Unknown Desire

Reignite the flame

The rest of the week was spent getting ready for the holiday. Tom working to make sure there would be no issues with the club. Me at home with Erin waiting. Some days it would be after 9 before he would get home. My mind would wonder was it just work keeping him late or was he relieving his stress in other ways with other people. I knew I was being paranoid but the more he refused to touch me. The more paranoid i got. Everyone was off working and getting on with things while I was at home waiting. Just me and Erin. Today we had a lunch date with Natasha. So she was taking us out to cheer me up. I was just dressing Erin when she arrived. How are my Ladies she called out. In here I answer. Well don't we look pretty little miss I hear her say behind me. Clearly talking about Erin as I still wasn't dressed. I'll be five minutes I say handed her Erin. No rush Leah.
She heads out to the dining Room while I get dressed. I just throw on leggings and a top. Pulling my hair up.
Ready I say walking out to meet them. Natasha looks at me, but says nothing but I see the look on her face. The look of distain. What I say, nothing she replies. If you have something to say Natasha. Nothing just are you ok. You don't seem yourself. I look straight through her, fine why? You don't seem ok Leah. I'm fine I snap.
Hey hey stop Natasha says to me. I look at her and burst into tears. Hey hey what's wrong Leah. I look at her holding Erin. Beautifully dressed prefect makeup hair. And just cry some more.Leah I'm going to put Erin down so we can talk and get to the bottom of this. Sorry I cry feeling foolish.
OK now sit she orders, I do as I'm told.
Now what's all this about, why are you so upset.
I just cry into my hands. Leah I can't help you if you don't tell me.
You will think I'm stupid, I cry.
OK take a deep breath and calm down.
I do as I'm told. I look at her. I just feel alone. Tom is working all day and god knows what else. I'm here with Erin by myself most of the time. When Tom gets home he just eats dinner and plays with Erin. He hasn't touched me since the accident. I just feel lost and ungrateful. I have a beautiful baby girl something I never thought would ever happen and I feel jealous of the attention Tom gives her.
I'm a terrible mother, I begin to sob again. Hey hey you are not a terrible mother leah. You have been through alot. Tom loves you and wants to spend the rest of his life with you. Does he I say or is he just worried ill take Erin from him. Leah you know deep down that's not true.Then why won't he touch me. Why does he keep saying things like I could get used to coming home to a home cooked meal and my girls. Does he expect me to sit at home and wait on him.
Leah I think Tom just wants to look after you he is afraid to hurt you after everything you guys have been through. He is working late to sort the club so you guys can go away and relax and you can recover. Trust me he isn't with anyone else. Joe would murder him.
I know she is right.
I just feel so unattractive at the minute and my self confidence is on the floor especially when Tom rejects my advances.
OK well what are we going to do about this Leah.
I don't know Natasha.
You can't tell him any of this Natasha.
I won't I promise but I've just had an idea. We are going to go get you holiday ready. So let's pack enough stuff for Erin for the day. We are going to sort this out one step at a time.
Thank you Natasha I feel like a fool.
Don't you have been through alot recently. And some self care is what is needed.
We head out ready for the day. I'm feeling alittle better in myself just getting it off my chest. Right first things first waxing for the hols a massage, facial and then your hair. Followed by lunch and then some sexy shopping. Trust me by the time I finish with you Tom won't be able to resist you on this holiday.
We arrive at the salon and Natasha sends me off to get pampered. She takes Erin for a walk. A few hours pass and I'm feeling alittle more like myself as I sit awaiting my hairstylist to arrive. Natasha arrives back without Erin. Natasha smiles don't worry daddy has her. Natasha please tell me you didn't go tell Tom about my emotional breakdown. No I didn't I just dropped Erin off. Telling daddy we where have some girl time. Between daddy and Joe she will be fine. Promise me you didn't say anything. Leah I'm insulted that you don't trust me. Sorry I say.
