It will be fine. . . . I promise?

Chapter 31 ~ Change is good... right?

Kodie's POV. 

After taking a lot of pills by accident I realised the minute I fell asleep the outcome was not going to be good. 

I never really fell asleep. I was more conscious but paralyzed. If that makes any sleep. I hear everything around me but I couldnt see anything or move a muscle. 

I now knew that Harry really did care about me. He was the one freaking out about my health the most. He's the one thats been around me the most. He's stuck by my side the whole time. On the way to the hopsital and all. 

I remember when the boys found out they were getting chased by the police. They didn't care though. They wanted to get me to the hospital as soon as they could.

"Harry, she's going to be fine." Zayn said, his wee Bradford accent showing through even more. 

"I know. I know she is. Its just, I'm worried that when she wakes up she's still going to hate me, despite the fact that I saved her." He said.

"Just give her some time. She'll come around eventually." Zayn said.

"I love her Zayn. I cant lose her. Not now. Not ever." Harry said, I could hear his voice quivering. Wait. He loves me? I felt my head start to hurt and my heart rate increase. GOD DAMMIT! Far out whats happening to me?! I let an ear piercing scream out, not expecting it to actually be heard.

Harry's POV

I finally admitted that I love Kodie. Shes my one and only. Ive never felt this way about a girl before. Sure I've had girlfriends but they didn't mean anything compared to how I felt towards Kodie. The moment I seen her Red Locks at the Airport in New Zealand, I felt sparks. It was just my luck that I was actually got to sit with her on the plane and her dad and Rach invited me to stay over the night.

I was lost in thought about Kodie when I heard a sudden ear piercing scream. My head shot up to see Kodie, screaming her lungs out in pain, hands clutching the non existent life out of the sides of the mattress, her back arched in pain and her eyes squeezed shut. 

I quickly grabbed the nurse buzzer next to her bed and pressed it continuously until the doctors came running in. 

I was sent out of the room so they could work out what exactly happened, and your damn right I was pissed. I wanted to be there for her no matter what was happening. I didn't want to be stuck in the waiting room with a bunch of nimrods staring at me like I'm going mental.

I couldn't help thinking over the possible causes of this. What could've sent her off the edge this time? God I hate saying that. 'This time'. It just reminds of the first time she tried this. 

A fresh tear ran down the side of my cheek remembering how much I hated myself after what happened. The pain she was in. The looks she got when she returned to school.

She doesn't deserve this kind of treatment. She deserves all the love she can get and I cant give her that. I cant give her the love she needs. The love she so desperately deserves.

Maybe it was when she went out with Niall? Maybe it was something that happened between them that set her off.

But what could it be? 

As if on cue Niall and the others came walking down the halls and into the waiting room. I jump at the moment and drag Niall back down the hall, ignoring his protests.

"What the hell Harry. Whats gotten into you?" He said, smoothing out his shirt that wrinkled at my grasp.

"What did you and Kodie do today?" I asked ignoring his first question.