Unknown Desire

Time to talk

While making breakfast Tom tidys up.
I cooked eggs toast and sausages, I was actually straving and needed a cuppa tea. My mine wandered off to the last 24hrs. I've never felt so desired in all my life. It made me feel so powerful and extremely horny. Tom did things to me that Josh never even attempted. Tom looked at me with such hunger. Josh never looked at me like that. I never doubted my love for josh but this was different this was lust. I couldn't get enough of Tom. I couldn't get enough of how he made me feel. This trip away was a good idea. It has opened my eyes to Tom's lifestyle. I'll admit we haven't done much but it is making me curious to try things. Clearly I have a taste for more kinky styles of sex. Which surprised me and probably Tom. He was so good last night allowing me to get to where I needed on my own instincts. Nothing was forced just me feeling my self grow in confidence.
I loved how he controlled me. And allowed me to order him. It truly was an amazing 24hrs.
I feel him come up behind me and slide his hands around my waist. Mmm that smells good he murmurs. Me or the breakfast I say. Both he replied and you taste so much better as he kissed my neck. Slow down its breakfast time not dessert. Its always time for dessert. I slapped his hand away and say sit. He sat at the table while i served.
Thanks Leah you will fatten me up, with all this home cooking. I'm sure I can help you work it off I say teasingly.
I'll hold you too that.
So what is the plan for today I say. Well I've booked dinner for tonight. So thats at 8.00pm so we are free to do what ever you want. I think a walk and a chat would be good. OK i think that will be good too. We finish eating and tidy up. I get dressed in to a red sundress and tie my hair up. Its a beautiful day.  I head down stairs and Tom is ready and waiting he looks so hot in his track bottoms and t-shirt. He really is a handsome man. His chiselled face and blue eyes. So fucking handsome. Are you ready to go or are you going to stand drooling all day he laughed. Busted you wish I say slightly flush. I don't need to wish when I know baby.
Are you sure you will fit your head out the door it appears to be growing by the second.
Come on he laughed pulling me out the door. We walk down to the beach its absolutely gorgeous out. The heat in the sun feels so good on my skin. I say to Tom this place is beautiful, I really see why you kept it. Yeah its a great place to recharge even in winter. So let's talk Leah, how are feeling today? I'm really good Tom I really enjoyed last night. So did I Leah very much so. Well what are you now thinking about regarding what you know about my lifestyle. I indicate for us to sit as there is no one around.
Tom last night was amazing, I felt alive in ways I've never felt. I just felt free. Well thats good Leah, so I'm not sure where this will go but I'm interested in exploring and learning certain parts of bdsm. I could see Tom's eyes widen at this. But I want to take it slow, I want to see what I like and don't. OK well im open to that. Leah trust is a big part of this and you need to 100% be honest if your uncomfortable as it can cause problems. I think when we get back you can come to the club and watch a few scenes and get a feel for what goes on. OK I say to him, aslong as your honest with me Tom. I won't lie to you Leah. So do you want to tell me what you liked about last night and this morning. I blush at this, Leah we need to be able to talk openly about it so I know where your at and so I'm not over stepping your boundaries. Everything she blurted out. OK well thats good he says.
OK Leah I'll give my opinion. I think you like a bit of dominance but also like to be in control. You demanded I do things last night. Generally I'm a dominant so it intrigued me to see how far you would go. I liked that you where demanding and looking after your own needs. If I'm honest it was a turn on. Most women I'm with are submissive so I tell them and read them and give what I think they need or desire. Which gives me the release i need. But I quite enjoyed watching you take control.  I know you haven't had many partners sexually Leah but you are so much better than you give yourself credit for. Never doubt yourself. Last night i had one of the most amazing nights. I sat there unsure what to say in response I was like a beetroot from his words. He looked at me and smile don't be embarrassed. If we are doing this I want you to embrace your sexuality. I want you to feel free and confident in what you want to try and explore.
OK I say.
So what do you like Tom, what are you all about I say. well I'm a dominant so i like control. I like to control your body, control your orgasams. I like to whip,flog, play with different toys. I like to mark and control. I like to do live scenes. I like watching live scenes I like role play. I like multiple partners.
My head was spinning from the list. Thats alot I say. It is but I dont expect you to be on board with all of that.
Maybe In time you will. But again thats all down to you. If you say no we stop. Leah you need to be sure you want this.
OK I say can we enjoy the rest of our time here and discuss this when we get back.
Sure he said I just want you to be sure Leah.
Thanks I say leaning over and giving him a kiss.
Let's keep walking I say.  My mind is swirling with questions i'm just not sure im ready for the answers. But I am curious to learn more.