Get Me Out of Here (Completed)

Chapter 19

Chapter 19

"Let's treat your wound," he said after we ate our lunch in silence.

Tumango lang ako at hinayaan siya sa gustong gawin. He stood up to look for the first aid kit in my room, pagkatapos ay binalikan ako sa lamesa.

I saw him watching me intently, nananantiya ang mga tingin magmula pa kanina. He's probably trying to figure out what's on my mind, pero sa totoo lang ay blangko lang naman ang isip ko.

After crying, I just feel numb. Ni hindi ko naubos ang lunch ko, pinilit ko lang kumain para hindi siya mag-alala. I'm just so sick of everything, I'm so tired. Ang nararamdaman kong pagod ay hindi mapapawi ng tulog o pahinga.

"This will sting a bit.." he murmured while putting alcohol on my wound.

Pinagmasdan niya ako pero wala naman akong naging reaksyon sa pagtama ng alcohol sa sugat ko. Like what I said before, this kind of pain doesn't hurt me anymore. Because I grew up hurting myself, my pain tolerance got high and small wounds don't affect me anymore.

He sighed when he saw that I didn't even give any reaction. Nagpatuloy siya sa paggamot sa sugat, tahimik ko lang naman siyang pinanood.

Nang natapos ay lumuhod siya sa harapan ko, hawak pa rin ang kamay kong may sugat na nilagyan niya ng gauze.

"Please say something.." He looked at me worriedly.

I looked straight into his eyes.

"If you're still thinking about having the punishment then we can talk to your parents, I will talk to Arkin, I will tell him. We can suggest whatever you want to happen, just tell me what is it? Hmm?"

I shook my head. "I'll talk to them later, you don't have to do it."

His jaw clenched. "Then what should I do to make you feel better?"

I stared at him. I couldn't answer because I don't really know what exactly can make me feel better.

Pinisil niya ang kamay ko. He looks so expectant, like he can do everything I'll say.

I sighed. "I'm just tired, I want to rest, I want to be alone."

Hindi siya nakasagot. The look on his face told me that he's scared to leave me alone, lalo dahil sa nagawa ko sa sarili kanina.

I sighed once more. Bumaba ang tingin ko sa kamay naming magkahawak. "Hindi ko na uulitin.."

"How can I be sure? Kanina iniwan kitang maayos, pagbalik ko nagawa mo na ito. I don't want to risk, Armie."

I tried to smile a bit. "I promise.."

He sighed, he doesn't look convinced.

"Nagawa ko lang 'yon dahil sa mga nabasa ko. This time I will try not to read or hear anything. Magpapahinga lang ako."

He stared at me, halatang ayaw pa rin.

Kinuha ko ang cellphone kong nakapatong sa ibabaw ng lamesa, inilahad ko iyon sa harapan niya. "Here, take my phone, to make sure I won't read anything. You can take my laptop too, my ipad.."

He sighed and shook his head. He looks so bothered. Tinignan niya lang ang cellphone ko. "No.."

"You have to trust me.."

He looked at me like he knows that, but I know it's hard too.. paano ka magtitiwala sa akin kung ako mismo ay hindi makontrol ang sarili kong pag-iisip? I understand him but.. I'm just so tired.

Nagtagal ang titig niya, tila ilang beses pa munang nag-isip. In the end, he sighed and nodded weakly. "Alright, I trust you."

I nodded.