Get Me Out of Here (Completed)

Chapter 14

Chapter 14

I couldn't believe that I almost lost control of myself again. Kinikilabutan ako kapag bumabalik sa isip ko ang kagustuhang manakit.

If Dylan didn't stop me, what would have I possibly done? I can imagine myself pulling her hair, scratching her face.. and then being called out by the disciplinary committee the next day. At pagkatapos ay haharapin ko nanaman ang panghuhusga ng mga tao, pagtitinginan ako at pagbubulungan.

My hands trembled with all those imaginations in my head. My heart is palpitating. If I end up hurting someone again, then all the months I took away will just go to waste. Parang sinayang ko lang ang panahon na iginugol ko para magbago.

Gusto kong maiyak pero pinigilan ko ang sarili ko. I bit my lower lip so hard until it started bleeding again.

The car got stuck in traffic, doon palang ako natauhan, doon ko palang naalala kung sino ang kasama ko.

I glanced at him sideways. Diretso ang tingin niya sa kalsada kahit traffic. His prominent jaw is highlighted by the lamp posts outside.

Why is he helping me? I thought he didn't want to talk to me.. I thought he wanted us to be strangers. Ayokong isipin na tinutulungan niya ako ngayon dahil sa awa, pero alam kong iyon lang ang posibleng dahilan. He probably heard Hani's group talking about me, making fun of me.

My heart hurt thinking about that, na mukha akong kawawa kaya napilitan siyang tulungan ako. Gusto kong magalit pero alam kong mali iyon. I should even be thankful that he was there, that he stopped me. Kaya kahit naninikip ang dibdib ko ay tumahimik nalang ako.

I looked outside the window and just waited for us to reach home. I feel so tired and I just want to rest for now. Hindi ko namalayang nakatulog ako. Nagising nalang ako nang binubuhat na ako ni Arkin palabas ng sasakyan.

"Are you awake?" he asked when I opened my eyes.

Mula sa likuran niya ay natanaw ko si Dylan, nakatayo at nakatingin sa akin.

I looked at my brother and nodded. Umatras siya at hinayaan na akong lumabas ng sasakyan mag-isa. I still feel sleepy when I stood up infront of the two of them.

"Are you okay? I heard what happened."

I looked at Dylan who's still gazing at me. So he already told my brother.. Nag-iwas ako ng tingin. I looked at Arkin instead.

"I'm fine.." I tried to smile. "I'm just tired. I'll get inside now."

He nodded. "Ask Corine to help you out. If it's painful, we'll call the doctor."

I almost laughed. "I can't even feel it."

I saw how the two of them watched me because of my reaction. They both look so serious.

I sighed. "Fine, I'll put some ointment. But don't worry, I'm fine." Mas masakit pa ang nararamdaman ko sa puso ko kaysa sa balat kong napaso.

Kahit ayaw ko na ulit tignan si Dylan ay binalingan ko pa rin siya para magpasalamat. "Thank you.. for helping me out."

He just nodded like it's nothing and I already expected that. Hindi ko na dinagdagan pa ang sinabi ko at tinalikuran ko na sila agad. My lips trembled because I tried so hard to smile, it faded when I got inside the house.

That night was the first time that I cried myself to sleep again, after months of thinking that I was getting better.

I felt like time betrayed me. I thought I was doing fine but look at what just happened.. I got provoked easily. My mind that was at peace for a while, suddenly became chaotic. And my heart that I thought has moved on.. is now hurting again.