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Chapter 18- Heartbreak in between

Months passed by so quickly without me even noticing it. Kuya has been more aware and would even chat or text me as soon as he watched my vlogs. He's been more quite protective? Because my subscribers are increasing. Ate Maya is also checking up on me, sometimes whenever I would go for shopping she would come with me. I get so many reasons why my family loves ate Maya. 

"Malapit na graduation natin." Sabi ko sa squad ko habang nakain kami ng fries at shawarma. 

"Ha? gra-graduate ka pala?" Napa tingin ako kay Chard na malaki ang ngisi, habang nag kumukuwit ng ketchap. 

"Punyeta" I closed my eyes, trying myself to calm down. 

"Oh ang puso." Pag salo ni Aney, na para bang may nalaglag talaga. 

"Gra-graduate tayo ng pa absent absent lang 'yong isa tuwing thursday." Pagpaparinig ni Aney, kaya sumulyap ako kay Eisen. She's been busy lately. 

"Ilang art work na ba ang nagagawa mo?" I asked, because whenever we have free time she'll always paint or draw. Then she'll sell it. Hindi naman niya sinasabi kung bakit todo effort siya gumawa at mag benta. 

"Marami." She looked exhausted because of the demand of her clients. Yup, she has a lot of clients. 

"Thank you, A. Kung hindi dahil sa vlog mo hindi ako magkakaroon ng maraming kliyente." My brows furrowed. Ganito ba talaga pag pagod siya?

"are you drunk?" James asked, which made us laugh. Eisen showed him, her middle finger. Pumalakpak pa talaga si Chard, mukang nanonood ng movie. Kulang nalang ay bigyan siya ng popcorn. 

"Bakit todo gawa ka? Mukang ang yaman yaman mo na. Nasa libo minsan ang halaga ng art work." Sabi ni Aney at bumaling ng tingin kay Eisen na anytime ay babagsak na ang ulo niya. 

"I'm just preparing myself for college. Ayaw ko na sa bahay, e. I want to buy apartment kung possible condo." She shrugged and looked down, having her hopes down.

"Maaga pa naman. May J.S prom pa tayo,may exam, may club finale pa. Marami pang happenings." I told her trying to encourage her. But she seems to be pretty down today. So I ordered more fries at milktea. 

"Totoo pala? Akala ko for clout chasing lang." Chard giggled, but Eisen slapped his arms.

"Hala siya, nang hahampas. Ano ka si A?" Bumaling siya ng tingin sa 'kin. At siningkitan ako ng mata.

As soon as our class finished, I rushed home because my mom told me to. Nagmadali ako, hindi ako nagpa alam ng maayos sa mga kaibigan ko dahil sabi niya bilisan ko. 

But I wasn't expecting this "Ano na naman ba ang tanginang ginagawa mo sa buhay mo?" She scolded me while showing her ipad showing my youtube channel. Napa kurap ako ng ilang besses. I told her this many times, ago. pero binabalewala niya lahat. Na hindi naman importante sakaniya, so what is this all about?

"Ma, sinabi ko po 'yan sa 'yo bago ako magsimula." I said softly. 

"Putaing ina ka. Ano 'tong sixty thousand three hundred subscribers?" Ganan po karami ang taong nagmamahal sa kin ma. Ang pagmamahal na hindi mo mabigay-bigay, binigay sa 'kin ng maraming tao. 

"Punyeta, ginagago mo ba ako?" She scolded me as if I murder someone, as if I stole a huge amount of money on their bank, as if I'm not her daughter- family. 

Umakyat ako sa kwarto ng walang hapunan. Konti na nga lang nakain ko nung miryenda. I wanted to chat kuya about this. But my hands can't. Hindi ko kaya, baka itakwil pa ako ng sarili kong ina. 

I don't know how to manage to sleep properly at night. One of the reason why I'm not doing vlogs anymore. There are short clips of something I want to remember but I didn't upload it anymore.