It will be fine. . . . I promise?

Chapter 18~ Life or death

Kodies POV

We finished up our dinner and went decided to go back to Liams and chilled. It was Saturday night. I'd have to go back to my house tomorrow. Liams parents are coming back tomorrow and Im sure they wont want to come home to Liam having a girl live with him when he's got Danielle. That wouldnt exactly go down well.

"Guys, I we talk for a moment?" I asked, getting even more nervous every breath I take.

"We already are silly goose." Louis said, poking my cheek.

"No, seriously Lou. I really need to talk to you guys about something." I said. How am I supposed say it? 'Oh, Im to scared to go home because im scared of being alone.' No. No way. That makes me sound like I'm 5. 

"Ok. All serious now. Lou. Dont laugh." Harry said, trying to clam everyone down for this talk. I dont think they know how serious I'm being. This talk with show whether they really care or not.

"Ok go ahead Kodie. What do you need to talk to us about?" Liam said.

"This uhh- may sound stupid and silly, but uhh, tomorrows Sunday, and Liams parents are coming back, and so are Harry's and I'll have to go back to my place, where its a big house, 6 bedrooms and its only me living there. I guess- what I'm trying to say is, Im scared. Im scared of going back there. Im scared of living on my own. Im scared of being alone." I said. By the time I was finished talking I was looking down, squeezing my eyes shut, trying my best not to cry. 

"So... You can stay here if you want." Liam said. 

"Or at mine" Louis said

"Or mine" Harry said.

"No I couldnt do that guys. I dont want to be a burden."

Our conversation continued for a long time. About half an hour. They all offered me there places constantly but I refused each time. I didnt want to interfere with their parents life. I didnt want to be a burden in there home. In the end I ended up arguing with Harry. And here I am thinking that I was finally falling for a nice guy. I guess he's still the jerk I came to hear about.

"What do you want the Kodie? You dont want to live at our places yet you dont want to be alone! Make your mind up!" Harry screamed at me. I felt the tear stream down my face as I walked towards the front door where all my stuff still layed. 

I grabbed all my stuff and opened the door, revealing a dark and rainy night.

"TAKE A HINT HARRY!!" I screamed and slammed the door shut scurrying to my car. I shoved everything in the back seat and drove off back home. I couldnt believe he did that. I thought he was my best friend. I thought I could trust him. I thought I could go to him when I wasnt feeling myself. But that was the problem. I dont know what 'feeling myself' feels like anymore. My life was so screwed now. 

I pulled up my driveway and grabbed all my stuff and pulled them up to my parents bedroom. I shoved my suitcase in the empty closet and ran into the bathroom. Empty. Im guessing they were planning on leaving me then. I made my way down the stairs and into my sisters room. Nothing. Just an old bed spred. Did she know about this? 

I grabbed my phone out of my back pocket and dialled a nimber. 

Ring Ring Ring.

"Hello?" I heard a familiar irish voice say. 

I opened my mouth to say something but no words would come out. The tears had taken over. I pressed end and ran into my room. I grabbed my ipod and put my earbuds in. I pulled my coat off and changed into a tight singlet and a pair of my black pajama boxers. I didnt need to impress anyone. I wasnt planning on impressing anyone anymore. Or seeing anyone again for that matter.