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Days after what happened to my mom, it was chaos for me. I couldn't think right because I'm so worried about her. I was always quiet and couldn't utter a word. I'm just looking at her and trying to see if tears will come down my cheeks, but they didn't.
Tulala lang talaga ako at nag-aalala sa kalagayan niya.
I was mad at my dad because he leaves her alone at home, but I couldn't be completely mad at him because I saw how he cried and continually told my mom he's sorry.
I still wanted to know why Mom wanted to file an annulment.
Arthfael didn't leave my side after what happened to my mom. He always talks to me and checks if I'm okay. I know he's worried, but I'm always telling him that I'm fine because I am really fine.
I was just scared and worried about my mom.
Hindi ako kumakausap ng iba maliban ka Arthfael simula nang isugod si mommy sa ospital.
Kung nahuli kami baka talagang hindi na namin s'ya naabutang buhay at mas lalo 'yong ikinatakot ko.
Parang gusto ko nalang ulit bumalik sa bahay para tingnan s'ya at bantayan.
Mommy woke up after a day when she tried to kill herself. She still wasn't talking to Dad and barely spoke. She was talking to me, but sometimes all I get is a nod.
"Kailan ka babalik sa Canada?" Bigla kong naitanong kay Arthfael nang maalala kong magdadalawang linggo na s'yang nananatili dito sa Pilipinas para lang samahan ako.
Mukhang natigilan s'ya sa tanong ko at nagtaas ng tingin saakin.
His lips parted and I arched my eyebrows.
"Babalik ako sa Canada kapag alam kong ayos ka na talaga,"
Kumunot ang noo ko. "I'm fine, Arthfael. Kailangan mo nang bumalik dahil ang tagal mo nang nandito. Paano ang pag-aaral mo?"
He sighed and nodded. "Ayos ka na ba talaga?"
I stiffened. "Ayos naman ako,"
"Hindi ka ba nagsisinungaling saakin?" Tanong niya, naninigurado.
Tumango ako nguni't hindi ngumiti. Arthfael smiled and nodded. "I'll see if I can get a flight to Canada next week..."
"Next week? Bakit next week pa?" Tanong ko ulit.
Umiling si Arthfael at malalim na napabuntonghininga.
"Okay, ngayon na. Titingnan ko kung may flight ba sa sabado." Marahan niyang tugon saakin.
I stared at him. It's already Wednesday, kung kukuha s'ya ng flight sa sabado ay may dalawang araw pa s'ya dito. Gusto kong nandito s'ya pero mas mahalaga pa rin ang pag-aaral niya.
I haven't worked since the day I went home. I didn't have a chance to confront Valentina and Rian about my design. I know my team is already back here, and I told them to have a vacation first because I don't think I could work properly after what happened to my mom. I just need to focus on her first. We needed to fix our family problem first.
I don't get enough sleep every time I remember what my mom looked like that night. It was repeating in my mind. That is why when I was sleeping with Arthfael in our condo, I was always worried about my mom.
Friday came, and unexpectedly in the morning, Tita Ari called me and said that if we could have breakfast together outside.
I said yes, of course.
Arthfael is still sleeping when I go out of our condo. I'll be having breakfast with my mom, but I promised to have breakfast with him too. Siguro ay hindi nalang ako kakain ng marami para masabayan ko pa rin s'ya.
