Unknown Desire

Tom:feeling hopeful

I couldn't believe Leah called me. I had been going out of my mind since I left her house that Sunday. I thought I'd lost any chance of getting to know her.
I buried myself in work to stop myself driving over to her house and begging her to try understand me.
When her name popped up and cut of straight away I wasn't sure if I should call her back.
I had to know what she was thinking so I returned the call.
When she said she had questions and maybe needed to go to the club To understand. I suggested dinner then the club giving her a chance to ask questions.
My mood instantly lifed. Joe walked in and noticed I wasn't growling at people anymore she called I guess.
Yes I said, Joe looked at me Tom give her time don't rush her or she will be gone. I know i know i say but Joe looks at me and says I'm serious man. Let her figure it out at her own speed.
Joe I have no intention of forcing her into anything thats not my style you know that.
I know but I see how you looked at her she isn't like the others. You are different with her.
I just don't want this to go wrong.
I know Joe she has told me she only wants to be Friends at the minute. I'll respect that. The ball is firmly in Leahs court. And what if thats all she can ever offer you. Well then I'll just have to accept it .
I arrive outside Leahs at 5:30pm but I won't leave the car till 6.00pm i don't want to appear to eager. I'm slightly nervous at how this will go. I really like her and believe we could be incredible together if Saturday and Sunday are anything to go by. The image of her bouncing up and down on my dick will haunt my dreams if I don't get to have her again. My dick starts to twitch in my pants at the memory. Down boy I say a semi will not help my cause tonight. I knock on her door when she answers she is in her robe my dick stands to attention and I think fuck this is going to be a long night.
She rushes up to get dressed while I try calm my manhood.
When she returns down the stairs I know I'm done for she looks so sexy in her dress with her hair up and sandals.
I compliment her and she blushes.
The drive to the restaurant is quite.
I can't help but stare ahead because if I take my eyes off the road we will probably crash.
At the restaurant she admits I'm only the second person she has been with.  This explains her insecurities. She says her husband wasn't really into exploring different things. This comment intrigues me, it tells me she is curious. That can only be a positive.
We decide to start again like we were meeting for the first time. She introduced herself and held her hand out for me to shake. Then got annoyed that I found this amusing. I love that side of her. It makes me want to do naughty things to her to punish her. stop it I tell myself she may never want to explore this side of you.
She then asks about how many relationships I've had. I tell her two that didn't work out. I didnt tell her it was because I didn't want children.
She then asked how many partners I had I told her 50 but the truth is I don't know could be more. I see her shock at this.
She asks about children I told her i don't want any. I see her eyes sadden at this, but we are here to be honest.
I ask her about children curious to know why she had none. I wasn't expecting to upset her I could have kicked myself. When she told me she was about to start ivf when her husband died. I could see her heart break in her eyes. I move to comfort her. She excuses herself to the bathroom and I'm left wondering if this was a good idea.
When she returns her eyes are a little puffy I ask if she is ok. And apologise for upsetting her.
She tells me I didn't but I know I have which bothers me. We casually talk through the rest of our meal. Before the bill arrives I ask her what she thinks about going to the club.
She looks at me and says nervous but I think its the only way I'll understand it if I see it. I say are you sure. She says yes I'm sure I summons the bill and pay I laugh as Leah tries to pay. I tell her I can't allow her to pay. She forgets herself and says I'll just have to pay you later. Not even realising what she has said. I say don't make promises you can't keep little girl. She blushes when it dawns on her protesting her innocence only makes me hornier this night will be the death of me.
As we walk to the club,I tell her at any point she is uncomfortable we will leave and she agrees.
As we approach the club she trips and I just about catch her. As she is in my arms she breathlessly says my hero. I lift her up straight and say your making a habit of needing to be rescued. To which she bats her eyelids and says your making a habit of rescuing me. I just about hold it together my dick is about to explode with all the sexual tension.
These games are what got us in this mess in the first place. The attraction is still there so there is hope for us yet I pray.
We walk into the bar side of the club and I say we will get a drink in the office first just so we can calm things down otherwise I'm going to bend her over and have my way with her.
And that would not be a good idea. Or would it be.