The Blue Hearted Devil Himself

The pain in between

"As sexy as short hair is on you long hair-'' he pulls off my wig my air falls down my back "long just does something to your face." He cups my cheeks and I grin while kissing him. I'm awoken out of my delicate sleep by my head throbbing and the urge to vomit is ultimately strong.

I blank out forgetting I'm alive and living. I feel two arms trading back and forth dragging my knees against the cold ground, my head bobbles and I fight to stay lucid. Blood wrecks my mouth, my scent , everything feels off and swollen.

He tugs on my arm.a strange man I semi recognize. "Colten knocked her up." He snickers, pushing me to fall down. Face first my hands pull me up before a hard rough hand clamps down on my chin. Snapping me back to reality.

Nigel.

Half my face is caked in blood. my vision is blurry.

Nigel grips my chin so hard I feel his fingers dig deeply in my skin, eyes water up, he forces me on my knees.

"Get rid of it Katerina." Nigel hisses, sticking something between my boobs. I grab his hands trying to pry them off my face. And off  my chest he punches me right in the face. My eyes roll back A loud sound following after my neck cracking slightly and the impact itself, A scream rips through my teeth as I drop to the floor.

My face aches and throbs. Tears balling out my eyes and my face. I feel blood trickle down my nose and my eyes flutter to stay open. My face is hot in pain.

"you filthy dumb slut." He scolds me.

His words sting. I may be dumb but I am not a slut at least not for him anyway. I don't say anything though. I lay on the floor in pain. I groan groggily, earning a kick in my back. I dive back into the wood flooring face first.
Oh bitch that hurt.

My injuries just keep growing.

"We can just get rid of it ourselves." Leo suggested with a smirk putting his heavy foot in my stomach pressing slightly down.

Alarm bells go off. I furrow my brows as fear runs through my body. If I'm going to keep or get rid of this seed it's going to be my choice. I try to get up but he knees me in the face. I cry out, shaking tremendously. I fall back on my back. "Katerina if you make Colten daddy I will be the least of your fucking problems." Nigel says but I'm barely listening.

I'm gonna keep it but if I think about it too much I feel uneasy.

He drops a pregnancy test on the ground beside me. Mine. My ultrasound picture is gone though. I don't remember them grabbing that.

Nigel mutters something in Italian Leo takes his foot off me. The name Coltino did leave his lips though. And the word her and choice I think I hardly remember Spanish but I know it does share similar words in Italian.

"Get her out." Nigel huffs spitting words my head leans down I feel a hard stinging grip on my hair thrusting me upward I holler feeling a grip on each of my arms dragging me out the room.

I look around my head and feel heavy. I lean forward, unable to support my head. My neck cranes. "I didn't think he'd be one to hit a pregnant girl." He chuckles.

"You're kidding right. I heard he fed a man to rats alive. And he killed Emilia." he chuckles, tossing me on the ground outside. I shudder Colten brought Jared here the man who raped me. He fed him to rats as a piece offering for letting Nigel break my leg.
"Nah, that was Valentino, he killed Emilia." my head connects with the floor harshly I cough slightly. Tears blur my vision.

"Telling Leo that Colten needs to know it's her choice to get rid of it was the right way to go." I hear the voices toon out before I collapse. I look around. I'm in an alley way. It's cold and my breath fogs. I groaned trying to get out of their grasp. They brought me there to kick me around. This shouldn't affect the baby though. Right?

After a couple hours of laying there my body went in and out of consciousness. A dark van pulls up beside me. My body shakes in fear. I tremble. Two guys in mask dark ones hop out scrambling like rats, another pair of arms grab me putting a bag over my head. I thrust but I'm too dizzy to fight them off. "No no! get off me!" I attempt to say. Tears making their way down my face. It's just not my week. All over a fucking baby.

Dizziness wave suddenly I'm on the verge of passing out again.

My eyes shut.

"relax Katerina. '' "Will?" I whisper, he grins , get a warm cloth, I feel it brush across my cheek, a warm washcloth on my cheek.

I hum feeling lightheaded all over "rest" he kisses my head he's melting the blood off me. 'Will this kidnapping?" i say on an achy voice "I said to relax. " i it hurts concussion ? i look around the van "whos driving?" "Buzzy." he replies i sniffle "Buzzy Colten wants to kill you." i cough out i sit up "he sent us to get you." Will responds "where are we going?"he holds the back of my neck I am too weak to sit up on my own. "shh rest okay" he strokes my cheek and I nod.

I exhale drifting off.

1 year later

"lets run off together" Lilly says promptly a bruise on her cheek." its time for us to get the fuck out of Chicago you don't wanna raise her here," i furrow my brows "i'm getting divorced" she says "and i really cant be here when he receives that news." i sigh looking down at the itty bitty baby in my arms. her fingers wrapped around my pinky her lips wrapped around a bottle. i sigh "is that all." she looks down nodding nothing to do with the man you have been sneaking around with.

she shakes her head "i wanna leave i want you with me." Lilly already got her bags packed. I nod my head and she kisses my nose. "all of Emilia's stuff though." i say "when should this happen?"

"end of the week."

"i guess me personally i don't have that much stuff Emilia does though." i sold most of everything that was mine
"i bought us plane tickets!"
" to."

? "Suncrest city." "the city of stars." she gasps. Emilia's gray eyes peer up at me, her dark curls in a mess on her head. Suncrest city it is.

i didn't know it then but Lilly was pregnant with her husband's kid she knew that's why she rushed she was cheating him and he was hitting her every week. abusive scumbag. Lilly married her high school sweetheart soon after we moved there. I lived with them while Odette, her baby girl, was born and she got a divorce. Adam was sweet and kind all the time, someone she deserved.

I realized I would never trust a man around Emilia. It was a pill I had to swallow because I was so overprotective my past terrified me. Colten could come back and I probably would let him but if he ever laid hands on her I would kill him.

I read somewhere children who were abused have a higher chance to end up in abusive relations when they grow up. Lilly was abused as a kid not physically but emotionally she did use to get locked in closets as punishment her hands bound too. Then she married Henry who used to smack her and beat her. I wonder if Colten abused me and I just didn't know it. I don't think so.
He was the only serious enough situationship I had going on.

I'd hate for our story to be over. We were toxic and so bad but we understood each other. i'll be thankful to him for giving be this wonderful baby right here. Emilianna my one true love. His life has no place for a baby and hers has no place for a shitty father no father is better. i still wonder about my own but maybe he did me a favor dipping out before he could ruin me himself my mom should have done the same. the devil and i get along great. he's blue an a lot hotter than yours but he makes hell worth the while.