom has a cut over his right eye. I burst into tears Tom i'm so sorry. Leah its not your fault. It is my fault I should have just answered him. Joe looks at me Leah its not your fault. Eric should never of touched you. He broke the rules of this club by doing so. But I knee'd him in the balls. Tom starts laughing. Leah that was the least of his problems by the time I finished with him. But Tom what about the club he will ruin you. He will try but alot of people are feeling fed up with Eric lately he is rubbing up the wrong people. So I dont think many will have any interest in what he has to say plus he isn't going to tell anyone you knee'd him in the balls. Plus we have video footage of everything that happened which I will send out to everyone in my contacts if he mentions anything negative about this club. I just sink to my knees and cry some more, joe panicks thats my cue to leave he says. Tom comes over to me and says Leah its ok. Its not your fault Eric is a nasty man and I'm sure many a woman would have loved to have your courage. I'm so proud of you Leah. No man has a right to touch any woman without her consent. It's the number one rule in the club. I just feel like I keep messing up Tom and dragging you down with me. Look at me Leah ,I don't raise my head to afraid to look at him. He sternly repeats him self Leah don't make me ask you again or you will be punished. I slowly raise my eyes to meet his face. Oh Tom your face I cry. Leah I'm fine I've taken worse. But you need to know non of this is your fault do you understand. I nod no Leah repeat after me Tom says it's not my fault.
It's not my fault I mumble. Leah you are asking to be punished. Repeat it again so I can hear you clearly. It's not my fault again louder it's not my fault. Good girl now come here to me.
I walk over and he wraps his arms around my waist. And kisses my head.
So did you buy anything nice today. Oh my bags there still in the corridor. I'll go get them I say no rush baby girl. Oh you might change your mind when you see whats in them I say. Well I'm eager to explore whats here right now. I laugh Tom is that all you think about, yes it is Leah especially when it's with you. I chuckle and raise my head to kiss him he winches at my touch. I dont think your in any shape to play.
Tom disagrees and smashes his mouth against mine picking my legs up and wrapping them around my waist. He carries me to his desk and sits me down strip he orders as he walks back to the door and locks it. I take off my dress and sandals. I unclip my bra and and slide my tong off as he watches. He removes his shirt and walks over to me. He kisses me again and pulls my legs open he moves his lips along my neck sucking and nipping. I moan with every nip. Tom opens his trousers  and steps out of them removes his boxers as I lick my lips. Leah you are the most incredible woman I've ever met. I blush and say most troublesome. That too. He kisses me tilting  my head back as he slaps my tits he ignites the fire in me  as I gasp. He then sucks my nipple drawing it out so he can tug at it with his teeth. I hiss throwing my head back and parting my legs even more. He pulls my legs closer to him and positions himself to enter me.  I moan his name begging for him to enter me and give me what I need. He raises one leg above his shoulder  as he enters me. I feel the air leave my lungs as he begins to pound in me. I let out a throaty moan as my eyes roll into the back of my head in ecstasy. More i cry, Tom groans as he places my hands above my head and kisses my breast while moving inside me. I can feel the tension build in my stomach as he sucks my nipples my hips buck as I explode. He bites down and im completely undone withering under his power. My breathing is out of control and I'm seeing fireworks. Tom I moan as I try catch my breath. Yes little girl.
I need more i pant. Oh we are not finished little girl as he smashes his lips down on mine. He pulls me up while still inside me. I wrap my legs around him and run my hands through his hair i pull at his lip with my teeth. I feel him moving inside me causing me to arch my back and give him access to my breasts again. I feel him growing inside me. I drag my nails up his back,he hisses and throws his head back. I move my lips to his neck and begin to kiss it and suck. He slams into me quite hard making me bite down on his neck I taste blood. It actually turns me on more and i begin to suck as he hisses. Leah he moans turn over I do as he says as he bends me over the desk and enters my pussy again. Raising my ass to give him better access my moans soon turn to screams of ecstasy as he slaps my ass while fucking my pussy the closer he comes to finishing the faster he gets my tits are bouncing against the cool desk. I feel my self cuming as Tom pounds inside me and grabs my hair and tugs my head back. My screams of ecstasy get louder as I come undone and Tom explodes inside me. I collapse on the desk as Tom leans on me to catch his breath. He kisses my back and says are you ok yes I purr. Are you hungry. For you yes,I say he laughs well we have all night for that little girl. But I think we should eat before the club opens and gets busy. Your no fun,I say .
Oh I'll show you later how fun I can be. But you may not be laughing by the end. Is that a promise I purr. He laughs, right showers and food as he pulls out of me making me moan. I walk to the shower feeling like my legs have run a marathon. Tom tries not to laugh and says let me help you bambi. He picks me up and carries me to the shower he turns it on and we wash each other. The silence between us makes it more intimate as we move in sync to wash each other. I get out of the shower feeling more human and wrap a towel around me, Tom follows as we walk back outside. Grabbing me and pulling me down on to the couch. He kisses me softly. So food what are you hungry for. I already told you what I want. He smiles at me later. I actually did get us lunch sandwiches there with my shopping god knows what state there in i laugh. I'll go grab your bags he says you rest. No peeking i say. Im curious he says as he gets up and heads to the closet. I smile as he walks away. I'll model my 
Purchases for him later if he is a good boy. I lie back into the couch and close my eyes. I think about today and how the chaos that seems to follow me round lately. And how Tom continues to rescue me and reassure me. I'm not sure how I'll repay him but tonight I'm going give myself to him fully. What ever he wants. Im his...