Get Me Out of Here (Completed)

Chapter 23

Chapter 23

I didn't want to get used to his warmth because I fear that I will be just the same girl who got crazy in love for a man and almost lost herself when he left her.

Hindi pa man kami nagsisimula, ang nasa isip ko ay ang katapusan na. Because my past taught me in a hard way, my past taught me that no matter how much you love a person, no matter how that person vowed to love you forever, he can still leave you. Because nothing is permanent in this world, and the scariest temporary thing is our feelings.

Our feelings are scary because it changes often, it changes in the slightest wrong move, in the slightest mistake, or even in the middle of happiness.. in the middle of what seems to be forever.

I'm scared that Dylan will leave me if I become the same toxic girl who I used to be. I'm scared that he'll get tired of me. I don't want to go through that kind of pain again, the pain of being left out, the pain of having someone get tired of me.

I want to be someone better, iyong hindi madaling iwan, iyong pipilitin ipaglaban kahit pa nakakapagod na. I want to be someone who's hard to give up, I want to be someone worth it.

"Let's get you home," Dylan murmured near my ears.

I shook my head. Nanatili akong nakasandal sa kaniyang dibdib habang sinusuklay niya ang buhok ko gamit ang kaniyang mga daliri.

Who won't want to stay in his arms like this? No matter how many times I tell myself that I shouldn't get used to it.. his warmth is like a magnetic field pulling me more. I couldn't resist.

"What are you thinking?" he asked when he noticed my silence for a long while.

I sighed and looked at him, nakita kong bumaba rin ang tingin niya sa mukha ko. His eyes didn't settle on my eyes, I saw him look down on my lips like he can't avoid it.

I couldn't stop my face from heating up because of that, naaalala ko ang paghalik niya sa akin.

"W-What are we now.." I murmured in a very low voice.

He kissed me.. and I can remember the things he told me. Patay na patay sa akin? How did he fall for someone like me? Kailan pa?

"What do you want us to be?" he asked seriously, titig na titig sa mukha ko habang patuloy pa ring hinahaplos ang buhok ko.

"Do you really.. like me?"

He chuckled. He leaned down a bit and smiled drunkly. "Gustong-gusto kita, Armie.."

I swallowed hard. Everything after that kiss tingles my stomach.

"W-Why do you like me?"

He sighed. Umatras siya at sumandal sa upuan, nanatili naman akong nakatingin sa kaniya.

He smiled weakly. Inabot niya ang pisngi ko at hinaplos. "I know this is hard to believe. Everyone knows that I've been an asshole, I was a playboy. I know this is one of the reasons why you pushed me away back then. But it's been a while.. I can hardly remember when was the last time that I dated for fun."

"You're not dating anyone now?"

He chuckled. "Ofcourse not, how can I do that?"

"Even when I pushed you away back then? Kahit noong mga buwan na wala pa ako dito? You never dated anyone?"

He smiled and shook his head. "Even before you went to the Philippines.. I wasn't seeing anyone anymore. After Kim's death, I never had the time to go out with any girl."

My eyebrows furrowed.

Tumawa siya at lumapit. "Totoo.."

"What made you stop?"