It will be fine. . . . I promise?

Chapter 25~ Confusion and blackness

I moved the table close to the edge of my bed and placed my laptop on it.

I walked over the other side of my bed and grabbed my guitar and walked back over to my bed and sat down in front of the laptop. Turning it onto webcam.

"Hey guys.. My names Kodie. And this is 'She will be loved' by Maroon5." I said awkwardly, "it's my first video so, I hope you like." I started picking at the strings, doing the

Beauty queen of only 18 she

had some trouble with herself

He was alway there to help her she

Always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles

And wound up at your door

I've had you so many times

But somehow I want more

I don't mind spending everyday

Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Look for the girl with the broke smile

And ask if she wants to stay a while

And she will be loved

And she will be loved...."

I sang through the song, making sure I didn't make any mistakes,nor I'd have to start over.

I finished the song by strumming the last chords softly. I smiled sweetly and stopped the recording. I let out a big sigh, running my hands through my hair and placing my guitar to the side. The boys can't know about this. They would push me into doing xfactor, but I just can't do that. I have HUGE stage fright. I mean, you saw what happened on my first day of music. Me singing to a group of maybe 10-15? I ran out puking.

I opened YouTube and logged into my account. I clicked on Upload and uploaded my first and possibly only video on YouTube ever.

The video finished uploading and I tweeted a link to to it. After that I decided to go down and see everyone else. I told them I went to get some rest, knowing they wouldn't come up and check on me. I grabbed my laptop, making sure the video was fully uploaded and logged off, bringing it Along with me.

I walked down the stairs to see everyone in the living room playing twister. Oh god! This should be fun.

"Having fun there?" I said taking a seat next to Harry who was spinning the table. They all had left foot on green, left hand and right foot on blue and right hand on yellow.

"Yeah now shush! Trying to concentrate" Louis said. His head awfully close to Ele's but.

"I wouldn't look now Lou but your head is getting awfully close to Ele's butt." I laughed. I saw him look up, causing his left arm to slip. The way he fell down was hilarious. Truly a legendary fall.

"KODIE!" Lou yelled as he got up, giving me a glare.

"I said don't look!" I laughed, raising my hands up in defence.

I turned to my computer to occupy myself from going down in depression. It's been a day since my little sister went back home. They stayed for a week and I sorted things out with dad. He's getting rid of Rach and moving into a house and few blocks away from here.

I logged into my favourite clothing accounts and started browsing the clothes.

Nope

Nope

Too girly

Too green

Not me

Really? Who would buy that?