10:05 ~ Phan Highschool AU

10.

*tumbleweed*

Hello again...

Trigger warning

Phil's POV

I needed to relax and think over this plan.

I told Dan to go to bed in my mum's room.

I made sure he was alseep before I ran the shower to chill out, I didn't want him to see me like this. I the evening I am at my worst, some people get depressed in the morning, some the afternoon or even all day, for me its the night. I ran the water lukewarm and then stepped in. The water cascaded down my naked torso.

My mind took me to dark places, in the end I sat on the floor of my shower crying, my 'friend' in one hand, the other shaking with nerves. Today had been a good day, I almost forgot about the beatings I got from Brad but yet the whole time I just had thoughts of them, hitting me, calling me fat ugly and useless. It was true. Its just when people are your friends they don't tell you what's wrong about you, but as soon as you give them a reason to hate you, they attack you with the opinions they repressed.

I slid the blade against my wrist crying out in pain

A/N let's keep this one short. If anyone is suffering at the moment please message me, I may not be a therapist but if you need someone, I'll always be there. Stay strong my phanberries :3