Right enough self loathing time to get our hair done. Natasha sits down next to me as the stylist arrives. So what are we doing today Ladies. Natasha smiles make her look sexy. I laugh I don't think he works miracles Natasha. George the stylist looks at me I love a challenge sweetie. I smile a little afraid. But fuck it I need alittle sparkle today. An hour and a half later I'm look in the mirror and don't recognise myself. I look beautiful, I start to cry. They better be happy tears natasha says. I smile they are. We head off to lunch. While out I check my phone no messages. So I text Tom to see if everything is OK.
All good mamma with a picture of Erin asleep in Joe's arms is Tom's reply.
Do you need me to collect her I ask.
Not at all you enjoy your girls day.
Ring me if you need me I reply.
I will now enjoy yourself.
We eat lunch and it's quite nice to sit and talk and eat a warm meal.
Once finished nastasha says right shopping let's get you some sexy undies for your holidays. I laugh, thanks Natasha.
For what she says. Just reminding me who I am. She smiles I'm here for you Leah. I know and I really appreciate it.
We head to my favourite shop and I get a few bits as does Natasha. We head across the way to a bar for a drink.
Natasha orders us some cocktails and we begin to chat. Are you looking forward to your break she asks.
Yeah your house is fabulous. It's so relaxing all the scents of the flowers and the scenery. You must love spending time there.
I do it's my quite place. I don't get there as much as I'd like too. But it's always worth the wait when I do.
So how are things with you Natasha?
Good busy as always I told ivor we need to make some time for ourselves soon.
I feel a stab of guilt at her words.
Leah that wasn't aimed at you.
We have taken up alot of your time recently though.
Leah you have occupied my time recently.
Ivor has been so busy lately. Its been good to have a distraction.
Maybe we shouldn't go away maybe you and ivor should .
Leah ivor is busy with work so I'm more than happy to help Tom out in the club.
Well I'm forever grateful Natasha. You and Ivor have really looked out for me and Tom. I'll never forget that.
That's what friends do Leah.
I smile at her thanks for today I really needed it.
Enough with all the thanks I'll get a big head.
Leah just talk to Tom about how your feeling. He loves you trust me I've never seen him behave the way he does with you. You bring out the softer side of him. I smile its not the softer side I want. She laughs it will happen don't worry. Plus when your a way there is a room that's locked I keep the key in the safe in the wardrobe. Go have some playtime.
What if Tom doesn't want to. Trust me Leah once he see you In that outfit in that Room his inner animal won't be able to resist. I hope your right I think to myself.
We head back to the club and we find Tom a sleep with Erin. He has been working hard to make things prefect for us. I feel guilty for my mood lately he really is trying. I stroll over and lift Erin out of his arms. She looks so content which warms my heart.
Tom's eyes flutter open. Hi momma he says did you have a nice day. I did thank you for looking after Erin. You don't need to thank me I'm her father.
I know but you where working and didn't have any notice that she was going to be dumped on you. Firstly Erin and you come before work. Secondly uncle Joe doted over her all afternoon. And she was as good as gold for her daddy.
I'm just glad you had some girl time. He pulls me on to his lap. You look beautiful by the way. I smile thank you. I see you have been shopping.
Did you buy anything nice. Maybe but you will have to wait and see. What do you want to do for dinner I say. Well my lady, Clare has offered to baby sit so we can head out for dinner. Like a date remember those he smiles. I do I miss them I say.
Well tonight is date night so go home and get ready and ill come pick you up. I look at him are you sure we are away in two days. I know but we haven't seen much of each other lately. So let's make time for us. Plus how can I sit working with you looking so hot. I smile well I better get home and get changed. That's my girl.
