Intruder Inside My Soul (EDITED)

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It was late at night, and I was alone in the house. I sat on the couch in our living room. Some movie playing on the TV, but I couldn’t really concentrate on it. My head was filled with depressing thoughts. Some were too dark for them to be healthy, but I had to repress them for the sake of the baby. My body was no longer just mine, so I had to take care of it. I couldn’t give up. Maybe sleep would help me to forget. Who was I kidding? I haven’t been able to get more than a few hours of that for the last couple of days. Not since I went to see Tyler.

I turned off TV and walked to my bedroom. It was in a quite a mess. Dirty clothes on the floor. I pulled off my hoodie and sweatpants. Then climbed in my bed under the blanket. Unfortunately, as soon as I closed my eyes, I saw Tyler’s face. I saw hate in his eyes and I saw hurt. How was I supposed to sleep?

My phone went off, announcing that I have received a message. I ignored it, but then it went off again.

I sighed and grabbed my phone that had laid on the nightstand for a whole day.

“Amy, come to the backyard.” The first one said. It was from Alex. What the hell did he want?

“I know you are not sleeping. Come. I promise you won’t regret it.” The second said. Why on earth did he need me outside? Couldn’t he just come to my room?

“Fuck me.” I whispered and got out of my bed that had gotten warm. I put on the same clothes as before and my slippers. When I opened the back door, the yard was dark. No one was there.

A slight panic set in my gut.

“Alex, I swear to God I am going to beat your ass if you won’t come out now! This ain’t funny!” I called out. This really was not funny.

“Alex isn’t here.” I screamed when Tyler came out of the shadows. Either that was him or I had lost my mind. I voted for the latter as he was in the prison.

“T... Tyler?” Still, the question slipped from my mouth. My heart was pounding like crazy.

“Sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you. It’s just when I saw you, I couldn’t move.” He came closer and stopped about 6ft from me.

“What? How is this possible? Did you break out of prison?” I asked. That was possible. He was Tyler “Animus" Rush after all.

“No. Travis dropped the charges, and I got out.” He explained. Dad told me that Travis had woke up, but no visitors were allowed.

I stared at Tyler, not knowing what to say. He had a fresh bruise on his cheek. Was he in a fight? He noticed where my eyes were locked and chuckled. God, I missed that sound.

“Alex and I made up.” He said, and I knew what that meant. There was not so much talking as there was action. They had to get out their built up anger and frustration through fists, only then there were words involved. I bet there was a lot of anger and frustration.

“What are you doing here?” Finally, I got the courage to ask. I knew what he felt for me. He was clear on that the last time we spoke, so his presence confused me.

“I knew you would not come here if I had asked, so I borrowed Alex’s phone.” He looked nervous.

“But why? I don’t want to hear how horrible I am. I already know that.” I hugged myself to feel some kind of protection.

“No, no. That’s not why I am here. And you are not horrible. God, Amy, I don’t know how to do this.” Tyler quickly said, shaking his head. “I had planned this whole shit out, but my head is blank. Fuck this.” He said frustratingly and fell on his knees. My eyes grew big, seeing him on his knees by my feet.

“Amabel, there are no words that could express how fucking sorry I am. I was hurt and I couldn’t think straight. I thought you had betrayed me, so I put my hurt into words. That was wrong, because every word was a fucking lie. I don’t think about you like that. What I do think... No, what I know is that you are fucking amazing. Since the first day in the Grim’s office, you pushed yourself in my soul like an intruder and I don’t regret it. I am more than willing to surrender myself to you.

I am so fucking glad that I had found someone I want to spend the rest of my life with. Someone I’ll do anything for. I love you. Amy. I love you so fucking much that it physically hurts not to be with you. Both of us had been idiots in their own way. It has led us here. We are fucked and damaged, but God, I am willing to work on us. To fix us. I want there to be us. All three of us.” Tears were falling from his eyes as they did from mine. I was a crying mess.

“Amy, baby, I swear to my life that I will work on myself. I will stop being jealous. Well, I’ll stop acting out on my jealousy. Instead, I’ll talk things through with you. I promise not to beat every guy that looks at you, though it will be hard. You are so fucking beautiful. I am begging you to give me another chance. If not that, let me be in your life and prove myself to you. Please...” he lowered his head. Shoulders shaking from his crying.

“I’m so sorry.” I rushed in his arms, falling in front of him. Without hesitation, he wrapped his hands around me and squeezed me tightly.

“I am so sorry. I wanted to tell you about the baby, but I was so scared. If only I had done that, then none of this would have happened. I hate myself so much for that. I ruined your life. I don’t deserve you.” I cried on his shoulder.

“No, no, no. Baby, look at me.” Tyler let go of me and took my face in his hands. He pulled my head up while leaning down himself so we would be an eye level. “Never say that. You are the one that’s too good for me. And I don’t blame you for being scared. I can’t imagine how you must have felt after everything you’ve been through. If anything, I think you are the strongest person I know. I just wish I had seen the signs that something was bothering you. Maybe then this wouldn’t have happened.

What’s done is done. All we can do now is move on and try to fix this shit. Because I want to be with you. I want to move into a cute ass house and build a family with you. I want all that sappy shit. But only with you. I love you.” Tyler looked at me. I couldn’t tell if my heart was swelling in happiness or melting. What I knew was that the man in front of me was my life and I could not lose him. He was perfect.

“I love you too.” I said and crushed my lips to his. There was no hesitation on his part. Tyler needed that as much as I did.

He and Alex expressed their feelings with their fists, but me and Tyler did that through the kiss.