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The next day, it's already Saturday, and tonight will be Arthfael's flight back to Canada. We already fixed his things and he said he had already fixed his ticket and passport.
I sleep peacefully beside him. We didn't talk much as he embraced me. He wasn't asking how my day went and seemed scared of asking me.
I don't know how to feel. I wanted to tell him how my day went and talk to him like the way we are okay. I feel like we're fighting, but we're okay.
Something is wrong, but we're not talking about it.
I didn't open my mouth, and that's my mistake, because I was scared that I might hurt him with my words.
Parang nasa isip ko na masasaktan ko lang s'ya kapag nag-usap kami at napag-usapan na naman namin ang tungkol sa pagbalik niya sa Canada.
Sana pala pinili ko nalang kausapin s'ya nang gabing 'yon.
Sana pinili ko nalang humingi agad ng tawad para nagkalinawan kami bago pa mas gumulo ang lahat.
On Saturday morning, I told him I was going to my parents' home because Mommy was finding me again. I couldn't just say no to her because I was really scared of what she might do to herself.
Ayaw ko nang maranasan kung anong naranasan ko noon.
Hindi ko gustong makitang nakahadusay s'ya ulit sa harapan ko at hindi na gaanong humihinga. Natatakot akong maisip na naman s'yang bawiin ang buhay niya.
That's why when she was looking for me, I was there for her.
I had breakfast with Arthfael. We talked about his flight later, and he told me that he'd be at their house while I was at my parents' house.
I wanted to spend this day with him, but I knew Tita Ari and Arthessa needed him.
"Mommy," I called my mom and knocked her door.
Daddy's on his work. Isang linggo na rin s'yang hindi nagtatrabaho tulad ko at ngayon kailangan na s'ya sa firm ay wala nang nagawa. Nangako nalang s'yang uuwi agad mamaya.
I opened my mom's room door and saw that she was peacefully sleeping on her bed. Nakahinga ako nang maluwag. I walked towards her and sat in the space beside her.
I removed the strands of hair from her face and stared at her. I bit my lip and sighed.
"I hope you feel better soon, mommy. I'm not used to seeing you and Dad like this. I don't want our family to get broken. Please?" I whispered to her and sighed to myself because I knew I wouldn't get an answer from her.
Her mood swings these past few days have been too much. Her dad was very patient with her and I know we both understand her situation. She just had a miscarriage. She's facing depression because of what happened. That is why we couldn't force her to do something she didn't want.
I looked at my phone when I received a message from Ivelise
Ivelise:
Have you checked the fashion week article, Khali?
Ako:
Not yet. Why?
Ivelise:
Naalala ko lang 'yung tungkol sa design mong ginaya ng Valentinas. It's one of the most famous designs in fashion week. There were a lot of models and bussiness woman that wanted to purchase it. What's it bad that the full credits of the design were on Valentina, when the truth is that the design was yours?
I licked my lips.
Actually, I almost forgot about that things.
I sighed and typed my reply to her.