I stand up to get Erin ready when Tom pulls me down to his lap. He kisses my neck. I slowly moan his lips feel so good. I move slowly against him. He moves his hands to my waste pulling closer to him. I groan again. As I smash my lips against him. I can't get enough of him. My kisses are aggressive and hungry. My groans are loud. Tom's hands slip under my shirt and he unhooks my bra. I shudder with the excitement my pants are soaked with the lust of wanting him. He lifts my top and latches on to my nipple he gentle pulls it with teeth. I feel electric.  He continues to suck and nip as I grind against him waiting  for him to rip my clothes off and fuck me. He moves back up to my lips and kisses me,softly gripping my neck. I love his control of me . It's such a turn on. He flips me on my back and pulls down my bottoms and slowly sliding down my pants. I can see the hunger in his eyes as he parts my legs and licks his lips. Beautiful he whispers. Good job I went to the salon I think to my self as he lifts my leg over his shoulder as starts to kiss My inner tigh. He moves across my pussy and swipes his tongue up to my clit. I nearly sure he murmurs yum . As he dives right in and fucks my pussy with his mouth. It doesn't take much for me to cum. I'm panting as he looks at me. Fuck me I say, I look in his eyes pleading with him. Oh baby I plan to just not right now. I have one more meeting then I'll be home to pick you up. For our date. Feeling slightly dejected again I say ok. And get dressed. Tom looks at me Leah things will get better we just need to take it slow. I feel like screaming with frustration I'm done with slow. Just bend me over and fuck me hard.
But I just pack up Erin's things and get ready to leave. Can you help me out with Erin I ask. Of course and he Takes her from me. Natasha is chatting with Joe. Are we ready to go she asks yes already. She looks at me sensing I'm not happy. She says her goodbyes and helps me the rest of the way out. Once in the safety of the car she asks what's wrong. Nothing I say.
Leah, spill.
He won't fuck me I shout. He teases me playing games going down on me but that's it. It's fucking frustrating me. Well what you going to do about it. What can I do. She looks at me Leah were is that sassy girl who constantly tied him up and played hide and seek with her man.  Where is that girl Leah. I sit quietly with my thoughts. Leah maybe it's time to play games with Tom. I seen how wild you sent him at our party before things went wrong.  Find that girl. What if she is gone. She isn't gone just a little lost. Find her and I can guarantee you Tom won't be able to resist fucking you.
I smile thanks Natasha you are always pointing me in the right direction. That's what friends are for.
We head in to the apartment, I settle Erin in her cot. Natasha is rooting in my wardrobe. There it is wear this she hands me a dress. No underwear.
Your hair is already done so just your make up and you are ready to blow his mind.  Thanks Natasha 
Don't thank me I'm being selfish  I want the old Leah back. I was enjoying our get to know each other session at the last party and hopefully you will still be interested in getting to know me when your ready. I smile of course Natasha, just need to get back on track with Tom before I go down that road again. Oh Leah there is no pressure or rush. I like you and enjoy your company everything else is a bonus. I smile at her, don't worry Natasha I'm keen to get back on track I was enjoying it.
Right Shower I will feed Erin while you get ready. I bend in and kiss Natasha.  Thank you I say. She seems surprised but smiles and heads out. 
I head to the shower with my shower cap so I don't ruin my hair. I think about what Natasha said. And a plan forms in my head. Tom loves the chase well I'll give him something to chase tonight.
I hear clare arrive to collect Erin. I head out in my robe to greet her. Love the hair she says it really suits you. I smile thanks. Right Joe is outside packing Erins stuff we are going grab her and run as mam has dinner on. Thank you Clare I appreciate this. Not at all now say goodbye and go get ready. I kiss Erin goodbye and head back to get ready. I slip on my dress it's the sheer one Tom bought me for the party over a year ago. No underwear. I add a splash of red lipstick and killer heals grab a bag and a few supplies. I walk out to Natasha. Fuck me Leah if he doesn't fuck you come find me cos I most certainly will. I ask nastasha to take a picture of me. She tells me to lean up against the door and to bite my lip.  Wow Leah you are going drive him wild tonight. I smile that's if he can find me. There she is my girl welcome back. I take my phone and send the picture to Tom with one word in the text Marco .
I head to the door were my taxi is waiting . Go get him girl
Damn I'm jealous she moans as I walk out the door.